Emo ME~

I think my i have PMS... my goodness.. it has been months since i felt so emo... The past few months.. my PMS were anger, frustration and anything along that line.. But this month is sad, gloomy, demoralised...

Even my colleagues also can feel that i aint talking that much, i feel tired easily... Totally worn out like tat... i feel it too.. and i feel that i put on weight... each mth when i feel this way, it means im seriously coming le... cause will bloat.. and feel like shit.. Nothing seems to look good on me... Den got pimples on my pimpled face.. ARGH!!!!!

Emo Emo... i jus dont feel like saying more, joking more... I just feel like keep quiet.. and bu yao lai re wo mood...

When will i get over this emo?? The mth is starting.. and i need numbers.. im stressed...

ARGH~~

Dino... Just Be Focus

Am really tired and troubled over all these issues... Am thinking of leaving Adventus... not because im not happy...

Im happy... Im contented... Im feeling appreciative... but... Im guilty for making boss lose faith. Im guilty for not making enough for the company. My guilt is making me leave... I dun wan to waste their hopes on me...

Then, i spoke to my friend over the phone... he asked me a lot of questions... And suddenly.. he enlightened me... he said.. "Ur job is paying you well, and since you job is paying you well, you jus need to work hard and get in the money."

He added "Your job now is simple... Work Hard and Stay focus on how to going to earn the money. If you can hit your target, you can solve almost all your prob. Your job is to focus and think how to earn the money. Why you worry so much?"

i told him that i think im not a good sales.. he say... the only way you can see if you are a good sales, is the amount you earn and the hard work you put in. If money is good, yet you dont work hard, then for sure you are not a good sales...

Then on msn.. he wrote...
Andy says:
being a good sales... focus is very very important
Andy says:
u lose ur focus... u lose sales... u lose sales... u lose money........

Thanks Andy.. Thanks for finding "me" back for me. I know my mistakes and where i failed... but i couldnt find the push factor for me to move on. You enlightened me.

I will give it another try.

Thou shall not stop trying. Please give me time.

"Since Money Is There, Your Just Stay Very Focus, Work Hard To Think Of Ways To Earn That Money - That Is YOUR JOB"

Aja FiGhtInG!!

Ok... end of the month.. But also the start of a brand new race...

I will put in more effort this month! Do something for myself, and for the people who cares for me!!

Jia You!!

-- Watching Dicey Business!

Sales Closing & Restarting..

25th is our closing... Yeah, broke my pathetic egg.. 1 MFP!?!?! What nonsense...

No No... i MUST close Havi this month... its like... i put in a lot of effort hor... But this work year seems ok for me.. i mean.. im getting the hang of it liao la.. Hopefully bigger and bigger cases coming in!!

Haha... was bored yesterday while waiting for Ms Elaine to come back, but too bad shes stuck at osim for a long long time.. so took some pics of my table which is my habit la.. haha... always take pics of my table.. even in OCBC.. its like a memory la.. next time i can see see if i no longer with the company ma...

But today i did some fengshui adjustments.. Nope, din read books to shift.. jus shift & feel comfortable lor.. feel very constrained with my drawer right below my table... Haha..

Well.. Here it is...


Sea View Desk

Small but compact (Check out the area map.. thats where my di pan is.. Pandan)

Tell Me Again How Lucky Am I To Work Here - I Keep Forgetting

Last But Not Least... My Other Colleagues' Desk!! haha

我真的心痛了

不知为何，每次讲到我妈，总会用华语来表达我的感受。。

当我收到妈妈的来电，我顿时不知所措。可是，到了医院时，我只看到妈妈那彷徨的眼神。就在那一刻，我好像看到一个受伤的孩子。我就在那一刻，心酸了。。妈妈一直对我结识当时的经过，我只能怨我自己为何不能在他身旁。我也问我自己，如果有一天，他真的出世了，我到底会在几天后知情呢？

