Hope

Was down with chicken pox for 2 weeks... Im glad i can go back and work hard next wed... Jus 3 days more... i will continue to work hard for what i believe...

Was watching this show "1 litre of tears".. talking about a true story of a gal who has a incurrable disease and how she fought on, and the probs she faces, and the things she have to give up even no matter how much she wanted it... And later passed away at the age of 25... She made me realise the importance of living, fighting on and how precious time is...

I know i have many probs now... I tried sitting down the entire day thinking of the solutions, but i often get confused, lost and discouraged, and later stopped to think so as not to make myself even more sad... But i remember someone told me to face probs and not to avoid them. I guess its time i write them down, paste them right in front of me, and solve them one by one...

Even if i cannot think of all the probs, but whenever i remember them, i will write them down, and solve them at the quickest time possible... I believe, one day, there will be no more post-it paper on the wall, and i can lead my life happily...

I need to have faith in myself, and i seek for peace in my mind... I pray for peace...

Now that i fall, i need to stand up as soon as i can, cause time is running out... I need to make it

Aja!

My Enemy, My War

Since this blog is not read by many... I should write you guys a story.... I was very political when i was working back in 2000, and thru all these polictics, i made friends, enemies and lessons. I told myself to lead a simple life, doing simple jobs... And i wont be angry with anyone who stabs me from the back cause i believed in karma.

But just recently, i was stabbed by this lady whom i respected since the first day i worked with her... But she's the person who affected my biz, my life, my friends....

Characters in story...

Ms A = a lady who i respected a lot
Mr B = a very old friend who i would choose to help than to sit back and not bother
Mr C = his brother, a person would think before he acts
Mr D = ex colleague who i worked with, well respect by others
and... ME

It happened recently when Mr C talk to me about work, and the polictics and stuff happening in his biz, and he warned me to be wary of Ms A who has been speaking ill of me to Mr B. I told him that gossips and rumours are normal in biz and told him not to worry. I even told him that Ms A is a nice lady and i respected her a lot. Little did i know she has been speaking ill of her, but i was not worrying about it.

One day, Mr D called me and approached me for a job offer. But i told him that i am currently running my own biz, providing the service he requires. He told me that he would speak to his boss and let us talk. As a biz person, any opportunity is a good opportunity for me. Any outcome may happen, i may be providing him other services we did not arrange initially.

I decided to be honest to Mr B & C, so i took the chance to tell Mr C about this offer i had and that i will go ahead and hear them out. I know there would be a conflict of interest. But i tell myself i would make sure both sides know everything before i act. I didnt know what company Mr D is working in, despite asking him twice, he did not respond. So i called one of my friend to ask him before i meet Mr D's boss.

As soon as i know the company i would be speaking to, i called Mr D and i told him about the discussion i had with the boss....

Now the drama comes...

Mr B got Ms A to check out on who is the one who approach for this service. Was it me to approached Mr D or Mr D who approached me... And Mr D told Ms A i did (from what i heard)... or perhaps Ms A roti prata the whole thing? God knows... So Mr B was pissed and had an arguement with me and said that i "betrayed" them by approaching another company when i am suppose to give them that service.

I left Mr B's office, and i was curious... cause Mr B said it was the boss who said it, but when i confronted the boss for lying the very same day, he said he didnt speak to Mr B...

The following day, i recd a call from Mr C... he told me the actual story... so now.. i wonder, if it's Mr D who told a lie, or Ms A? Ms A is in the midst of helping Mr B & C in their biz, long before i was offered this opportunity, she has been speaking ill of me in front of Mr B... Reason? I also dunno... I let the readers think it thru..

Ms A asked for 5k monthly for helping Mr B & C and running the project for them. But Ms A has other commitments she needs to see to and also earning from there. Mr B & C offered her some profit sharing but she rejected, she jus wants the 5k monthly. Well, simple reason? She dont wanna clear the shit in the end. If the company close, she will jus go...

So, they got a project, something different from the actual biz trade they are in. Desperate for projects, Mr B & C are in a dilemma whether they shud grab it. Ms A who was helping them get the project told Mr B & C that she would not take the risk to take the project...!?

The Angels say: She is jus concern about their funds...

The Devils say: Knowing the company is desperate, she knows they have no choice... reverse psycology... End of the day when project doesnt work well, she is not to blame, cause she has told them not to take it up...

Ms A affected my friendship with Mr B, ruin my reputation... I have not declared war with anyone for the past few years... But i cannot take it when i have given in and she still eat me when i have nothing to do with her...

Before i declare war, i need to find out some things... Then, i will grab whatever she is gonna have, put obstacles ahead of her, even if it costs for more enemies... I will break her down. I am not stupid, just tired. But she made many wrongly accused me for my doings. Im sorry, i cannot accept.