Appearance v.s. Reality

Somehow... managed to have a good talk with some friends of mine... and got to confirm what i predicted and imagined.. In fact, im not amazed by the things that are happening around.... It's jus that i told myself not to judge by my own predictions.... but who knows...

Humans are like that, first.. nothing is enough... then... it looks greener on the other side... yeah... greed kill most... and the desperation i see in some pple makes me disgusted... eating and shitting right at the same place, thinking too highly of themselves that nothing would happen

And out of all these things, i am the stubborn one who make sure i wont let it off easily. Sad la... but i can be very nice, but not to the extend of being taken advantage of.

Its amazing how some humans see things... esp i feel this person is so so AMAZINGLY kam lan. im not plotting, but im curious how far this creature will go... i will jus stop if im sian la.. but i think its still interesting till now.. haha!!

Week 4 - The Outcome

This week is gonna be more tiring than last and even the last few weeks... I lost Cindy somehow... and now that i have to do everything by myself.. im kinda stressed up... For a moment, i feel that i have not enough time to do everything!! Sigh... ok.. i reckon that i need to organise my things again...

And i NEED to know who i wanna close next mth's deal also.. CNY is coming up in 2 weeks time and i havent done much shopping.. argh!!! Went to J8 for some CNY shopping and buy some necessity... and also a FULL body massage... (Finally..)

Sigh.. tmr is again another week of war... i need to rest man!!

Planning to organise a chalet or something or a drinking session with my colleagues and mingle arnd end of jan or feb... cause i guess we need some time OFF WORK... haha... gtg.. its getting lateeeee...

Happy & Stressed

Its been days since i blogged... was busy pushing my sales in, meeting customers and finding new customers... Thankfully to the PINK amulet & all the blessings... i managed to close a deal on Tues... and i almost lost it initially!! haha... who ask me.. go call customer on monday morning, knowing that monday always very blue de... but heng i sms customer to apologise in the afternoon, then he called me to confirm the deal..

And i had a bad trip, spending 2 hrs in the taxi.. (lets not talk about the sad stuff)... well, finally submitted yesterday.. but jus as i plan to calm down and think about my funnels for next mth, trying to get at least 15 new proposals to follow up for next mth... our big boss called for a mtg yest evening... he say he needs 600k sales and wants our team to hit it no matter what... Adding to all the tension, he reminded us that we are left with 9 working days!! Argh, i know i might not be the one who has the most bullets to help.. but i thought i would give it a shot.. cause whatever that comes in counts... Anyway, its a good thing cause i get to offer customers a better price...

Well, we discussed and i forecast a figure of 40k to contribute to the shortfall. I aint sure if i can, honestly. But i will give it a try... Aja Fighting!!!!

I worry for those of my colleagues who has some hiccups this mth, alr they are squeezing to the max to break the egg, and with this "must get" target... i totally understand how stressed they are now. Its jus like... u got 10 orders on the list, and a group of pple orders another 20... Sigh... i would wanna do my part to help.

So Pink God, Gods above.. please see thru and guide us... make the customers cool down and listen to us. Let them consider and be convinced. Let us all (10 of us).. make it to 600k and have a happy new year... Oh ya, god, can u lead us to find the first deal for next mth as well? Cause if we hit 600k, i doubt we would have any to submit next mth too.. Please help.

Xmas Eve Celebration

Hey Hey Hey~ i reckon i need to upload some pics.. heh... if not really like diary liao... one of my colleagues took some pics and sent the link to us on fri... was too lazy, so i jus print screen.. heh.. when i have more time, den i upload nicer ones ok? But i see my pics below... wah.. i wear this "baby doll" blouse take pic.... i look like im pregnant!!! damn fat... ARGH.. hee....


Hmm... too small for u too c? Click on image!! :)

My Name is 陳韋妏

I need to annouce this like my shifu said... see, i got this new name given by my shifu in july 07, but i din wanna change cause i think im ok with my previous name... but.. since im so suay nowadays, i decided to get it done and see if my luck and life would change.. So.. 陳韋妏 is the hock ki name!! haha....