其实，在过年时，我就发现妈妈的体力开始弱了，只能做得也只是帮他把家务做好，那它能拜年后好好休息。我已经打算每个礼拜回家帮他，我只是不想让他为家务劳累。

当医生检查他时，他不停的文艺省是否有事，但一声也不知所措。我明白，如果说得太夸张指挥下怀老人家，但不能不排除可能性。我只好在旁安慰妈妈。当妈妈解释给我听时，他眼里眶着泪水让我好心痛。我很怕失去他，但也明白生老病死的程序。我只想好好珍惜他。

今天，我抬她到牙科医生检查时，护士小姐问他是否还好吗？那只用了不流利的英语说了。。 “I'm Scared”。。 护士小姐就剥了他说"dont be scared, i'm here"。 那时候的我，泪水就子让得流了下来。可是，每人看到我心酸的眼生，我就即可地把眼泪收回去。即使现在回想起来，我的眼泪也会标出来的！那感人的一面，让妈妈也安慰了下来。

传科医生检查了后，本想要为妈妈解除血块，但妈妈怕痛，说一我就叫医生让它自然痊愈，让妈妈放下心来。看到妈妈很怕很怕的样子，我就觉得我肯应该保护他，不让他做他不想做的事。他就像个小孩，很怕痛，很害怕。。 我就像他身边的大人，不停的劝解他。这种感觉就像守护着妻子的丈夫，给他安全感。

当一切检查好事，我们心头的那可是头也放了下来了。

可是，这个守护着妈妈的感觉，有增无减。。

我只能说的事。。。 我只想爱妈妈多一点，只想用我的一切保护着他那虚弱的身子。

妈，不知你我缘份还有多久，我不会让你一个人的。

The Fear In Me

Wanted to relax and enjoy a good meal with my colleagues yesterday but recd a call from my mom to rush her to the hospital as she's got a blood blister which caused blood to burst from her inner cheeks... Shes alright now... After an x ray and some specialist checking on her... She felt much better...

But to me, this incident has affected me emotionally. In fact, recently, i told Alvin that i need to spend more time with my mom, go home more often and spend time with her. Esp this year, i realise that she no longer have the strength she used to have, no breath to talk for a longer time... I feel that she is getting old - for the first time.

Thinking back, i have never spent time with her... making her feel redundant to adopt a child like me.. or even worse... I do feel bad, but i had my reasons for not being there. Its my ambitious character. But one thing i forgot - I needed time, but time ages my mom too.

That is why im thankful im regretting now than later when shes no longer around.

While i looked at her in the room while waiting for the specialist, what i saw was like a child sitting there feeling lost. Since she is old, there is nothing i can do to pamper her or calm her down. I can just put my hand on hers and be there right beside her. I wanted the best for my mom, have always been like that.

When she sat there waiting for her turn, she narated the scenario to me and i saw tears in her eyes. The fear of bad things falling upon her, and as for me... I had the fear of losing her and the strong goal of not making her lost again. I felt i needed to protect her, secure her. I just want to be her man.

Well, wait till i go back home, i will continue this blog and tell u how i feel and how u would feel too.

Trust Yourself

Work is pretty alright... if u dun see me blogging everyday.. that means im working! haha... Finally proposed the deal to my client today... If i get to close them, i will go HK for sure... Its more like rewarding myself la... plus an excuse for me to go holidays without feeling guilty? heh...

I plan liao.. if next month close them, April i also got one potential one which was suppose to come in this month but they delayed me till April la... So i kinda got my forecast done for the next 2 months.. Now i just need to find time to do the smaller deals to back up just in case those cases dont come in la...

Still, i think of going for prayers at pandan gardens tomorrow ba, to inform the gods above the potential cases and seek help to watch over those deals? hee... wu pai wu por pi ma...

Anyway, i dunno why im very sleepy nowadays.. I guess it must be the psp games before bed making me very sleepy ba...

I need to sleep early from today and make sure my attendance is healthy!!!

Cannot be late again and again...

Kampateh!

