Excited, Stressed, Happy.. Mixed Feelings

Bz Bz Me.. Since back from HK, hardly anytime to do my own things... Yest went to view the office.. cosy place.. After some discussion, me gonna sit on the 3rd with my partners... Hmm.. My admin cum tele gonna sit downstairs.. Had been bz sourcing for furnitures, quotation for phone systems, liasing with Singtel on ISDN lines, broadband, domain name, name cards etc etc

Getting busier and busier.. Good news, we are seeing the light.. Bad news, Singtel cant activate the lines so fast.. So we can only start biz on 11th June.. Which is a good date.. Now.. Me gonna find out how to pray when start biz etc...

Office is a cool place... 5 mins walk frm bugis mrt... a lot of malay stalls nearby... quite alright... And my 2 office mates cum landlord.... not too bad.. but need to have a little bit more sense of urgency althou we still have 2 weeks... Speaking of that.. **excited again**

My team? Some prob.. but not tough to solve... Managed to get some funds from my old boss to start off... should not be much of a prob i guess...

Well.. Tats all.. Need to rush off again.. I got tons of things to do!!!!! Gosh! Haven been sleeping well and LLLOOONNGG enough..

Boring Sunday

It's another Sunday again... Went back home yest to eat mee sua cause its my lunar birthday!! Haha... den got to know from mom that my grand ma house got bought over by some developer and my grand ma is shifting to farer road start of next year. I know my grand ma must be very sad cause she has been living along Orchard Road for a few decades.. and for her to adapt to another new environment.. its tough for her...


Another sad sad news.. My dino aka fish died.. Left it at my mom place for a month... wanted to bring it back... But... My mom say she cannot rear fish... Once rear sure die.. That i truely believe.. No choice.. Hai...


Met up with my biz pals and had a long night of discussion over a lot of matters.. Finally my first hiccup in my biz.. But rather small matter... I will try to solve it asap.. Saw the morning sight of my house area.. Thought it feels like starting anew.. Took it down...







Bills are pilling up.. Hope to clear them asap... Sianz....

Well.. was enjoying my cooking session... thou was a small scale one.. but at least killed a few hours of my day....


CHOCOLATES!




Look at the heart shape one.. Guess who i made it for?? Hee

Back!

Heh Heh... Back... Hk was ok... Fell ill on the very first day of shopping... my stomach was flipping (not lao sai ok).. cramp like hell.. feverish.. cough... Kaoz... No choice, decided to go back hotel in case i faint on the street... :(

But after recharging... i start my engine and finally caught up with the rest on the shopping goods... haha.. when i came back.. i realise 90% all my own things... shirts esp... food and all were ok...

Ok la... been twice to HK.. but first time was 9 years old.. cannot count la... second was when couple of years back... fashion also diff.. but realise their stuff not cheap also... anyway... i spend $400 only **proud**

Ok la... not many stuff.. jus 10 shirts.. disney stuff, food... nothing much.. cause me wanna save my experience for my trip with family ma... keke...

My Birthday Celebration!!

Yeah... Finally got a chance to sit down with fang and chat... since she study until now, we hardly sit around the table and have a long talk... hEee.. Check out the present that she bought... Hmm... I never like accessories cause i lazy to put it on and take it out... But i like things that are of sendimental values and gems~ (cause i pangtang...) and Fang bought a purple gem pendant for me... Haha... Confidently, i knew she knows what colour i really like.. It's yellow.. and i also know their yellow one not very nice... so she got a purple to help increase ren yuan... which is good for me!! haha.. and its unique... Moreover, its at a reasonable size which suits my dino figure.. haha!! Yup yup.. i like it...





Hmm, my mom bought me a key pendant for my 21st birthday.. was thinking of converting it to a bracelet charm.. but its rather precious to me.. i scared the charm will drop if i too chor lor... :

Still having cold war with him. Haven spoken a single word to him for the whole of yest.. and today.. my first sentence to him (in a rude manner): "Today got work or not?" Den he say his on afternoon shift and i jus walked off... Now he jus sms me saying got one old uncle ask him to be careful cause his forehead is dark... Hmm... dunno la... i very tired to think liao. Let him be... His forever like a girl.. cannot decide.. got probs still wait for durain to drop.. It's the first time in this 4 years relationship that i have a cold war with him. It's not me... But i guess he really got on my nerves.