Well, even thou i got my chinese name changed, i did not change my dialet name (Tan Hwee Min) but i got my hanyu pinyin changed to (Chen Weiwen)... it sounds like a guy? Who cares? Shifu says it good, so i will heed his advice... i trust him, cause his not a fortune teller, but he guides me to many things... i learn to chant to seek peace in my mind, and sometimes when im really down, den he will do calculations for me to foretell whats happening and whats gonna happen... His a guardian to me...

Next is to go SIR to get my NRIC done.. hopefully next week... but since target is not met, i also dun wanna do anything else but work... anyway i got 28 days to get my NRIC done... :)

Got a new buddha amulet yesterday.. its a PINK one! only one in the box.. there are 4 colors.. its called "Soon Teck", meant for safety, business... it was more like a love at first sight.. Since i have a Friday Buddha, i cant wear the Soon Teck together cause we have to wear amulets in 3s.. so my shifu took out his Pi Xiu from the altar which he has kept for ages to go with my amulets!! Im touched and also guilty la... cause the Pi Xiu was with him for so long... and i learnt that the monk who blessed the Pi Xiu is a famous monk... And my PINK Soon Teck is blessed and chanted by 780 monks! He showed me the Thai newspaper article.. The material used for Soon Teck were the (brick)residues from the old temple structure. They are only about 2000+ that were blessed and no more liao... Thats why amulets can fetch high prices cause of the "limited edition"...

When im confused, sad... i would go to shifu and talk to him... like what he usually do, he would blessed and chant me... :)

Im happy la... that im blessed, but some things have to rely on urself de.. that i know.

Traffic Congestion!!

Argh!! I used to take cab to work at psa bldg and paid about $20+- with on call ($4) + peak hour($2)... and with the increaase in fares... its like.... almost $30 when it comes to traffic jams...

It used to start jamming from clementi ave 6.. den slowly i see the jam starting at pie... NOW!! jus turn out from my place and it start to jam!! with the 35% of every 20cents.. i tell u... i rather pay the $2 peak hour... Cause with the 35%, the "peak hour" can go up to $10 too!! i wonder why are there so MANY cars arnd.. and everyone is like "in a rush"... trying to cut each other... i feel like im in bangkok suddenly.. It used to have traffic congestion in the mornings and after work timings... now...?? every single hour its jamming!

We used to say that driving sports car in singapore is not a good choice due to the traffic lights... now...? its BEST to ride a bike.. cause the vehicles never can go up to 100km/hr on the road too! I wonder why... Issit the cab drivers trying to get into the jammed lanes to earn the 35%?

I used to not bother on peak hours and stuff... I even call cabs during peak hours and i dun feel the pinch... but i realise yesterday that i start to see my watch when i take cabs... And if im not in a rush to go anywhere... I queued up like yesterday... Queue for 30 mins... Honestly, if its not raining... i MIGHT take a bus home!! haha!! ridiculous u know???

So... i decided to try this out... take a bus to work and save $30 per day... 5 days its $150!! u know one mth i can buy my camera liao?? haha... what nonsense???? Okok.. let me try to wake up at 6am, and leave the house by 715am and take a bus by 730am so that i can reach by 830am! See.. i take cab to office cause i dun wanna be late for work and try to sleep more.. but... now, even when i take the cab by 745am, i reach office at 9am!! what's wrong singapore??

Lets see if i can make it can take bus to work.. haha...

Stop Bugging Me Son!

Sigh.. went to a company today... 80% lost.. cause they cant accept the fact that they are selling away a machine for our and suffering a loss... hmm... got another chance, but need some effort... So i plan to do something to salvage this case...

But on the other hand, i got 2 happy news... i have a company that requires 60 turn around time till they decide if they wanna take up my proposal. Next, they tell me that there are a grp of companies that is under that committee. So if i can convince the committee.. chances of closing MORE at a go... will be quite high...

Then when i reach office, and i got a referral from a guilty customer.. and quote a super "never earn" quote for fast closing... spoke directly to the GM.. and it looks healthy.. he say will look thru and tell me tomorrow... Hopefully can sign order on Fri...

Sigh.. i keep having knock backs like tat... I was depressed for a while.. cause the 80% lost case is suppose to cover 1/4 of my target... now i need to find something to cover that back... and they like the idea but the fact that they are making a loss... sigh...