TGIF

Another week gone.. thank god i broke my egg.. even thou not fully confirmed.. but finance part mostly clear liao... Im trying to cheong for one of the bigger case... and i hope to bring in by this mth so that i can see 5 figure liao!! haha.. happy like ku ku bird...

Well.. work is as busy as ever.. and im as tired as ever... stayed back on wed to lend her a helping hand in whatever i can so that she no need to work too late... den thurs went to my mom's place for prayers.. prayed till fri 2am.. den rush home to sleep.. by the time.. alr 3am.. den rush to work today... late...

i need to stop my lateness.. its not good u know? i dun care.. tmr i buy 2 alarm clocks to put in my room... loud loud one...

Am tired.. but seems like this weekend is quite packed with programmes also... hmmm.. i need my beauty sleep!!!!

Falling in Love All Over Again

When was the last time you fell for someone?

The very moment you saw him?

But what if everything seems to be like a dream?

Like in just a moment, its gone?

When can i forget his existance?

Last Day of Celebrations

Oh well, one more day till we get back to work once AGAIN..

I quite like the Feb edition of Women's Weekly... So i decided to do some research & intro, blog out some of the interesting stuff i read... Hyperlinks are attached, feel free to surf it out.. If i happen to try them, i will tell u too!! :)

Senteur de Provence - Scent Makers! Got Workshop somemore wor...

Mothers en Vogue - Online Store for Mommies!

Which ones do you use? - I'm thinking of trying new stuff on my face.. but, quite worried to use the wrong ones... Sigh...




Seems like a good product.. I always like M.I.J (Made In Japan) facial products, think im gonna try this... Gel base is GOOD.. since i got oily skin... & works as a make up base!! Some moisturisers dont work well with make ups.. :)



Like very good wor.. got honey de... and keeps skin moisture... And not cakey wor... Should go down to Tangs @ Vivo to try it out first.. & see the price$55 @ BHG... heh...








Used their make up before.. Its true.. they really blend into ur skin colour.. Afforadable Range of products.. If i dun like the Laneige one.. i prob will go for this cause im currently using Mac's liquid foundation but i realise that its not as good as last time liao..







Perfumes!! I LOVE PERFUMES!! I always buy perfumes de.. i literally have one compartment for all my scents in my wardrobe.. heh... But i realise the one im using now.. (Armani Code) is used up.. Planning to get new ones & another bottle of Code.. Hee..

Eye Shadows!! Saw many brands on the mag.. and like wat i said in my last post.. Im collecting eye shadows!! haha... Even thou my make up process extends, i cant seem to wake up earlier.. thats why always late for work, or have to make up in the cab den rush to office to do my hair with the hand dryer!!! haha

Wanna collect more nail colours... more eye colors.. buy perfumes!! haha im going crazy.... More to come!!

One More Day...

Another day of CNY celebration.. This year is rather tiring... Had a good 6 hours of mahjong game with my bro in law, cousin in law and Elvyn at my place... Since its all family members, we reckon that our parents in law wont nag also.. We were all shag by 5am when we ended...

Woke up at 3pm which makes me worry if this is how my sleeping time would get adjusted all over again... Cause its 3am now, and im still awake? haha... Went to Elvyn's uncle place for visiting earlier... Took few pics and had non stop playing of card game (si ki pi).. consist of 4 cards and pairing them to see if we can win the banker... haha!! Won about a hundred ba... but gave most of my winnings of my dad in law who place his bets with me..



When i came home, i was thinking of my schedule next week and i reckon that there are many things i wanna do but no time to get them done... so i decided to add a box at my sidebar to remind me... And i reckon that im running out of compact powder, blusher and some cosmetics as i was reading Women's Weekly earlier... ARgh, i wanna change brands but dont know which one to pick... Gosh.. Im rather particular about such products esp after my pox... See if i can post my choices in the next post & u guys gimme some comments ya?

