Cant Sleep

Preggy normally will have insomnia.. and im suffering from it now... im damn tired the entire week.. but i still wake up at 9am today... i even thought of gg for morning jog! hahahaha... now im damn sleepy... but now i close my eyes... i still cant sleep...

I want to eat durains... hahahahaha... den mango.... i have craving for fruits... hahahhaaha... yay... next weekend, i plan to go do my eye brow den sunday have to attend Kenneth's wedding... dun even know what to wear... 11th is fang birthday wor... dunno what to get for her also... den 15th, i get to see baby!!!!!!

following that, on 19th and 20th is sean's wedd, alvin will have to go help out.. im quite excited to go cause it will be held at zoo and bird park! so interesting!! then 22nd is fang ROM... i damn happy for her... cant wait for her to move to her new house, attend her AD and see her get preg like me!!!! have a baby!! hahaha.. den xmas liao...

December will be an exciting month for this jobless mommy!! i have so many things to be happy about...

Oh ya.. remember i attended Auntie Lily's birthday at marriot in nov? Here's some of the pics! Oh ya, my tummy has grown bigger liao... that was my 3.5 mths... hahaha...

Auntie Lily is Guan & Patrick's mom..
(They were the emcee and sound system sponsorors for my wedd)

Diaper Bags!!!

Hmm... Should i get the baby bag from Gucci?

I was online shopping... den i saw the polo ralph babywear!! wa... damn nice can!! hahahha... ok... i am gonna get it for baby... Btw... my sis in law's sis in law... hahaha... complicated?? OKok.. apparently... she got this 50% + 50% disc from burberry.... hahaha.. kids wear la.... so if i buy something at $100, i pay only $25~~ wu hua bo???

Anyway... my ex boss is killing me.. i cant rest my mind.... tmd...

There are some constructions at my void deck.. wa lan.. damn noisy since 9+am can!! btw hor.. i tot all works are to be done at 10 or 1030am de? hmmmm.... cant sleep man...

I am just tolerating...

But i got my limits

I almost flare up at my dinner table today. If it were for my mom, i would have thrown everything on the floor!!

I realise that either there is a shortage of food, or we are really "hit badly by the crisis"... somehow, we were adviced not to "overeat" during dinner for the sake of the pple eating after us.. (approx 1-2 persons)

I can hardly eat happily... first, there were about 4 dishes on the dinner table, then when i start eating, she said that fish is for me... den i picked the egg, and then she says "u dun wanna eat the fish??" but i havent started taking my first bite!

My goodness, if having dinner was so tough, then i rather eat out... Then she flares by "ping ping piang piang" at the washing area... the moment i heard that, i wanted to throw my rice bowl on the table, take my wallet and go out and eat.

First... if u think that we are always shortage of food, then cook more. But it doesnt seem to be that way, cause Alvin always gotta eat till he cant sleep in the night cause he comes back at 11+ and the last to eat.

Second, if u scared we have left over food which made u cook less, u obviously know that we are all at home to eat because we didnt say we are not eating and we were at home sleeping at 5pm! So, that is not an excuse i believe. (u can call me a bitch for saying that, but im sorry, im pissed)

Thirdly, if you want me to stuff all the rice, egg, sausage and your FISH + the soup (which u insisted i must drink when i was feeding the kids - nephew and niece).. Im sorry too, cause my mouth is not that big.

And knowing that preg woman likes to munch, if i dun "complete" the given task, i cannot step out to the kitchen to pick little snacks, if not she will make funny noises. (My Solution? Store Snacks in the room). and thank god, my room is at the corridoor, Alvin have to squeeze supper thru the window to pass me and then open the door.

And by the way, i am 25 and his freaking 33!!!!!! we are not 15 and 18 years old ok?!
And we are not a family with 15 pple that we can hardly fill our stomachs.. And we have a whole fridge of dishes that i can hardly buy my own stuff to store inside can???

Even my baby boy is not happy.. his kicking and moving arnd inside me as im blogging now. See!! His not even "satisfied" with dinner.

Enough of my bitching, i am going down to get ice cream to eat.

Wu Eng de Mommy

I was struggling to pack up my room today...

I used to be able to clean up the room, pack the drawers, clean bed, clean walls, clean cupboard, sweep and mop before i was preg... today... i had to take a stool and slowly sit there and clean... slowly take the pail of water to my room... slowly get up from the chair... and i can hardly clean half of the room!!

