Congrats Elaine~

my buddy jus delivered to her princess #2 Giselle! she is a month younger than Celeste!.. :) Congrats Elaine!!

jus completed the full mth party.. total shag-ness.. thanks to all our friends for their gifts and ang bao. it really helped us a lot at least to cover the expenses. thanks thanks for all your generosity.

celeste is very naughty, getting more zeng also.. she is drinking more and longer too.. tomorrow is her man yue... Mama and Papa wish Celeste happy man yue.. we wish for your good health and safety. :)

And i realise that she cannot go out too long if not she will get cranky.. ytd we went out to distribute cakes and went temple to pray and an early dinner (thanks fang and edwin for accommodating)... she went home and was still on hyper mode. but going out was necessary ytd if not all the cakes cannot keep too long and alvin only off ytd ma.. :)

Fang and Edwin was supaaaa helpful... i was sooo paiseh to make them wait at the nursing room and having to take lift and even came to fetch us home and pick us up... thanks thanks.. we shall meet again when this monster is older and no need to ma fan so many pple to wait for her... :)

Im loving motherhood... :)

once again, celeste's blog is http://celesteloh.blogspot.com
u can see her pictures there too :)

I think its enough

i have come to a point where i dun care who reads my blog. i just want to rant it out and i want to jus say it out.

My FIL has been going arnd telling relatives that i dont let him carry baby. and telling me that since bb is born, he havent carry for 2 hours. COME ON!! im doing a total breastfeeding NOT bottle feeding. Baby wake up means wanna drink, drink finish sleep. tell me, wheres the slot? i did carry bb out before she drinks to let him carry and thats when i feel that shes not gg to cry out loud for the next 5 mins.

when bb sleeps, its the time i sleep or do my stuff like laundry and pack the room or clean the room or even take a break la! he walked into my room today while bb jus fell asleep and say.. "WAKE UP, YEYE carry" WTF??? i went back to the room and stop him! i tell him that if she wakes up, she will want to latch and i got things to do! and he say.. "i can carry what" i tell him.. not carry, she will want to DRINK!!

R u crazy or not? How can one person walk into my room and wake a sleeping baby just cause u want to carry???? have u spare a thought for me?

I do confinement myself, i take care of bb myself so i need to plan my time promptly so that i can do my things. i even have a note book to write down what time bb wake up, what time bb feed, how long on each side, and what time bb fall asleep, and even if she poos or pee at that waking time or not. this is for me to monitor if she drinks enough and remind me what time she will wake up by the duration she drank. DONT MESS WITH MY SCHEDULE!

then my neighbour ask if im TBF, i said yes. he opposed and tell me that i should give FM (formula milk) if not bb bones will not be strong. i told him NO. FM is chemical what, where got FM better than BM one?? then he went on and on and on.. and i tell him, NO WAY

he shoot me back ask me how long i want to feed bb BM, and i replied "ONE YEAR"

he gave me that smirk and shake his head!!!!

EH, ITS MY CHILD. U OK BO???

How other pple take care of their child i dont bother. but u dun give me those comments machiam im harming my own kid u know??

my MIL also! she even gave me comments like.. "haiya, cause u not working ma... u can la.. u not working.." in a very sarcastic tone. i had enough la.

this confinement and pregnancy made me see MANY MANY things. so disappointed that i got intention of moving back to my own mom house to stay with bb.

Pple who know me shud know.. u want, u come and tell me.. dun need to relay message to everyone. I HATE IT. i will purposely do opposite for u.. trust me.. i can be nice but just dont step on my tail..

U dun help, nevermind. but DO NOT MAKE THINGS WORSE.

ANd yes, i am going to be putting celeste in a infant care if i return back to work. i think its the best choice.
the other day, FIL carried her and he shake her up and down. i explained that her organs are not stable and he should not shake bb... MIL AND FIL tell me,,, "never shake bb wont grow up"

SIMI NONSENSE!!!