Oh! Thanks to Elaine, i've bought the nail polish and did for myself a neat and nice mani & pedi! Im loving it... I realise that i've getting more vain since i started working here.. First i start having weekly DIY facial for 1 month without skipping.. Change my nail colours once a week, mani & pedi by myself like how i got mine in shops last time (like soaking, cleaning cuticles etc).. And i start reading about cosmetics, buying eye colours to go with my outfit.. Style my hair without being lazy and gg out without styling.. Dressing up for my work instead of the boring and anyhow dressing like i used to... And.. im back to my "loads of shoes" habit again! (i stopped cause my dad in law grumble)

Yeah, i really becoming more hiao day by day.. oh no... that means im spending MORE & MORE money....

Kiong He Huat Zai!!

This is the reason why some choose to avoid cny (bi guo nian)... Esp when you have many relatives...My mom tell me.. yi si yi si jiu hao... So i really yi si yi si lor...




Waking Up at 6am was a tiring thing..
Elvyn "concast-ed" and the boring me taking silly pics!
haha.. Had everything packed so that we can go visiting to
granny house later..I realise i had many to bring!
haha...


This is only one of the FEW dishes my mom cooked... couldnt take all of the dishes cause we are both busy putting the pots on the charcoal stove to heat up, washing bowls.. spoons.. chopsticks.. and each time the guests finish their meal, we have to keep them all and heat them up again... and wash the dish bowls.. then clean the table... and set the dishes like fried prawns, ngo heong, abalone slices and deco them on the plates and set it out for the next table of guests...

We started from 7am and didnt stop till 6pm...!! Suppose to go with my mom to granny place, but end up my mom and my uncle went themselves while me and Elvyn packed the house... cause the kitchen was in a mess.. HAHA... But this year, my mom more relax cause all the servings were done by us and my mom's turn to sit outside and entertain the guests... All my relatives keep telling my mom how kuai busy we were... By the time we finish, we showered and left quickly to Elvyn's big uncle place.. den i quickly rushed to my granny's place at 9pm...

I thought there isnt any one else at her plc.. but who knows... all my cousins were at my granny's plc.. haha... Chit chat till 10+pm.. then rec'd an sms frm my sis in law that my bro in law was drunk and our St James' cheong session is cancelled.. so we headed home and K.O-ed on the bed almost immediately...

And now, i have to wash up and go for my day 2 visitings... managed to skip the morning session but doubt we will end everything early today also... haha..

Im getting old.. No more energy liao.. heh...

But hor.. i still got ANG BAO ok! from my mom, in laws, granny & my sis in law!! we are still kids young hor...

Gong Xi Gong Xi

Wish Everybody HOCK KI!! DUA DUA TAN TAN... EVERY MONTH GET GOOD MONEY...

BANK ACCOUNT ALWAYS 5 DIGIT....

MY POCKET EVERYDAY FULL OF MONEY!!

HAHAHA

GONG XI GONG XI

Wat a Service For A Reputable Restaurant

Call me a bitch, i dont give a damn...

Went with my in laws for reunion dinner at Harbour City Restaurant at my office building... I was all happy for my wedding was at one of the "branch" and it served GOOD food... so i had high expectations in this dinner...

Well, when i was served the first dish - lao yu sheng.. everything was pretty ok... then... the sharks fin... while i took my first mouthful of the soup and chatting with my bro in law... i tasted some "fishy" thing in my mouth.. and pple who knows me well (im sure fang does..) ===>> LOOK FOR THE MANAGER

I told the lady that the sharks fin was "xing" (fishy) and she replied in an "are u sure" tone.. the usual reply to her was - "do u wanna give it a try??" So immediately she went to the kitchen and came back...

Lady: The kitchen will serve you a new bowl
Me: huh? how u expect me to eat them?
Lady: Oh, but my kitchen will get you a new one, sorry about that
Me: No, i dont wanna eat another bowl, you see what u can do about it...
Lady: ok
(Returns to my table)
Lady: We will give you a 20% disc on your bill

Oh well, i dont mind that deal since the dinner will cost me $500!! (for a 6 pax serving).. So we continued our dinner even thou the way they served their food was as thou they were rushing home for their own reunion dinner.. I reckon its a joyous occasion & i shant be fussy...

