A little hope at a time

Very long since i posted.. really duno whats going on with my life... things are moving so so so slowly... thou i see lights here and there, but still too slow...

Finally hosting starts, web design starts... my online directory is starting once we hold a mtg this weekend with the old folks.. and my printed ad is moving rather ok... Money wise... not as fast, but still seeing things here and there...

Im gg SZ soon... i hope this trip can let me think what i wanna do, plan where i wanna go and come back recharged and move on fast...

I miss my friends and relatives, i realise i have been isolating myself for some time le.. i wish i can meet my friends soon....

Bit by Bit

Thats why my friend said when i told her about my probs... i guess things are happening faster than i tot, bad things... yea... i dunno y, there is something in my mind that is so negative and evil telling me that things are gonna turn out real bad...

and me being too used to getting paid, i will get emo when it comes to mid or end of the mth... cause this is when everyone take money except me....

bills are stacking up, probs are arising.. this road.. not easy to walk. i wish i can have someone to back me up... or jus miracles... or something gd happen to me... strike 4d? i hope i have a 20k in my hands now...

i hope when i open my eyes, things will get better.... i pray hard...

I dunno if this is depression.. but... for this whole week, i tot of dying almost everyday.. and i know if i die, then i no need think too much... den no more bills, no more where is the money, how to find money....

I dunno what happen to the 'nothing is impossible dino'... now becoming 'nothing is possible'... i need someone to guide me too... im all alone...

I hope to see the light

Once again... i realise that the sales is slowing down... and now that im doing everything by myself, im drained... meeting 6 clients a day is a killer when u dun have a car... :( I wish i had a car to travel everywhere without carrying a heavy bag filled and files, books and laptop.... and my big hand bag... Argh..

But i managed to start the engine... Now, im helping to canvass for web designing, our new search engine called "search it".. thou not launched yet, but we are in the midst of budgetting, pricing, template designs and the foundation, if nothing goes wrong, by end august, we will get it up... whats more? i am getting my annual book bosses to canvas for us to make sure we earn... The web designing is purely by chance.. managed to talk to someone who does web designs but needs someone to run for her as she is working full time as well...

Now i am deciding on the payment part... i wonder how much is sufficient and not asking too much.... Spoken to my friend, he says that my role is not easy as i have to do f/u.. so i shudnt ask for too little... which i agree... cause i need to pay for my TM as well...

At least i need not rely on annual books to survive... i have more more more choices... But im gonna have a meeting tmr with my folks... i need to plan the directions, having annual books, web designing, online advertising, hosting services, bazaars... i need to stay connect with all these channels.. yes.. all alone... i decided to kick all the sales folk away and do it myself.

Funds are running low, i am stressed up on that too.. i hope to see money rolling in by this mth, and all the channels proper and stable by sept. I wanna see the light...

Tons of stuff to do

Tiring.. Launching my new pdts soon.. new to set prices and hopefully next week i will get to do product training for them...

Need to pack my room.. its in a MESS! Argh

Me gg shen zhen end of the month.. heard there got a lot of shopping to do... will go search arnd.. Am gg with my friend.. Dunno shud i feel excited or what... with so much work to do in singapore... :