And that is AFTER the news of one bb died when the father shake his bb.. and i even went to tell them its wrong to shake celeste (after seeing FIL shake once before).

So yes, i am sending celeste to infant care. i need a caregiver that is supportive in breastfeeding and i know will let me work in peace.

I am not a bo chap or close one eye person when it comes to my child. i lost my julius last year and i strive thru very hard to have celeste. i wont let anything happen to my child. Taking care of bb is really not like a science experiment, cannot just test test.. wrong liao can redo..

blame me or u can scold me for being such a DIL. but i wont take risk.

Oh no....

Baby is having longer waking hours, staying alert.. but loves to latch -_-'''
This week's a bz week, i brought her to PD there for her jaundice check up.. and found out a lot more things.. and she got a WHOLE FACE of heat rash.. cause i sarong-ed her and it was very hot.. she came home with rashes.. PD say its normal and it will come and go... but her big day is SATURDAY!!!!

argh, everyone will start asking me why her face like tat.. then going to give me 1001 remedies liao.. but PD say.. it will come and go and do nothing about it. cause bb skin is dedicate... and yeah, im sticking by it la..

i just hope this party faster over.. we still gotta go visitngs on sunday to her ah chor house, ah ma house this house that house...

sigh.. what a day....

Give me some space and peace please..

Seriously, im not liking this confinement.. not because of the rules.. but because this whole confinement, every weekend sure got happening one.. not that i dont like people to come and visit us... just that, i really need to rest.. and i cannot rest, my rest means, sit on my bed and be quiet.

Its very paiseh if pple come and i dont show bb to them. but on the other hand, bb needs to sleep and eat. At her feeding time, obviously cannot show them. At her sleeping time, esp when shes at her 3rd week growth spurt, shes very light sleeper cause she will auto wake up 1.5 hourly to feed.. she is not having enough rest like when she was a newborn so naturally she will be fussy and cranky. so i try my best to let her sleep as much as she can.

i thought confinement is a time when pple dont come but let the mother and child rest de?

I really hope i can just sit on the bed and do my things and not feeling guilty that i never show face or show bb face... but i got no choice la.. i really need a little space.

Please spare a thought for the new mommy and baby who are both going thru some growing stages together.

Please dont tell me bb stomach got wind or no wind or whatever.. its not that case that i am not sleeping. She is going thru her 2nd round of growth spurt and she will constantly wake up for feeds which will last about 1 week and next spurt will come at her 6th week and this spurts will last for a year. Because im on TBF (total breastfeeding) and no bottles, i have to wake up and feed her (no, im not complaining about that part).

Im perfectly ok to be tired cause somehow we will sleep together for a couple of mins.. but what i need is no commitment, no responsibility (towards entertaining).. meaning, i can do what i want at whatever time i want and i dont have to be pai seh for not doing or doing it.

Please dont ask me to go for bottles. I WILL. but not yet. Yes, i might be going thru the tough way now.. but..... i think at this point when i am right at home with her, i shud be bonding with her and latching her as much as i can. Why should i waste this time when i am right here?

Im sure going to regret if i return to work force should i let her go on bottles at this point.

Its tiring but which mother is not tired when a baby arrive? Tired but i dont think any mommies will throw this responsibility away right? Im sure all mommies are noble IN THEIR OWN WAY

Dont compare, what i am willing to do now, might be something that u are not willing to do. what u are willing to do, might be something i feel i can do more.

jus MYOB and give me my space. thats the best way i can rest.

Watching her grow is such a blessing

Celeste and mommy are good.. we are getting used to each other, learning each other's cues and loving each other. besides pooing on my hand, she also pee on me.. hahahahaha.. but it brings me a smile la! haha..

When i see her clothes get a little tighter, i will feel very happy.. when i see that i dun need to fold her mittens, i feel very happy.. everyday watching her grow is the best thing that happened to my life.

Hubby and me are very accommodating to baby.. we try our best to give her as much as we can..