I hope.. really hope... i can make it... at least something to ease the intensity now. In me.. at least... im not a person who gives up easily. But i will if i feel the guilt in me.

Sigh

Its better off this way...

Had a rather unproductive day... only useful thing i did was to go to the temple to pray and seek for better luck and better sales.. and managed to exchange some sales techniques with my colleagues during our smoke breaks... Well, im trying to be organised and not to get lost easily, and i reckon that for a start, i need to jot things down to constantly remind myself. Going back to the basics is slow but i feel its essential for the beginning. Im not submitting myself to fate or destiny. I know if i have faith, it will come.

Met up with a friend of mine whom we havent been speaking or seeing each other for a YEAR! This "bonded" pal of mine is rather special, cause we seldom meet or chat.. but feels no stranger to me each time we manage to catch up. And the moment we said bye.. we know its gonna be 2009 till we meet again... HAHA... no.. its not a delibrate thing.. but it jus happens that we only think of each other once a year! heh...

But its thru this friend that i see myself growing up each time we meet. We share our lives and whats happening for the past year and i would recall what principles i had back then and now... And yes, i have grow up for the better. Somehow, this conversation we shared earlier, calms me down and ease the tension in me.

I thought that my thinkings and beliefs had gone haywire for the luck im having and the hiccups ive been having... but i reckon that its not that bad afterall.. i feel that im more mature, im not that impulsive compared to last year when we shared. In aspects of love matters, i realise that the explanations i had shared compared to the past = i have learnt to take things slowly, and i can learn to let things go in a more... "cool" manner... At work, i no longer jus work for the sake of working.. but working to excel and gain more knowledge in what im doing. Just like taking a masters in sales or "selling".. haha... practical one... i start to remember and jot down in mind of what i have been going thru and breaking those points down to make it to a bigger picture, which helps me improve in what im doing.

Now, thats what i have done for myself in 2007 and what im still doing in 2008... for a moment i felt relieve that im not that lost afterall. Im jus confused.

Thanks pal, u kinda enlighten me without knowing whats wrong with me, or with no intention of enlightening me. I just happen to digest what we chat about, wat i have been doing.. and ya... i jus need to correct things here and there.. and i shud start to believe in myself and that serene is improving day by day.

This friend of mine is a leader.. a creator or someone who creates opportunity, influence and possess the power of making beliefs. And i told him this today, which i myself thought was "powderful..".. a typical "ah huay" like me wouldnt say this.. haha...

I told him...

In your job, you are the create and make beliefs..

And me, my job is to nurture the beliefs...

Sales is not only about selling... selling is an instrument, but my job is not to sell only... it is to nurture the beliefs people already have and making them feel the importance of having and posessing, & by giving them what they never thought of having anyway.

Every sales product might not be a need. But we educate them why they need and they must "need" it.. No one wants to give up something which would be good for them. Should they resist, find the reason. Nothing is impossible, it could only be impossible if they never reveal & u never try to find out.

Dreams.. Dreams...

I had a funny dream last night... Dreamt of my first love! haha.. The first love not meaning first bf.. but first guy i loved. An egoistic man who is highly confident about himself. Even a prideful girl like me was conquered by him... Haha!! But honestly, the 2.5 years spent with him, i learnt quite a lot from him.. I stayed with him for a year or so, being rebellious and naughty at that time, i didnt think much and just wanted to be with someone i love. I had great times with his whole family (including aunties & uncles), learning cookery, traditional recipes and family warmth.

His mom was a SUPERWOMAN... i respect her a lot till now. She is a intelligent lady who can take care of her family and take care of her business as well. She taught me much and also went thru a lot of her tests thou... (heh)

His dad, very similar to his character but his dad is someone who accepts and listens. Stubborn at times, but he learns to accept. It took his dad some time to accept me and the acceptance started when i met him at a PUB! And we ended up talking in the car back, talking about life, thoughts, dreams. The only regretful thing i felt was the time when he was admitted after his morning jog. My mom didnt allow to let me go to the hospital (superstitious reasons), and my ex was so angry with me cause his dad was looking for me when he woke up. Till now, i feel very guilty, and since then, i had never seen his dad cause we broke up shortly after that.