It has always been the same

As promised, i left my schedule empty for today.. a late celebration for my birthday... and guess what? I stayed at home, furthest i went? Sheng Siong...

I had plans, going to buy a bicycle for myself, go acra reg company, go bishan massage, go walk walk arnd.. or even go esplanade starbucks sit down like the past.. End up? We woke up as planned, i rushed off some work and discussions with Nat on my company logo. Got some facts right etc etc... and help my fil with his new fish tank etc etc... Thou we are behind schedule, i told him that we wont go acra since we cannot make it in time.. So we proceed to bicycle shop... took a cab down while he cycles cause he say wanna repair bike... End up? Shop closed. So we went sheng siong to buy stuff.. Was so pek chek and disappointed alr.. Went home and guess what? It looks like its gonna rain... i sian 1/2! The moment i reached home. I dun wanna go out. I very sian alr.. all the plans all full stop.

I wanted to go IMM walk arnd and stuff.. but i pek chek until i decided to pack my entire room... (i always do that when im not in good mood) i was so disappointed cause he everytime say wanna celebrate for me, always never... say wanna go out and spend time with me, but end up at home. Everytime he say wanna spend time, i will cancel, delay all my appt to go out with him, but waste my time to be at home. Its my birthday... Im not expecting much. Not definately not like any other day. Even going off west area to sit at coffee shop i also song. but nothing like tat..

Im not complaining, but simply... He knows i angry, i slammed the doors! He say "Lets go out" at 8.30pm... Now its 9pm.. and his on the bed snoring!!! i cannot believe it.. I swear, i am not going to fork out time specially for him. No more.

Im setting up my own biz and im busy and stressed enough liao. Its been a week since i can peacefully go into sleep right away. i will toss and toss for 3, 4 hours before i sleep, a blink away.. its morning.. and i got discussions and people to meet... i got to study my biz, do training kits, interviews.. Im tired.. my body is tired, and yet i cant sleep. Im so stressed with work and so many things to do.. And i purposely cancel everything to spend my birthday with him. End up? STAY AT HOME AND WATCH TV.

4 years together... every year i will gather all my friends together to celebrate.. every year also i plan de... and 4 years le... He din gimme any presents (which im perfectly fine...) but not asking me to push everyting away to stay at home. This year, i resigned 2 wks before my birthday.. dun wish to celebrate and pple asking me why i left etc etc... Im sian... Really.. I wasnt angry with him for not being able to celeb on my actual day cause not pay day.. thats why he said 16th... and now? Hai

My work has piled up for nothing.. Im going HK, i haven gotten my things ready... I have settle my work stuff.. i wonder how am i gonna enjoy there... when im back, its tues.. i missed 2 working days to get things done.. and 4 june is drawing so near... how??

He forever break my expectations and dreams.

My room at 9pm!
Even my nephew also know how to draw a picture for me (left) for my birthday. (His snoring away.. Maybe he meant go out with me in his dreams!)



My new ashtray....


Dump the old one away... Dirty...

Initial Step...

More or less i cover most of the loopholes.. i know there are more... well... Today went to collect the magazines and price guides, contracts.... U know, after surgery, i haven recovered much... I know myself.. Im very weak still.. But to shut those idiots that are bad mouthing me in ex office... I need to make it...

I will run the sales with some free lancers on hand.. I know its gonna be tough. But i pray hard that God will guide me thru.. Seriously, my work on hand now to start off is a lot a lot.. And this Sat im gg HK.. i wonder how im gonna enjoy myself.. :(

I hope to earn my first 10k in June... so i can settle some things off.. some irritating stuff... And God... please help me to go thru these smoothly.. please...

Finally....

Finally after a whole day of discussion, I have some idea of what i am gonna do... Setting up a consultancy firm... Being a service provider for companies... Got 2 projects on hand... Had been burning mid night oil for 2 nights thinking of how to utilise the money etc... And also... looking for talents.. hungry for money, honest and responsible.. i just need 2 good sales people to run for me. And i can also join in for the first few months to pull thru the sales figures.. Finally i got time to do my bazaar and "earning" from others liao... At least no capital for the time being... But once i got some profit, i will re structure this tight budget. Hope it works. I pray hard....