Ytd, i asked hubby.. "did u miss baby when u are at work?"
Him: i got think what shes doing lor
Me: u never miss her, never feel gao wei when u go to work meh?
Him: never, cause i know i must work to buy her nice nice things

I think both me and hubby start to have the same goal, same passion and same love :) In fact, he wasnt that accommodating when its jus the 2 of us lor.. hahahaha..

Bringing baby to PD this friday to check on her jaundice. Am trying very hard to sun her but dunno why like no improvement...

I think i will need to spend a lot of time to take care of baby and im getting worried how i am going to teach my niece and nephew... ytd, he couldnt get his spelling right when my SIL tested him. I heard it in the room while i was nursing baby.. Today, i questioned him and he told me because he cannot remember. U know why he cannot remember?

Cause everyday he jus stone arnd in the house waiting for his sister to finish her work and they will play together. Last week, they even turn on the TV and watch cartoon!! i told them off and of coz using my FIL as an excuse but i still told them off..

Right now, bb sleep is also my sleeping time. Baby wake up is milk time. I got not much time left to guide over the 2.. haizz.. headache..

Celeste Bb Shower

Suppose to get the chalet at cdans but they are fully booked :(
But we managed to get a seminar room at civil service club at batok.. gonna make it a simple affair cause we got not much budget to work with....

OH YA! for friends who are thinking what to get for Celeste... Cash preferred.. haha.. as practical as it may seem but its the most needy thing that she needs! haha.. Really, shes got a lot of clothes and stuff.. keke...

Right now, i am busy with her party things when shes asleep and feeding her when shes awake.. super tiring.. im trying my best to rest as much as i can.. but how much rest is not enuff.. haha..

I need love..

sounds weird? hahaha.. ya!! i need love man.. our love all give to celeste liao.. even our anniversary also can forget! from morning till night, we are all surrounding her.. feed her, change her, clean her, make her sleep and we barely have time to sit down and discuss things.. but we are enjoying it la.. just not used to it.. soon soon, we will get the hang of it..

she is having growth spurts and will wake up hourly even thou she had a lot the last feed.. what i read is that, it will normally last for 2 days or max 1 week.. but it seems like forever! haha..

i dunno which way to let her sleep.. side ways? on her back? she has been good with side ways but recently, she tries to turn and fidget arnd.. so we let her try her back.. and shes ok with it wor.. but still will turn her every now and then...

she loves to be swaddled but my room is too hot and i see some heat rash on her legs (since im swaddling her without her hands).. so i decided to remove the swaddle every now and then and put it back every now and then... see, the prob is.. she dislike fan.. so we cannot blow directly at her or even near her.. then the room is hot.. and she got heat rash.. so right now, we shall do what is best for her lor..

i feel quite bad when guests comes to my place to visit us.. cause bb keep sleeping and drinking.. she has no time to entertain pple.. if its time to feed and i carry her out, she will not be happy and cry.. after i feed her, shes all sleepy and i need to let her sleep.. so where got chance? bo pian la.. see how it goes..

im trying to catch some sleep when shes sleeping but her growth spurt waking ups is making me a super light sleeper that i dun even know i slept or not.. hahaha..

i think this is just the beginning of motherhood but we are definitely loving it la..

Eat Shit Sleep..

thats my bb's hobby!!

ok, after using hand express before feed and burping bb every now and then.. we are back to normal!!! i got pump out if she never feed on that side and throw away the milk cause my fridge is too contaminated to store BM (breast milk).. since i wont be bottle feeding baby, theres no need to store milk so soon...

ok!! baby shower location settled! now its time for ordering food for catering and the mini mini things.. :)

Fast and Furious!

