Kids Nowdays.....

I was teaching my nephew ting xie... and there were some words that he jus need to recognize only... so after completing the writting part.. i was asking him to read the "recognize words" section for me... then Alvin suddenly ask him to take a paper to write down those words... (for fun, jus to test how well he remember).. after 4 words.. we sense something wrong.. so we took the paper to see what he drew wrote...

so i tot he was jus playing a fool... then he showed me this...

thinking what words we asked him to write??
鸟。。羊。。 木。。 人
thinking which is which??
the image shows X X X and below a bird right? so obviously the bird is 鸟
X (羊) X (人) X (木)

GOT IT??

and hor, we didnt take the text book to test him... his given a list of words to learn given by the teacher.. he didnt open his text book either.. so it was all pure memory..

kaoz.. i almost gave him a good one... hahaha... what can we say now lei? but he actually remembers wat his teacher taught him in class... so its a good thing... haha..

oh, btw, his P1...

Dont make me worried for nothing ok?

To My AF: Why are u so late this mth? U used to be punctual... what happen? Under construction? Then let me know.. O/w, dun make me wait ok....

I need to sleep early!! otherwise, i scared i cant wake up on time for work...
lol..

what shud i wear lei?

Ti Gong Por Bi...

Just as i blogged about how good god is to me.. I happened to read the only "enemy"'s FB profile... and im thankful that god hasnt forgotten about him... Everytime i think of him, i tell myself not to curse him.. LOL.. cause its not good to curse, let god help me... and yeah, seems like some impt things he have is breaking down and things aint gg smoothly for him...hahaha... *slap face*

I will remember who helped me when i had the worse times to cope... and i will also remember who pushed me even deeper into that hole. Not that i dun wanna do anything about it... but i guess god has more plans for him...

Im planning to go Expo to buy bed protectors this coming weekend... hmm... but this 2 weeks' budget is a bit tight... hmm... how how? im planning to get a mattress after buying the PC for dear.. these are the 2 impt things on my list... haha.. then i shall need to save up for CNY ang bao liao!!! hahaha.. last year was pretty tight.. cause i left the job in nov.. so i shant let history repeat...

Not forgetting im gg to get the starhub's $500 voucher.. im thinking of getting another phone for my spare line.. speaking of which... see... i have a pretty nice number now... and i had been using that for sales... and i have a supp line from starhub.. also quite nice but not as nice as the current one...

shud i...
1. use the current one as my sales number so that whenever that phone rings, i know its work
2. use the supp line as my sales line since all my friends are contacting me via the current no.?

i wanna have a smooth sailing new year!

Empty Hope

Hahaha.. i thought i was pregnant.. when i tested.. 2 lines then become 1 line...
at first i was so happy telling my family... then it turned 1 line...
sigh...

althou auntie havent come and find me for 3 days... but still... im not pinning too much hopes... To be honest, when i found this job as a hunter... im very excited, very energetic to move on and move up...

I even plan to have half yearly holidays with Alvin and short trips with him.. i want to explore different places with him. I even imagined myself not having kids when im old, i prepared myself at least. And im ready to be happy with my husband.

When at first i saw 2 lines, the first thought was my new job. If say i found a simple job, i wont be that worried, the most i work until i cannot handle then i leave. But this hunter job... im enjoying it even before i started it... Every night since i signed the papers, i have been thinking how to start prospecting... how to make that start.

Of coz i was happy for that mere minutes, i was thinking... "finally..."

but...

pple who know me knows that if im devoted to my job, i can give my life to work. because alvin is supporting me and understanding my character... I had no probs juggling with work and marriage... and now that i know i found a job that is something i asked for..
1. office based (jus in case i get preg again)
2. comm/sales (front line and stretch my dollar)

my buddies shud know that i was hoping for the best of both worlds in my new job... but i couldnt seem to find something that i like for the last 6 mths or so... until they called me up...

i feel that god is very fair to me... i suffered the loss of my son, but i salvaged my marriage.
i lost my job and couldnt find one, i was in mental unstability.. and the marriage supported me thruout that down period...

i tell myself that i shall wait, i shant be impatient. even if im suppose to wait for a year, i will jus wait. and as soon as i wan to go find jobs, they called me up. without much effort of searching, i got a job that for now, looks good enough for me. A job that might be able to let me and alvin travel arnd, and explore diff things... A better future for us...