But at least, i'm very contented with whats going on now... :)

Now have to think of company name... *Stress*

Happy Birthday to MMEEE

Its my birthday today.. such a boring day... Its 2pm and i'm still at home... :(

Hai.. No money no money... wa piang... super tired... I wanna go sleep thru my birthday...

But at least no money, yest alvin went to buy a cake for me.. hee.. not cake... polar puff.. cream puff... :)

Billy made a mistake on telling me the wrong comm list... i tot i would have slightly a bit more cash to pay bills... but when i get my pay, its half of what was told to me.. **stress** now have to think of ways to pay my bills... and on top of that... my friend say wanna return me 1k.. but he keep going back on his words.. hmmm.. is there any ways to go thru legal ways to get him to pay up? He owe me almost 2k lei.. now i jus ask him to return me 1k... ask him pay bit by bit he also dun wan. i think he chao keng one...

Sad sad birthday... Hai.. tmr MUST go interviews... get a job asap!! argh.. its irritating me... hmmm.. should i change my name? to... chen wei wen?? hmm... *ponder*

(Additional.. - 16 May) Haha... guess what? i forgot to post the pics of brandon sending me a cake! oOooppss.. anyway... ya, this very nice person know i had bd at home, so bought a cake and came all the way to my place to gimme.. i shud give him some credit for it ;) Thanks!

FInally an early morn

Wonder why i woke up so early... No, i didnt have an early night... But i reckon there was something i should do and something bothering me i guess... Hmmm...

Ok... Loads of things for me to do... Gotta go interviews, gotta go doc appt... gotta go for prayers... gotta meet my friends... and today is my birthday eve... But the most pathetic birthday... cause there aint any celebrations... :(

Hmmm... gotta find some voluntary work to do... feel that i should do some charity work...

And i gotta meet Mr Sng and Henry to discuss about some stuff.. Prob get it done on Fri...

Sick...

Down with sore throat... :(

Went for interview at UOB... and realise that they want me to do insurance instead... I dun wanna go into insurance.. Not yet... Cause i know now i need quick money and doing cards is fastest way to get the money....

But anyway, one door shuts, the other opens.. got a offer... from my ex boss to do some thingie... still need time to consider.. as this MIGHT assist me in my "project"...

Hmmm... Need some planning.......

ARGH

Plans are made, Next the action

Dinner Mom Prepared for me.. :)

Hmmm.. Truthfully, the initial reason why i resign was that i feel i really needed time to sort things out.. My own things.. Its not really in a mess, but its not "productive". Everything that should be executed asap and completed are not done. And alternative plans are not made... So i wanted to leave.. That was why i was tempted to take the 1 month no pay leave which Billy Boss suggested. But I knew numbers will keep running... I have 3 lives, and lost 2... if i take the leave and come back.. I only have 1, which means i cannot DIE... (who in this world always have UPs in sales industry?).. Thats why i made the final decision to leave.

Well, more or less sorted out what i want to do...

1. Find a normal job, telesales... Something that i can earn a basic + comm... This allows me to stretch that dollar and sustain the bills...


2. Confirm doing P/T telesales for a property agent... Mon - Thurs, 7 - 10pm hourly paid + incentives (e.g. $5/appt & $5/exclusive signed), leads given...


3. Do what i planned for long ago... (Service Provider).. Vitual Company....


4. Accept my friends' offer by "helping" him and myself...

All abv are kinda confidential... so i can only say that much.... Jus in case....

I have a $20k debt to clear... There's nothing to hide, nothing to feel ashamed of... cause at least I am working hard and putting effort to clear them all... Dont ask how, why $20k... Cause I have repeated this for 20 times within 2 years... It's not the time to know the prob.. It's time to SOLVE the prob...

I know it's a tough process, but Dino gotta do it.. I'm 23, i dont have much time... Cause i need to start setting off and fly high in my career by 25... So that i can retire early (My goal)... And most impt... My mom is 63, i have to waste another 2 years to get my things done, and she will be getting 2 years lesser of the happiness i SHOULD give her...

