Lousy Oct

So much for a fun and exciting Oct but it ended up stressful and lousy..

1. We didnt get to celebrate for hubb on actual day
2. Wedd anni was not celebrated at the planned location

Sobzz... Yeah, i was very upset and now i cant wait for Oct to end and Nov to come. Well, i manage to get some part time work from home job. now its action time but i need to find time to act too..

Reserves are emptied and im damn broke. I need to do some financial adjustments to make sure i dun go broke again. Im a mother and a wife... i need to be more responsible.

Anyway... Celeste is due for jab tomorrow.. its FEVER time again... (haiii).. n not forgetting jab costs... so sad..

But next time theres a few must buys
1. Collect C's stamp
2. Wipes and diapers
3. Powder puff
4. Powder
5. Lotion for C

And and.. i really need to have my own routine.. i mean.. things i do for myself even if its jus a routine pedicure.. i think theres a need seriously. I need to feel "forward" and be "forward" if not, i will be a huang lian po sooonnn...

C is growing up day by day.. she start to be very notti and "giet".. chut pattern, sai nai, lao gai.. buay tahan her.. lol... Shes starting solids in Dec but i plan to start her in Jan... i love C to bits la... :)

4 months old

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To my Reader - Lin

Lin...

Life is full of ups n downs for me... its never easy moving on wif life... Losing Julius was like tearin my skin off my flesh.. Julius is never forgotten.. I still talk to Celeste about her kor kor...

But well.. its a battle between u n urself.. No matter how painful u feel, the world never stop revolving... u cannot just stop ur pace n start grieving on n on.. u gotta move on too...

I keep reminding myself tat i cannot give up on my life cause theres a lot of pple relying on me in many ways... I shudnt just look into a box but i have to be more brave to face a bigger picture... I cannot fall... even if i cry, it shud only be a while...

Dun self pity. Cause it will make u worse... if i din pick myself up, i wont haf Celeste too.. i wont learn to treasure my hubby more. I wont learn to cherish wat i already haf...

i remind myself everyday that everything happen for a reason.. n tats y i pick up the courage to share my experience wif everyone. only to let them understand more n to b more cautious... of coz, to encourage pple who lost their babies to pick up n move on..

Jus remember, the world will not stop revolving because of u.. have faith in urself...

Lin, i am in no position to qns your abortion or why u abort.. but let me share with u something...

Babies are gift from God.. theres no such thing that u cannot afford a baby if u can still have proper meals everyday.

When i had Julius or Celeste.. im broke everyday.. my hubby's broke too.. When i had my emergency Csect, i still gotta borrow to clear off the medical fees. If not for my relative's ang bao, i dun think i will be able to pay off my bills.. My gynae check ups and even for Celeste's injections, have to be scheduled on hubby's pay day.. and we have probs feeding ourselves at times.. If i were to attend a wedding that mth... its even worse.

Well.... we still made it thru ah.. Celeste is 3.5mths old.. shes wearing mamy poko, have her own cot, got toys even thou they are 2nd hand.. shes breast fed and she still smiles at me everyday like a super happy baby!

Ask me how i manage to do that? i seriously dunno. Faith i suppose. I have faith that i can provide my kids the best I CAN... It doesnt mean i need to buy branded and new stuff.. im buying 2nd hand toys and stuff for Celeste.. I buy things that can help her development and can last for a long time (till next bb i suppose)... and best of all... i can sell them off if i dont need..!

If theres a will, theres a way.... God gave u a child but its not ur decision to keep or not.. its not up to you to decide too. If God gives u a baby, u will definately have a way to keep it.. believe it or not... it happened to me.. cause i believe it will be that way.

who is not having $$ difficulties? well.. i have a pile of bills and many things i have pay too.. But still... life goes on..

Like i say, im really in no position to ask about ur abortion but i hope u dont do it again.. if u dun plan to haf a baby.. then use precaution.. dont mentally torture urself and go for abortions.. seriously... its a sin..