What else do i have to complain?

Even when pple are having 2 or 3 kids, i shant take it to heart, i shudnt be jealous. Cause god has given me a fair share of blessings. Kids for me, perhaps its not time yet, maybe god is finding the perfect child for me. And i tell myself, i shud wait. Jus like how i waited for my job and leave them to god. Im leaving the pick of my children to god, and hope god can find the child for us soon and please dun take him away again.

Spring Cleaning My Blog

haha.. finally spring clean my blog...
1. Update my wishlist
2. Deleted the "past" and added some new stuff
3. Change some songs
4. Added more new friends' blog

And also!!!
I finally done up Alvin's blog... haha... I try my best not to do it something similar to mine.. cause i keep having the tendency to do so.. haha.. jus like farm town.. hahaha

anyway.... finally done-ed....

im thinking if i shud change the skin of my blog....

Finally

Im a HUNTER!!
*LoL*

Tmr is the day when i sign along the dotted line..

Today, when i was talking to the CEO, quite stressed.. but he was very nice, he started talking to me about mobile phone, black berry... Singtel & Starhub before we go into the whole situation... keke... Imagine a headhunting CEO interviewing for his own employee... kaozzz... stress...

Then i saw magazines on the rack, and when i saw his face on "The Peak" front cover.. i lagi stress.. haha... but then.. he was nicer than i thought.. seriously. His got this fatherly figure, a very open mind and likes to give pple opportunities and chances...

I remember he told me at the end of the meeting.. "Just remember, dun give up. Whatever things that might seem bad, jus dun give up. For ur mom, family, husband and children to be.. dont give up.."

Yeah, Mr CEO... i wont la.. dun worry... it took me 6 mths to stand up.. and when i decided to stand up, we met up... Thanks for opening that door...

Well.. dunno what the future holds for me... but... i believe all these are planned by God... I will take up the job and work hard..

YAY!! Finally i can start imagining buying my working attire with my own money!!!! I promise Alvin.. First pay, i will buy him a PC... To thank him for "feeding" his wife for the last 6 mths... 辛苦你了，但我知道，等待是值得的。

Hunted to be Hunter

Job interview went on well.. Tomorrow will be discussing the sensitive part... the $$.. lol.. i hope they match my expectations... Pray hard... If everything goes well, i will be a head hunter.. or, in other words... doing "executive search"...

Like many others, i once thought head hunter is jus a recruiter... but then as time goes, i realise that if u ever recd a call from head hunters... haha.. u are damn lucky.. u are gg to have a better life soon....

After the discussion today, i realise that its not jus about recruiting anyone... its talent searching. The job requires to do more that jus a job agency recruiter..

Here's what the CEO said in the Straits Times' Interview:

"Executive search is an exact search, encompassing a careful process whereby recruitment is preceeded by proactive consultation of the cilent for a detailed candidate profile, a thorough research of the industry to identify the candidate, and innovative negotiation between the cilent and candidate once the search is found."

I did a research on the CEO of the head hunting coy that i might be working for in July... and i realise that he has many many awards... er.. chairman of this chairman of that... which includes former President of the MBA Association at the Florida State Uni, former President of the YEO (Young Entrepreneur's Organization...

I think tmr i will be having another round of tiring mind games liao.. lol.. why mind games? They are so so pro in interviewing that whatever they ask may, on the surface sounds very general.. but in actual fact, they are knowing u in detail already...

Today, after my interview, the director asked me if i wanna know how i fare and he told me that he always make it a pt to tell his candidates... and i realise that the qns he asked me earlier.. like... "so before we start the interview, maybe u can let me know what u wanna know about this job?" this simple probe, to him, is to know how sincere the candidate is and whether s/he had done any thinking before coming for the interview..

chim hor??

haha.. i hope if i really get into this job, i can learn all these skills... it will help me greatly in sales probing... i hope this job can move me to a higher level in my career path...

but most importantly, i hope they match my pay.... *cross fingers*

Our Day At Zoo

Some Random Pics to Share....