His sister, a unique name, a unique personality. I respect her as much and i feel that she is a very capable young lady who seeks freedom yet holds on to her responsibility. I enjoyed the times chatting with her and seeking advice from her too.

This dream of mine, stir up a lot of my thoughts, past, sweet & harash moments. A lot of "what ifs" came up to my mind, and now that he is no longer in contact with me, and his still unwilling to open up his mind and thoughts. There are many questions i would like to ask him too. I heard from our friend that he did ask about me in their meet up session, and my friend's mom advice me not to think about it since his so ego and nasty. But then again, there are some things you know you wont forget for life.

After departing for 6 years, the memories are still locked in my memories. Even without thinking about it, i still can dream of him! And he looks fierce in that dream thou... haha... Well, if i were to be on my death bed today, he is one person i would like to see for the last time too. Even thou we had our fights during our relationship, still, this first love was well spent, real, honest and true. I guess we should put those xiao hai zi hua (childish anger) aside, those happen cause we were still young. Now that we are grown ups, thinkings and mindsets have changed, im sure there are much to catch up.. But i would only wan to see him when im parting.. haha... cause i scared he will look fierce upon seeing me alive! hahahaahaha

U kw its precious but u've no means 2 hold on tight

Have been working like a bull since the beginning of the year... jus cause i wanna do well this month in my sales. I felt that i cannot just work hard, but i have to achieve something... Im adding on stress to myself-i know. But its a natural instinct mould in me since i started working in banks, and i cant seem to loosen myself up anyway... Like the fortune teller say... everything i have to rely on myself... so i guess, i need to stay positive and keep up the determination and jus rely on myself. Thou its tiring to keep on relying on my means.. and i get so tired sometimes that my mind can flash back a person resting on a jogging track catching its breath. But i know i have no intension to stop yet. I will fight on. I can.

Looking at the news today, and found out that our child hood comedian and a low profile but well respected artiste has just left us for no reasons - MC King (Lan Qing Xi)... Last year, we had Chen Jin Lang, and <<881>> having sad songs << Last Breath >> & <<12 Lotus>>... Esp << Last Breath >>, even till now, when i listen to the lyrics, i felt that i was singing how i felt.. (beg the god up above, let me leave peacefully.. asking my parents to take me along, and stay by your side) - honestly speaking, its a waste for talents like them to leave.. They pass on with the passion in their lives, jobs still burning on.. Reading MC's blog, i realise that he was depressed about his low profile and his lack of explosure after being so long in the media.

Nonetheless, i feel his happiness in the jobs he does and the passion to fight on another day. Like what he said... "今的这个社会，事事难料。今天风风光光，明天口袋光光。只要每天努力向上，对得起自己，家人和友人，明天哪怕天塌下来也能即登“极乐世界”吧".. How many times have u encouraged urself this way to feel relieve for that few mins...? I have - plenty. So what if you 对得起自己, 每天努力向上? This working society is cruel.. u cannot deliver what is expected of u... u have to find a place which can keep u alive. Its no longer about working hard or smart... End of the day, its what u can produce.. Bosses appreciate ur hard work and efforts, but who will cover them for your shortfall? I know the facts and theory in my past experience... and i understand clearly.

I lack of luck now, but i have never stop adding hard work and effort. Perhaps, its not my turn yet, but i know i wont stop because of luck. Im just waiting for luck to come and by then, i will be well prepared and ready to recd many orders and hitting targets. End of the day, its not mainly about 对得起自己.. but more like not disappointing people who trust that you can.

Seriously, sometimes i wish i can stop thinking... stop being sad and depress... i tried many ways to sleep at night.. but once i close my eyes, i will keep thinking of the consequences, the fatal results - negative stuff. But strangely, my mood and passion for sales and sale figures never die.. Its the only thing that keeps me going NOW.

I know if my friends read this blog and realise that i might need a listening ear, they would come forward. But honestly, i dont know how to explain what my actual though.. like i said in my last post.. im also trying to find out what i am thinking exactly. Keeping inside is not the best solution, so i will try to blog them down as much as i can... im jus afraid, if i start to sit down and think of a solution to untie the knots in me... i would be lost AGAIN. Like what MC mention.. i think in my life its like 很不得志；风风雨雨，跌跌撞撞，出门遇衰人，找人问无门.. he was talking abt his work, and me.. my path now.