Next.. I'm gonna study.. It's the first step i SHOULD be taking to fly high. I cant jus carry a normal cert and tell people, "Hey, this is a good 'toilet paper'"... I remember once an old customer of mine told me.. "U study, get a cert, that cert is a gurantee that govt give you..." He merely meant that, with a cert, you can climb faster, not scared nothing to eat... Which i always believe in... So Dino need to do something.

Enough of wasting time, enough of taking my own time and waiting for that chance to come by. I need to find a way to meet that chance. So I'm gonna go MIS and MDIS to ask about courses. If $ permits, i wanna fulfill my dreams... Getting a cert in Casino Mgmt... Get ready for IR? (HAHA)....

All these need to be cast into stones by this week AND executed by 1 June 2007. Exactly 6 months, i need to push myself to the max... I seriously will... I rest enough, and i have thought enough... I plan what i need to do... I need to find my stepping stone, and this boat will sail..

Failure and setbacks might happen, but I will definately stand up right away and continue this journey. Only thing I dun wanna lose is my mom, my buddies and 319.. The pillars in my life. The people that i know will lend my those ears and will pat me on my shoulder and say "keep going dino"....

And guess what? I found the momentum i lost for 3 years... I'm back...

To Mommy, 319, Fang: Dino might not have all the time like the past... But trust me, I just need the time to walk to the light. My heart will always have you guys... There are some priorities and some things i know i have to do... And definately, spending time with you guys is one of the top in my list... Hope we compromise and make things happen...

Not Enough Sleep..

Wonder why.. I cant seem to get enough sleep... Perhaps its all the late nights... Have been going to bed arnd 3am.. which is not doing any good to my skin.. SLEEP is very impt to skin... Tested and Proven...

Woken up by 2 phone calls... (ArgH).. And Alvin had alr went for work.. Oh... Wat another day.. In laws outside watching tv... And i asked myself.. what should I do today... Hmm... Fang intro me a good show 'Princess LuLu'.. Yup.. Watching them.. How is it? GOOD!! ... Thanks for Fang... My weekend is fun filled with LULU.... Haha

Ok.. In Laws go out le.. HERE i come... Finished the first episode... As i'm watching, i brought the food out to thaw.. and once i finished the show.. i drop all the laundry into the machine... (waiting time... 30mins)... den i proceed to wash the ingredients... boil the water (which was done in the midst of the show)... put the spagetti into the pot... fry my bacon, then the cream... preparing the sauce... once spaggetti is done, pour it in and mix well with the creamy mushroom and herbs sauce.. (YUM).. by then.. laundry is ready... hang the bedsheet out.. Prepare my serving... (eRheM... take Pics...) then rush back to machine, pour our clothes in and wash them (2nd round).. haha.. 30 mins to eat.. den wash dishes, hang clothes, and EPISODE 2! haha... see.. efficient? good time mgmt? That's Dino aka Housewife... HAHA (LOL)

Yum...

Hmmm.. I love to cook at home.. be housewife... huang lian po... Hehh...

Wonder whats everyone doing.. Hmmm.. Missing a few ppple around... :(

Resting Time...?

I've been unemployed for 2 weeks... And a week without earning MONEY... Sobz... Ya, need a little sacrifice for Resting Time... Well, I'm starting to look for jobs all over again... But not to worry, I'm not slacking at home... I've been looking around for part time night jobs so that i can still earn a little as I look for my job.. I also plan to continue doing part time for that extra income...

In fact, I would really like to study.. Perhaps to look for a course this weekend... Hmmm.. plan to look for a Sales & Mktg course, and also to do Casino Mgmt at the same time... Tiring for me? I guess I should cheong for now... So next time can enjoy a better life...

I have many goals in life... But most imptly, i need to constantly remind myself to do it 'one step at a time'...

And guess what? I'm missing my colleagues alr... Esp my best bud... She seems to be getting busier at work for other people job, and busy in school with redundant pressure from her own group mates.. Sad to say, i cant really help much but to be there to lend her a listening ear whenever she needed... (Wherever I am...) Really hope to steal her away from her books, laptop and Mr Ong to sit down with her for coffee like the way we used to be in the past... :(

Hai.. Alright, gonna rest a while, before i go for my interview... Must constantly tell myself to find job, work.. and most imptly.. GO FOR INTERVIEWS! (LOL..)

My Supper... (Getting Fat... Must CONTROL)