Tiring Sunday

I cant remember if i post that day that i realise that there are some spiders in my room.. and i got bitten by one on my finger... then i got Alvin to clear off the webs... and according to mom, spiders at home is no good thing... :( means my room very yin... so i thought after alvin clear off, shudnt have any... and my luck is suppose to turn better la..

but who knows.. i realise that luck isnt getting better and it got worse.. jus as i thought what went wrong.. i saw spider when i was on my bed...!! for 3 consecutive nights... so i decided to spring clean my room.... because i was preggy that time, so CNY we didnt spring clean under my bed and stuff... so today, we decided to take out our mattress and clean up...

then using mommy's method, i prayed for blessing in the temple and prayed for blessings in my room... hope everything will be fine after the whole day of spring cleaning... damn tired...

plus yesterday's trip to the zoo with Jenn & family and my niece and nephew.. i am super tired...
i think im getting old.. LOL..

oh ya... got a head hunting coy, called me to interview.. er.. to be a head hunter... lol... honestly, i dunno what kinda salary i shud be expecting and the job scope wor.. i know this job is very different from the job agencies' recruiter... hmm.. a higher level than that la.. lol...

update u guys again tmr when i go for the interview at tg pagar... ;)

Friends

I remember when i was younger, friends were everything... (im sure everyone went thru that stage too..) When i grow up, i start to have priorities, Family, Work Friends... 3 important groups in my life... but if i really gotta list them down... it will be that way...

Recently, i got to know friends.. Friends whom i havent meet and some i have met...

All along, i thought friendship was very simple... for me, i only make friends to whom i trust. If i know i cant trust you enough, then probably u wont hear much from me anymore... I remember got an old shi fu tell me... im a born to be 孤神.. i do not have best friends.. i would be borned in a small family... And true enough, he was right.. single parent family.. friends that i can trust i have.. but friends whom can stay with you for long CLOSELY, rarely. I do have childhood friends but very seldom meet up and chat over the phone... but we still see each other on msn and stuff...

To me, i dun need tons of friends.. i jus need friends whom i can trust, friends that can guide me thru the darkest day, friends that i can share my happiness with...

I meet / know pple with an open heart... If you really wanna get a reason out of knowing pple.. i would say.. i want to find pple whom i can trust and be friends.. People whom im willing to stand by them should they have any probs.. People whom i know i will be there whenever they are in need of someone...

And i believe that only if i be true, then i will find true pple...

However, i gotta learn so so many lessons in these 2 mths... I realise that as one ages, their mindset changes faster than their age... And its ridiculous how they react/behave as a being... To be honest, i was almost spinned into their world.. into their world of mess and harmful motives...

Also, from there i think i lost a person whom i thought would be my friend. Someone whom i thought i could trust.. A little regret, but then... i always tell myself... if they were to trust their faith in me, they would know i am not that sort.

And if that supposed-to-be-friend happen to blog hop and see this... hey, i hope we will have a chance again to know things are not that way... Whatever u might have concluded, whatever you might have heard.. Think again before u decide.

As i blog this down, i feel that im like a primary school kid.. still talking about friends.. HAHAHA... but then... friends are part of our lives... they play a big role... and from these incidents.. i learn to mature my initial defination of having friends.

Its not too late to think of changing your thoughts for friends are pple who can easily influence you in certain ways... believe or not.. even right at this moment, its still that way..

This friend of mine, er.. name him P hao le... P, to what i know.. very good guy, good father, good nature.. but protective towards many things... esp pple he is gg to mix with... u know.. jus like... H1N1 comes, a person will start wear mask, dun go out, stay at home to make sure that s/he wont kena... Same for P.. either he was hurt badly by friends before or perhaps "seen too much".. and because he is wary of everyone arnd him.. what he could do is jus to listen... and perhaps see, if he can, from the same person whom he listened... then he would conclude to stay away or to continue..

Why i say his a gd friend is because... i know he has no ill intentions.. (not like those that u meet and in their mind only one reason why they want to know u).. Someone u know u can trust and know that he can be ur listening ear... U know he can be a good friend la...

Dont get me wrong as u read ah... FRIEND. Like our dear mr francis lim, is also one good friend that i know im thankful i didnt miss out. LOL.. if he were to MIA.. i will also blog this way de.. haha...