Im glad that milk have set in and i am having a good supply of milk for bb.. but... im experiencing fast letdown reflex on my right breast.. meaning to say... the flow of the milk is super fast.. how fast? er.. the milk SHOOT on my bb face.. she couldnt take the flow and she let go and it just... PSST....

then i wet my shorts too..

i was so upset cause today bb's drinking schedule went a bit haywire and cause she wet her favourite swaddle.. she was using another one which she could adapt to it.. and it was raining.. and her fav swaddle cannot dry in time!!!!!! so she kept waking up..

so i decided to pump the milk out and bottle feed her just to make sure that she gets enough fluid and she will be able to pass out urine to clear her jaundice..

she was not very comfy with the bottle.. but after much coxing, she was able to drink what i pumped.. :) after that, her feed schedule was ok liao.. but then.. i jus tried my right breast again and it start to shoot again.. so i tried the hand express method to express some milk out until the flow is slow and steady then latch her.. and it works!

im so happy that she got some fluid and i pray hard her jaundice is clear soon....

Celeste has a blog!

I have created a blog for Celeste... thought it will be nice if i can show it to her when she grows up :) Her updates, developments are all posted there... but its still not fully done yet.. im doing it whenever i have time (like when shes sleeping).. haha.. please be patient

http://celesteloh.blogspot.com

Went to the PD today and got her checked. Jaundice still there, PD say most likely to clear after 1 - 2 weeks.. Celeste weighed 2.4kg upon discharge and today, shes weighing 2.745kg :) thats like.. 375g in 6 days.. i hope she continue to put on weight and stay healthy.

Realise that she dont have clothes to wear.. all too big for her even thou its newborn size. Heng i got buy some from some forum pple, the newborn size is very small and she can wear.

I also need to buy long sleeves shirt and pants for her cause she dont like cold.. maybe cause she is a baby, and in our tummy, shes always in a warm temperature. Now, shes wearing a slightly bigger newborn size long sleeves cause its quite cold today...

Oh, i also went to ICA today and tried bfing in public for the first time today! Not a smooth sailing one but managed to let her drink her fill and let her sleep all the way till she reach home.. Got my CDA and baby bonus done too! Celeste have IC number liao! lol

Went Jurong Safra to get Alvin's membership done so that we can book the chalet for her full month. It was raining so we dropped the idea of gg kiddy palace at JP to buy her clothes and head straight home.

We also used the stroller for the first time.. not bad.. just that we were not shopping around.. so we had to open and close the stroller.. we were rushing everywhere cause ICA close early, PD got appointment de.. i hope we can bring her go vivo or something soon then we can push her everywhere we go.. :)

Parenthood aint easy, but alvin and i are enjoying it... thou tiring but the bonding is very strong. Alvin even stayed up to help me take care of bb while i grab an hour of nap after several days of intermittent naps (like 30 mins?) .. some days, i only slept for 3 hours... But it was a good sleep.. at least i got my energy back a little. but poor alvin is very tired.

He wrote me a very sweet note and im very thankful that his around.. I hope we can soon bring Celeste to zoo, bird park and have our own family time.

Alright, need to prep for the next feeding.. will update whenever i have time...!

I am a kan cheong first time mommy..

Maybe due to the lack of sleep.. i cant seem to get the focus right. but with the help of friends and some research, im more relaxed.. tmr gg to see PD and clear my doubts further. pray hard that celeste's jaundice level will be back to normal...

Some things i learnt...

realise that celeste is a bit diff today.. she didnt take 2 sides of breast for 20 mins.. instead, she took one side for about 15 mins. then she will wake up about an hour later for the other side.. i was worried that she is not getting enuff. so i went to surf a bit..

i am have a fast let-down, sometimes celeste cannot catch up also.. and i read from babycenter webby that if fast let-down, bb can finish her full "set" of milk as quick as 10 mins.. :) so relieved to hear that..

"Why do I need to know how fast my let-down is?
You don’t need to know but you will find it helpful because the speed of your let-down dictates how long it will take your baby to get enough milk out of your breasts to get a full feed (rather than a snack). If you have a fast let-down your baby may be able to get all the milk he needs in as little as 10 minutes, but if your let-down is slow you will know that your baby needs to stay awake and feed for a great deal longer than this."