Right now, i jus want to continue walking till i meet "luck" & "god's guidiance"... if i stop walking, i would never see them again. Meanwhile, i continue to work harder, so that once i met "them", i can start reaping what i sowed. As for my sleepless nights, i would blog, work and plan my funnels. I know tables will turn, once i meet my opportunity, i wont lose it again.

To God above who used to be watching over me.. "I'm right here, never left u, still believe that u will remember my existance soon.. I have not given up, pls dun give me up"

Workaholic or Too Stress?

I know this is just the 3rd day of the month.. but look.. the week 1 is almost over... my goodness... im losing my breath... work is stress.. but im motivated to earn as much money i can in the shortest time span. I need to make it happen anyway...

Im really stressed at work but im enjoying it... the only part im hating is that fact that i keep on losing direction and i have to constantly find them and remind myself...

I realise i start to keep quiet nowadays, dun talk much expect work stuff.. althou i talk cock sometimes, but my mind is at my working desk, costing sheet, and my pile of customer records... i love this part.. when i work, i forget everything.. everything like the responsibilities im carrying now, the fatigue me.. and of coz the money no enough thinking...

The hunger for $$ has made me very stress.. the more i feel hungry, the more i stress.. some say its good.. some say its bad... i say... i feel that im isolating myself and bringing only work with me... sad huh? The funny and chirpy me seems to go missing for sometime.. Honestly, i havent been seeing myself laugh wholeheartedly for sometime... i guess ever since i left OC...

when i feel that my good friends are far away frm me, and that i reckon that in my life, there are many things i cannot rely on anyone else but myself.. So i kept everything within me... and now that im feeling lost, all the more i isolate myself to think things properly before i move on...

I was chatting with a friend of mine, and i told him what i have been doing and for once, tell someone that i have been isolating myself and having probs thinking what im thinking... he says that im having depression... :( I guess part of it is right, for some reason, when i realise that booze cant make me tired and sleep.. i start to work even harder and looonnnggeerr... And i cant work non stop like those days in OC... i tell u, im not depress about that part.. in fact, thats the only thing i feel the sense of satisfaction in life...

Right now, i think of nothing except my work. I dont even think about resting except the holiday trip i plan to go once i manage to take a 10k chq frm my hardwork... thinking about the saxophone i wanna get.. playing music that hums my heart... i tell u... that is heaven...

Nah, bgr, conflicts, polictics are not in my list.. no one is bullying me.. and some cases, i brought them upon myself. haha... Adventus is not like those banks i worked in.. over here is very straight forward.. everyone in the office is ok, we never wanted to cross over whoever's boundary... i try to be open to everybody, cause this is the best way to avoid misunderstandings ma...

im more depress with my life.. and now that i start questioning myself.. why would i wanna ruin my life with external factors instead of protecting my life and future right frm the beginning? This mistake, is not just admitting or apologising... it has left me a big scar and a big hole to fill. It takes time... but i need to speed up too...

God, if u can remember my existance... pls do not give up on me.. jus hold me tight and let me know u have not let me go ba... i felt neglected by u...

Some Recap of 2007...

Say good bye to 2007

Finally the "not so good" 2007 is going to end in 3 hours time. This year, not everything went on smoothly.. At work... I left OCBC, went to concentrate on my biz, and due to some personal reasons (not work related) that i moved on to Adventus to do print mgmt industry. A big change in the industry i have been working in, but i felt that it was a good change.

First i did not think that i can cope with other industries other than banking. Perhaps this is what others call "comfort zone". The moment i started InSource, i had a great time setting up my office in Bugis, and then to Serangoon Gardens. Though i had prob finding good sales people, but im glad the better ones stayed on with me. I have a good chance, a good product and good clients but i didnt have good sales people at first to start it off. I needed a lot of time to do planning for InSource and did not have time for sales, and when i had time for sales, i realise that we had a lot to catch up...But thank god, i still have biz coming in despite the fact that my focus is almost ALL in adventus.