For one reason or another... i also dunno... haha.. but senses tells me that the bridge has become a sea... and ya, i do feel a bit ke xi on this la... i wish i can salvage it.. but... i guess its pretty tough to cross over liao...

BUT at least.. i know.. from that community, these are the few that i can at least have a proper conversation with, and not having to wear a mask... i hate wearing mask and talk so chim that words inside have words... i hate to play such mind games with friends. I only do these to pple that im wary of... And P, i hope you wont fall into that list.

AND at least i know now that, there are pple whom i shud draw that THICK line with la.. hahaha... as im typing, i am thinking, prob i dun even need to talk in that community liao.. haha (thats how bad it is...)

Affected me? No. With or without, i am still me... At least i still got good buddies with me ma.. those that are still with me now.. LOL... those are the pple that know me for me... It doesnt matter whether i made friends or not... I just dont wanna have enemies.. so far, only have 1 from my previous coy in mind.. LOL... Im not a person that remembers bad trips... but that trip was a trip to hell...

Anyways... I hope i can get rid of the mess and jus lead back my old sweet life... And P, seeing is beliving.

I always say:
Strangers are jus friends we havent met..
BUT PLEASE, know them well enough to meet them.. Otherwise, it will be a waste of your precious time.

What If, What If

I guess everyone will tend to look back and ask urself.. "what if...."

Me too, esp these few days.. What if this, What if that..
And the more i do that, the more bad i feel...
Every night, i will watch Alvin sleep.. And i feel very heart pain cause im not helping...
I wish i can ease off his burden...

These few days, i have been thinking.. why am i wasting time on some redundant things... on redundant pple...

And i realise that i will be letting go soon... No point making myself irritated seeing at things that i know will ought to see if i go there... The more bad things i see about pple arnd me.. the more i get defensive...

A few days ago... i suddenly feel very useless... I remember i start to have very bad backaches.. and in the past, i would always get ah lao to help me massage... but now.. i dun wanna tire him... his working hard to make ends meet... i just wan him to come home and rest... And i start to think about Julius.. And at one point, i feel like gg to meet him...

I quickly stop myself from thinking and start to do some things that keeps me bz... to be honest, i feel like im controlling my thoughts.. but i know its a problem and it exist in me... i know i need to cure this.. but how? I very worried that the more i contain... the worse it gets.. and soon.. it might explode...

Take time to read.. Help if you can...

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Choose to believe or not, its between a thin fine line

I guess, after today.. it somehow wakes me up.... I remember how i used to be le..
Had a long chat with a friend.. and i suddenly recall how Serene was last year... I was a thinker.. i think detail and deep... I leave space for changes...

After 22 feb 09, i changed so much... my principals, my thoughts totally went towards another direction... Pple used to say im witty, im quick and im detailed... Yeah... i remember now...

Although this friend doesnt know me too well.. neither does he know who i am... but i guess he came into my life for a reason.. Remember i used to say.. everyone come into each other's life for a reason?

Now, i know.. who came into my life for what reasons..
One came in to make me understand that... if its my life, its my life... let him go, and things will not be so bad..
Another came in to let me know my old self... let me remember who i used to be.. reminded me of what i lost.. Gave me the answer to my lost of drive and energy...

I also learnt that... its up to u to decide a person's motive to come into ur life... be it kind or not... if u choose to curious, u have to be able to handle the risk involved... whether its kind or not.. its up to u to define... if u feel that this person just knock on the wrong door, then perhaps this unkind motive will not harm u...

Thanks friend.. i remember what happen to myself...

Some songs to share..

June June June

Looking at my calendar.. this june quite peaceful wor...
haha... guess its time to make some money!!
im gg use the birthday gift tat francis and elaine gave and top up some myself for my netbook! my pc is old liao.. and whenever i use, alvin cannot use... he knows im a full time surfer.. haha!! so with a netbook, i can at least surf whenever i go....

im on a diet plan now... trying to lose all the seh kia fats... haha... and im back to my weekly diy facial too!! gonna maintain myself... not forgetting the hair setter that fang gave me for my birthday!! i simply luff it.. and im getting addicted to it wor....

jia you chen wei wen!!