Give me some space and peace please..

Seriously, im not liking this confinement.. not because of the rules.. but because this whole confinement, every weekend sure got happening one.. not that i dont like people to come and visit us... just that, i really need to rest.. and i cannot rest, my rest means, sit on my bed and be quiet.

Its very paiseh if pple come and i dont show bb to them. but on the other hand, bb needs to sleep and eat. At her feeding time, obviously cannot show them. At her sleeping time, esp when shes at her 3rd week growth spurt, shes very light sleeper cause she will auto wake up 1.5 hourly to feed.. she is not having enough rest like when she was a newborn so naturally she will be fussy and cranky. so i try my best to let her sleep as much as she can.

i thought confinement is a time when pple dont come but let the mother and child rest de?

I really hope i can just sit on the bed and do my things and not feeling guilty that i never show face or show bb face... but i got no choice la.. i really need a little space.

Please spare a thought for the new mommy and baby who are both going thru some growing stages together.

Please dont tell me bb stomach got wind or no wind or whatever.. its not that case that i am not sleeping. She is going thru her 2nd round of growth spurt and she will constantly wake up for feeds which will last about 1 week and next spurt will come at her 6th week and this spurts will last for a year. Because im on TBF (total breastfeeding) and no bottles, i have to wake up and feed her (no, im not complaining about that part).

Im perfectly ok to be tired cause somehow we will sleep together for a couple of mins.. but what i need is no commitment, no responsibility (towards entertaining).. meaning, i can do what i want at whatever time i want and i dont have to be pai seh for not doing or doing it.

Please dont ask me to go for bottles. I WILL. but not yet. Yes, i might be going thru the tough way now.. but..... i think at this point when i am right at home with her, i shud be bonding with her and latching her as much as i can. Why should i waste this time when i am right here?

Im sure going to regret if i return to work force should i let her go on bottles at this point.

Its tiring but which mother is not tired when a baby arrive? Tired but i dont think any mommies will throw this responsibility away right? Im sure all mommies are noble IN THEIR OWN WAY

Dont compare, what i am willing to do now, might be something that u are not willing to do. what u are willing to do, might be something i feel i can do more.

jus MYOB and give me my space. thats the best way i can rest.