Coming to Adventus was a challenge. First, it was an industry which i never expect myself to be in. Secondly, i seldom come into such contact with people selling copiers, printing solutions. If it were an industry doing corporate identity like letter head, name cards, or other office needs, i would be able to adapt faster as i often get into contact with such industry. But printing solutions was a stranger to me. But God is good to me, when i had my training, i had Kenneth buddy with me to pull the dry training thru. If i were alone thruout, i dun think i will stay awake! haha... And of coz, a good trainer cum boss... Even thou his a little "man" (ego), often expect us to do as per what he says (really photocopy that sort). But when i turn back and think, its not that bad afterall. Cause like the demo training we gotta do.. knowing his pattern, me and kenneth got used to his "photocopy" method that we put in effort to remember the procedures he taught and step by step explanation. Having to memorise the steps, we managed to go thru a rather smooth demo without pausing.. We actually know what we need to explain and what we gotta do. And just one time hard work, we got the hang of it now.

In many companies i worked in, all subordinates never liked their bosses... After InSource, i learnt to understand why my boss would ask me to do certain things. And listen to them, cause like how i used to train my guys, i know everyone have their own ways, but letting them adapt to a certain format will allow them to learn faster and later have a better way to do it for themselves. This is the reason why i never talk back or "challenge" back like what i used to do. Cause after InSource, i know i should not complain and just learn. My leaders would know whats best for me.

Althou i didnt have a good time trying to canvas for prospects, having little time and have to be able to keep up my numbers, i got to learn a lot of things. In Oct when i joinned the company, i got to start prospecting only in the 4th week of Oct. In Nov, i closed my first deal and later in Dec, i had little time as there is the HP closing period. Unlucky - thats the word for Nov & Dec. But i know with my hardwork and no lazing arnd since i took my first step, i know my hardwork will pay off. When? Im not sure, but as long as i dun give up, i would see the light.

Being used to the "numbers orientated" trained in banking industry, i have not let lose any minute at work in Adventus. I meet customers from morning till afternoon. And spend my after work hours searching for leads and paper work, doing all my accounts update and plan how i want to follow up with my customers. The toughest thing - learning how to propose machine to meet the budget and my target. I have to re propose and think of ways to make sure it meets the cust requirements and my costs. And to re propose and make sure that it doesnt hit back on ur previous proposal - meaning u cant re propose the same thing but different pricing so as to prevent bargaining from customer is another tricky thing. Then, i learnt to plan my costing properly so that i need not re propose and crack my brains unless its a change of machines...

Haha.. so much of my ren sheng da dao li right? I never regret changing industry and start again. Although i know it wont be easy to get the hang of hitting numbers for the start as this isnt my forte, but i know if i try hard, it wont be far away. Althou as a newbie, i shud be honeymoon-ing now, but i dun wanna disappoint the company and also fail myself. So this is the first thing i need to get it right in 2008.

As for my personal life, the only thing i did wrong was to get rid of Ernest. It may be the most embarassing thing that no one would want to reveal to people. But i need to face the truth and my mistake. If i say that its not something that i can control, many people would say that this is an excuse. But now that i am in this situation, if someone else were to tell me this "excuse" one day, i would surely understand. I'm sorry Ernest, it isnt the best way, but time will never wait for anyone. If time could wait, there will be you. I know my mistake, but the reason was never you.

I hope to have a fruitful 2008 and for the first time, i know what i want to achieve by 2009 and not wait for things to happen. I will make things happen... Though im not having a easy path to start off with, but i believe if i dont give up, i will be able to see the light ahead. To have the courage to hold on to what u want and what u believe, to not ask for more than what was given to u beyond your means. Of coz, in sales, we need to be greedy, but thats within ur control - to work hard and earn more money. For the first time in sales, i got so many rejections in my submission... but i picked myself up.. i thought being positive is the thing, but i was rejected for 2nd.. 3rd time... den my positive-ness was hit badly.. then i learnt to be brave and never give up.. Thats why im still here... The bigger the challenge, the more i wont say "die". Cause i know, if i try again, i would get it right.

I want to get out of the financial situation which was path down 4 years ago. I want to put to a stop for good.

I want to earn back what i lost over the past 4 years, at least i gotta start them.