End up, i decided to give up and take one shirt, one shorts, one bra to wash and also take a bath... And guess wat? As i had to bend and take pail, put on the toilet bowl cover (cause i cant squat).. my baby is moving arnd.. i can feel him giving me some knocks... so... i had to slowly again...

hahaha.. by the time i finish everything... im half dead...

Mommy no more strength and stamina liao... i have to clean 1 room in 2 days instead of 1/2 a day... hahaha!!

My last day at work

Finally everything's over....

Thou financially affected, but i will be happier this way... Packing up my stuff for clearance tomorrow... my heart is filled with memories of the times i just came into the company a year ago... then i realise that, all the happy times were in the past, and nothing was recalled "happy" recently... that is when i know, i have made the right choice.

I spent one year building up my client base, which i will bring along for good... good memories will be kept... i met good colleagues, good customers... i think what i learnt over this one year is a life time experience that will bring me far...

At least my "ex" boss let me work from home free lance now... so im still not that "jobless".. hahaha

To my sales colleagues:
I finally took the courage to let go the income and be happy. The times we fought hard together were in my "good memories" and i will take them out whenever i am down... so that i can stand up again... Jia you... Grab those money first... :)

Boy Or Gal...?

Pause when gynae is pointing on the screen at the 2nd time..... den u will see the.......... o|o (er hem...) .. also hear the heart beat! hahaha

this is just 80%.... next visit (detailed scan)... we will know for sure liao....

My Baby....

Thinking of buying baby stuff liao... so many things to buy... planning to save on some things and spend a little more on certain things... Did i mention about my baby's first movements? hahaha... i somehow can feel baby moving... despite the fact that my gynae told me in my last visit that dun be imaginative... but after some verifications with my sis in law........ the soft taps are baby movements... hahahahahaha... okok... back to the topic... here are the list of stuff....

Baby Clothes:

• 7 - 10 sets of clothes (5 are 0-6 mths, the rest 6 - 10 mths) - cause i scared baby too big size.. haha.. so at least got stand by for bigger ones...
• 7 pairs of Mittens and socks - they say infants cannot wear shoes *pang tang*
• Receiving blanket from mother care - a bit ex, but will be using everyday, so buy cuter one lor... hahaha...
• 2 Diaper cover - to prevent leakage while using cloth diaper
• 2 dozens of purlin cloth diaper - Elaine say material is good

Thats what im planning to get this mth... hahaha... still got a whole lot of things hor.... diaper liners to keep the cloth diaper clean and easy to wash... baby wipes... breast pumps, nuk's milk bottles, powder container, breast milk zip lock storage bags... etc etc....

after my gynae check up, i will go visit kiddy palace... den go mother care :)

hope i recover faster... my cough is giving me sleepless nights... :(

Sick Mommy

I fell ill since last Thurs... sore throat, flu, fever... And today, i lost my voice again.... I tried gg to work yesterday, but i coughed non stop... So decided not to go to work today, also because i din wan to spread to my colleagues...

Cant wait for my next check up on monday... But most imptly, i hope i recover by this week... my baby has been feeding on my medication for a week liao... my heart also pain... :(

Its November...

Starting from tomorrow, i will be office based... good for mommy's body, no need to dress up, no need to worry about sales results... I also have no more freedom to move freely, cannot eat lunch at 3, cannot shop arnd for baby things except weekends... :(

I have thoughts of leaving.. despite the fact that its better to wait until they ask me to go rather than i tender.. but i am really not happy la... I feel very unfairly treated lor... like tat, next time i will hold back to have another child wor... unless i work in govt offices lor...

But i know i have reached my limit and what i am going thru now, its nearing to a breakdown liao....

My tummy is getting bigger and bigger day by day... This baby is so hard to "maintain" in my body... i am looking more "hum" than before... and i look ugly in everything i wear.. i wear for the sake of wearing something... hahaha... i look worse naked lor...

Come to think of it, i got a lot of things to buy (or start to buy)... clothes, bed, diaper napkins etc... i will be doing my confinement at my mom's place.. (fang, u can see baby everyday liao... hahaha) but they say after full mth den can see wor... :( My mom place got air con, my mom got her buddy to help me shower baby, wash my clothes for the first 10 days... hee.. den i will have to do it liao... hahaha... i will get alvin to take leave for 2 weeks... will be doing the full month at a chalet (like last time wei wei like tat).. more convenient.. cause both of house not very big.. plus.. imagine in laws place filled with my relative (vice versa)... so chalet is best...

Think of baby things, every worry also go away... my baby really my source of strength... i hope s/he will be a good child and kuai kuai... making this hardship more worthwhile... hahaha...