Brace up and stand up Lin... Face the problem. Accept the consequences and move on. Take a deep breath and step out of that dark hole.. U will be surprise what u will see at the end of the tunnel.

Good luck!


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HELLOOOOOoooo

Dear readers!!!!

Actually i miss blogging la... but ever since Celeste came along.. my life is hers.. lol..

Have been trying to keep up with the "outside" world.. meeting the mommies and having lunches and exploring new places with hubby.. Im jus waiting for C to grow up a little more.. then we can bring her to more places to play... :)

I love being a mother.. REALLY! Even thou i got no $$, but life is good so far! Hubby and my life are all revolving around C.. and we are loving it :)

Sometimes i do have an intention of stopping at 1 so that i can shower C with all my love. But Elaine was telling me that i will wanna have #2 the moment i see C plays alone.. :((

Actually i love C a lot, more than my life and more than hubby. I was whispering to C the other day.. "i never know how much i can love someone until i found you. :) "

Life is good so far, everyday looking out for cheap loots for C, moving along with her development and trying to get some educational or helpful tools to help her with her development. So if you guys got any 2nd hand toys or stuff, do let me know ya.. Cause im broke, i cannot buy 1st hand.. but i dont mind 2nd hand as long as its helpful to C... :)

I miss dating with hubby but i think i will miss more when C grows older.. haha.. but i m trying to target an amount to save for a trip to Taiwan when C turns 1.. :)

Actually i always dream to travel the world with hubby.. and i dont want this dream to end because i have kids. I want to share the dream with them too...

So im thinking of going Taiwan in May or June, then plan for #2 when we are back. :)

Ok! Celebration starts tomorrow!! Pre birthday celebration for hubby's birthday. Then sat will be having dinner with family then a week break for some preparations and next fri will be our 4th year wedding anniversary! :) So excited...

Hope to take some "lang lang"(canton) pictures for all of you!



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July Babies Group Photoshoot

Had a great time yesterday at the July babies photoshoot.... we had a group of very on mommies and PGs... and daddies too! hahaha

tiring la.. Celeste was soooo tired cause she didnt even take her naps till 7pm..
poor thing.. but the results were great!

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Broke

Im broke la... Argh... Banning myself frm buying more stuff for bb for 2 weeks..

Recently hor, i realise tat 6 out of 10 times i wake up with my teeth biting my tongue.. Supa pain.. M i too tired??

Honestly i need a break.. I have to thinking hor.. Everytime hubby off, we will be out.. No chance for me to rest at home while he takes over. And if his off n we are not out is normally when his sick. Thats worse cause i gotta take care of 2 babies.. Sigh...


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Target : PRE PRE PREGNANCY WEIGHT PLSSS

Was talking to grace, then i suddenly look at my last time pics.. haiiiiiiiiii
i really wanna go back to my pre pre pregnancy weight.. i think i shud la.. before i try for the next bb.. cause if i dun, i wonder how big i will go worrrr

So now.. target.. no tidbits!!! hahhaa.. no munching.. no soft drinks. ONLY PLAIN WATERRR.. im very into sweet drinks ever since i bf-ed.. i wonder why...

JIA YOU LA DINO!

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Busy October!

Celeste's fever finally ok and her growth spurt is almost over.. :)))

This mth is gonna be a happy month! Alvin's 35th Birthday, our 4th wedding anniversary and most most happy thing is... we have CELESTE with us to celebrate!!

I remember, Celeste is MADE on 17th Oct which is our ROM date :) so happy!!

Celeste is so far so good... some tantrums here and there but ok... :) So happy being a mom.. really excited la...

My house is having lift upgrading and the noise is killing us.. gotta bring bb to my mother's place to hide for tomorrow and monday, maybe i bring her somewhere else to hide.. sigh..

I hope i get my own place very soon but im at the verge of giving up la.. no money, where to find house? have to L L wait with the rest to get picked by the silly system... argh!


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