I want to learn as much as i can in sales, learn different techniques, try different ways.. till i get it right. Be a consistant player and never a yo yo ball.

I want to re build my life, nuture my passion and open a path to who i want to be but not force to stop chasing my goals by others.

I know it may not be easy, but if i never try, i will never know. People will stare, laugh, comment on ur failure. Dont look around, stand up and continue walk. Never think otherwise, cause falling is part of learning.

If u want it, go get it. There is no right or wrong, there isnt a should or should not. If u want, u need to be daring enough.. If u got no guts, den dont start.

------ Year 2008 == Fruitful & Lucky Year == Made for Dino ------

Whatever you once had, never forget
Whatever you gained, never give up
Whatever you achieve thru hard work, you gotta treasure
Whatever you lost, keep them in your memories
Whatever hardships you went thru, is over
Wish you all the best in what you do...

Cant Seem To Keep Happy Moments

I had a major revamp on my blog... I was thinking of looking on the brighter side of life... and wanting to clear up all the mess and start a brand new year, all nice and neatly.. I also clear up my working desk, start to find new leads since i was given my territory, thou its the same, but i thought since its a brand new year, even if i need to redo or double entry, i thought i should just give myself excuses...

Wanted to go office today, but early morning, i saw my face in such a bad state... my god... i started exfoliating, cleansing and do everything to my face... and guess what? the SK2 products which i havent been using for a long time esp the mask... its now on my face! haha...

I tell u... since i started working in Adventus, my skin damn jia lat... dry (i used to have oily skin), and looks dull... plus the long hours outside, its making my face dirty! I think i need to start all my collagen pills, facial mask, weekly deep cleansing... AND my bird nest liao...

So much of my non stop complains... well..

I recently got to know a friend and we seem to get along (as friends) very well.. Please dun think otherwise... I really mean that his a nice person to be with. But recently, he suddenly din wan to contact me no more... and i reckon the deliberate actions (like purposely do somethings one doesnt want to do)

And well, we will need to see each other one way or another... but i also dunno how to face him le... And it seems rather serious...

Sigh... I really hope that things would get better...

Like many of my friends know... i cannot have too close friends.. if not they will leave me very fast.. i should be used to this life cycle, but i am still very sad about it... Maybe like what the fortune teller say ba... I cannot have friends coming close to me or like best friends... if not i will lose them easily be it internal or external factors...

On my first gear....

Feel that im moving faster at work le... mentally or the "sales feel".. haha... how shud i explain... the feeling that u know u will at least close something lor... i was doing a personal review on my prospects and funnel for this mth... i reckon that most of them are very potential and im convinced by my own proposal.. now is like 'waiting time' for them to nod or shake their heads lor...

did a revamp on my blog... cause a bit sian to see the previous one... add my wish list... since i reckon that if i work harder here, i would be earning slightly more, i start to move towards the things i always wanted to get.. haha...

anyway, its getting late... tmr still got training in the morning, and appts in the afternoon... am thinking of going to see a doc tomorrow... not feeling well...

So fast... new year coming le... hope my luck will change for the better... Like Nat say... i must first think that im lucky... Im trying to.. but i dunno how to feel that way... hmmmmm

Finally....

A long long break.. thou i never take any leave... but still.. no customers wanna c me ma... so do some book keeping in the office.. also to think of the prospects i going to close for the next month. Hopefully everything goes smoothly and i get to close the big cases next month... i count already.... once i manage to close 2 of the deals, i should be safe....

hmmm... and once i get the comm.. haha... i plan to go on a holiday... short trip ba... hehe... hong kong maybe... cause i promise alvin that we will go to the disney together...

well well... i know i jus need to tahan a bit more.. den i should be alright le... pray hard...

Sigh Sigh Sigh.. Suay Like Bloody Hell

I tell u... i am cursed to sell this model of this machine 4730!