GUESS WHAT? 38 mins and we are done with our dishes leaving our desert.. **claps**

Then comes the bill, asking Alvin to get the bill, i reckon he would be blur even thou i reminded him that using UOB have another 20% disc.. i walked over to the counter... Here it goes...

Me: (looking at the bill) Oh, i think i should be given another 20% on top of the 20% uob disc
Cashier: (firmly) Ya, this is the 20% disc
Me: No, this 20% is given for the sharks fin what... how about the uob one?
(Manager walks over)
Manager: Er, ya.. give them the 20% (tellin the cashier)
Me: Including the uob disc right?
Manager: Oh no.. 20% is the disc we can give only
Me: Look, uob is uob, sharks fin is sharks fin.. Its 2 seperate issue. You told me that use uob can get the disc over the phone
Manger: That was for the deposit then got 20%
Me: No, deposit promotion is when you pay $50 dep upfront then when you dine, you get 20%, otherwise, if you use uob to settle the bill, you also get 20% what..
Manger: (silent for 10 sec) ok, but i can only give you 30% then

!!!!!! What nonsense?? But honestly, i dun wanna push further and make a scene la... Cause in my mind... $500 x 30% = $150 off.. So i accepted the offer lor.. But, fang should know.. i will still be boiling like crazy.. ON TOP OF THAT~! Me & my bro in law LS after the meal.. gosh.. i wonder if they spit saliva or use their toe to stir my food or not...

I reckon this is my first and only time gonna eat reunion dinner outside.. Home food is still the best... Haha... i keep telling myself that im not kuai lan.. not at all.. but when i think back on some occasions.. like getting refunds and disc... asking managers to eat their food and staring at retail exec waiting for a good reply seems to be my forte...

I think i should be more nice

If Only I Have Her Body

haha!! i was reading xia xue's blog and she intro-ed a show "A Shot at Love with Tila Tequila".. I watched it and... THUMBS UP! Although in reality she din proceed with that man she picked out of 10 men and 10 WOMEN... (Shes a bisexual).. But i love her figure man.. Shes not pretty without make up... But her figure is HOT HOT HOT... (Now im JEALOUS...) hee... i doubt i would ever reached that level... So.. IF ONLY... I HAVE $$.. I WILL GET RID OF ALL THE FATS IN ME!!!!! (ARGH)

Fortune Telling...

Hmm... Was out and one of my colleagues intro me to this china man who reads from your name! haha... decided to try for fun (really...) but he was rather accurate... He says that im very 热情 person... and even say that im 冬天里的一把火!! haha... >.<

He says that i can attract opposite sex but the "sparks" are always short-lived... Says that im very straight forward and frank person, dun hide anything de... also say that I can treat pple very nice, but either im taken advantage of or those pple will disappear also...

Sigh... Remember what i said about having close friends in my previous posts? Yeah, i cannot have GOOD friends... its best i keep a distance with friends i find them nice, in order to maintain a long friendship... if not, they would jus disappear... yeah... thats my life thou...

Its another brand new start...

Sigh.. Feb is here... and the target resets by itself.. and we gotta start all over again... And right on the first day of Feb, there are so much chaos in the office... Honestly, most were affected somehow or rather... Who's right and who's not is unclear too..

Well, after 3 months here, im glad i've met a good colleague whom i can speak to.. (besides my brother - kenneth).. A GIRL! I cant be talking about bras and lingerie with kenneth right?? HAHA...

Well, shes more capable than i thought, sometimes i feel that she is lost, but she actually have a way out in her mind... It might not be the best way, but at least its the simpliest.

Anyway... This Feb... DINO will not slack.. i will fight fight and fight... heh... Meet a lot of pple!! make sure i make my first 10k pay chq! then i will move up to 30k!!! ARGH.. I MUST MUST MUST... DINO... WHAT'S HOLDING U BACK FROM TAKING THE MONEY ON THE TABLE?? GO GRAB IT!!!