2 times i sell this machine ar.. 2 times the 2 different companies the finance fail... either one have bounce chq or company used to owe a lot of money and thereafter kana bought.. and the new company open the company using $2 damn bucks!! fucking hell...



and now i am at the risk of not hitting my target at all!! bloody hell..



and now i am damn stress lor... how now brown cow?



yest celebrate fang bd... haha... food was good.. love the gathering... but felt a bit guilty for a last min gift.. honestly... i actually ordered a dozen of cup cakes... but.... they cannot rush the order... :( show u the cakes next time... haha... my initial intention was to do that... and deliver with the flowers... but end up the lady tell me she cannot get it done in time... :(

Sorry Fang...

So i went to her blog to check it out, and decided to get her a organiser at first... went to 3 shopping centres... but nothing caught my eye... i mean... i was quite choosy la... (according to my colleague who was with me... haha)... of coz la! for my buddy lei! End of the day, i went to taka to get a pen for her.. AGAIN.. i was quite picky.. i know mont blanc are famous brands for pens.. but i recall taka dept having a pen dept... thou the names are not so familiar, but i know its good brands... and i was like... "do u have ladies' pen?" and the folks was looking at each other... and i added "pink color pls?" haha... yeah, got pink pens, but so plain... den i was like.... ARGHHH...

Knowing that im very particular about fang's present.. i called her earlier to tell her that i might not get her pressie in time... i was thinking... if i cant get something i think suits her, i also cannot anyhow buy.. i rather buy more time from her to get something for her..

Esp now that i left OC, i always hope that we can spend some time together.. chat up or even for a smoke at the carpark... i miss the times buying ribena for her and the lunch times.. also those days when shes so pissed at work and i would go over to hub to calm her down... Shes a good bud of mine, i dun wanna drift apart due to change of job...

Anyway Fang!! Hope u had great fun... I Miss U Gal!

Read this...

Dear All,

I would like to remind you again that December is a very very short month. We are closing our accounts on 19th December 2007. ie. 19th will be the last day for any billing to happen. HP factory will shut down from 17th onwards till the end of the year.

Therefore, effectively, you have from tomorrow… the 6th till 14th to get your sales in. That’s just 7 working days more. If we have stock in hand, you have 10 working days more.

I have reiterated the importance of keeping your funnel consistently healthy & strong to see you through a month like this one. Dec, Jan & Feb will not be easy months.

I don’t wish to see anyone of you fail this month.

Please get things moving - fast.

Warmest Regards,


The above email that u jus read is actually from my boss boss... (big boss la)... cannot believe it... i am getting stresser and stresser... and guess what? am now facing the 4 walls in my office now trying to think of a way to solve this major problem - my number... haha.. i hope to close something somehow by this week... and i am trying to cheong as fast as i can...

My direct boss will be back next monday and i will be getting a lot a lot of nagging frm him... sigh... i wonder how.. i wonder why... sigh... i think ah... i need to reflect on myself liao....

God.. Ti Gong.. whoever up there that i blessing me ar.. make sure i close something and not fail anyone who has expectations in me....

POR PI HOCK KI

10 more days...

Im left with 10 days to hit my target.. haha... guess what? every of my prospect is still mid way.. i have no prob adding in "sense of urgency" to my customers.... but somehow they are getting from slow to slower!! Haha... and on top of that, i must be able to handle the rejections well... sigh... All the companies im gg for now are rather small la, so they dun really look into service, quality and cost effectiveness... what they wan is.. CHEAP! (oh nonsense!!)

Anyway, fang's birthday is coming... quite shang nao jing... cause she seems to have everything le lei.. haha... went to her blog to take a look, she got note some stuff down... but i was thinking to get her something she will remember de la... i mean... not really for keepsake cause she got limited space to display and for accessories.. she has plenty... so i tot of getting something which will make her remember de la... i alr order liao.. but now is to see if it can be done in time... Im like... so damn bloody busy and stressed up with work... sigh...

Called wei wei and zhen to check what they buying... haha.. and i realise they are having the small prob as me!! hahahahaha... see fang!! u are very precious to us hor... cannot anyhow buy de... must think and make sure u will like de... kekekeke...

ok la... gtg back to work le... yawns...

DRIVING TEST NEXT FRI!! (Sure fail de.... o.O'")

Stress but Feel Slow

Sigh.. i gotta hit $38k of sales in 11 days.. sigh.. how can that be possible lei? Hmm... all my customers all holiday mood... my numbers also holiday mood... Sigh......