Laid Back Monday

Dunno why, these few days or weeks i feel so lazy at work... maybe because right now, nothing is moving... i jus feel so redundant lei.. how how?? if i cont to be like tat.. job boredom will come in soon...

siao liao...

Trying out the new Liese hair dye

Bought 1 mth ago from a spree! Watsons selling at $19.90 but i bought it for $12.90... went to collect the loots today and now back "shampoo-ing" my hair!

Its a good hair dye to use.. i highly recommend.. initially i started off "shampoo-ing" then i realise that theres a lot left.. so i share with MIL.. she has short hair ma... then still left a lot wor.. then i went to my FIL to share... THEN! i still left wor!!! and i applied the rest on my hair lor...

it feels exactly like shampoo... lather on ur hair.. i know it will definately get to every part of my hair....!! i got the ash brown cause on the spree pic, the colours look vibrant.. but when i went watsons jus now... it wasnt as bright as i thought la.. hahaha

if they are gg to have another spree again.. i will definitely get them again..!!

Now waiting for my hair to absorb the dye and off i go to wash my hair...

oh ya.. if u ever buy it.. remember.. the sachet inside is lotion.. not conditioner.. apply the lotion after ur wash... ;)

2 more weeks!

And soon.. we will have another LOOONNGG weekend!

Anyway, i was just thinking of getting a portable air con.. there.. those bulky ones.. my room is by the corridor, so we cannot install air con wor.. and sometimes the weather is unbearable.. the other time, i went to Calin house and saw her portable air con.. so i was thinking of getting it.. heard giant got sell some brands de portable air con.... hmm.. maybe i shall go and take a look over the long weekend...

Wa kaozz tmr sunday liao lor.. sianzz.. still havent clean floor and do facial and iron... tmr need to sleep early liao... so tonight better stay awake as long as possible!!

Speaking of which, i havent transfer the data from my old to new CPU.. so many things to do hor.... yawns...

Good night pepz

2 days leave.. so fast over..

haizz.. 2 days leave so fast finish... really very fast lei.. i still tot today is tuesdays only.. yawns.. tues went for lunch gathering with Jenn and Nicole and little dinoegg... we had a good 3 hour session at red star due to the heavy rain!! haha.. but we were chit chatting and laughing away while mr loh is busy entertaining zheng (little dinoegg)... after that we set off the cuppage to get my new BB!! quite like it but still miss my e71.. :( but again, thanks to starhub for giving me a new phone despite me being so broke!! hahaha.. after that, we went home to rest... cause of my AF.. haha.. too tired to do anything also..

This morning afternoon.. woke up and see the clock.. OMG.. 11 liao lor.. faster do laundry and shower my tortoise.. then shortly the kiddos are back.. managed them a while then set off to 328 to buy 2 fighting fish and to settle some stuff!! hahaha.. been wanting to buy them since last mth lor.. cheap and good.. then came home and rest for a while for the 7th mth prayers.. after that, off we went to IMM... went to have fish & co then to daiso... wa kao.. didnt expect to spend so much there.. dear bought 5 boxes for his shop stuff.. then i bought a few things only.. add up to 20 items lor...

Before that i was buying the screen protector for my BB.. while i was waiting for that char bor to stick on my screen i was looking arnd for a BB pouch.. and i was asking about some stuff.. and TMD.. they were super rude lor...

Me: how much is the BB skin?
She: which one? (turns her head)
then.. another customer comes along.. she turn back her head and entertain that cust and FORGOT ABOUT ME!!!!
NB.. i very tulan lor... then i left.. never will i go to that shop again...

Anyway, i went to giant to get some stuff for home.. i was about to buy the vanish power O2 then alvin was joking and asking me to pour from one bottle to fill up my bottle... as we were laughing about it... then we realise that ALL the bottles were not FULL!!! look closely to the picture


dun tell me its meant to be this way lor.. they are not equal lor... and every bottle is like tat.. could it be done by the inside people?? hahaha... i am gg to write in to giant.. lets see what they say... anyway.. i didnt buy in the end la.. who wanna buy a 3/4 filled product??

and guess what? thats the end of my 2 days liao...

and tmr its back to work... yawns... i dun wanna to go back... help~~~

All planned...

Our wedding anniversary is coming soon.. but this year, we can only celebrate on the 17th Oct which is our ROM date cause our Mr Loh is going for his reservist during our wedding anniversary.. This year is 3rd year of our marriage - the Leather year... :)

Of coz, with the creative director hat on me, i will be planning a 2 day event filled with surprises.. cause 16th Oct is his birthday too!! Hahaha.. i bet if his reading this post, he would be thinking what kinda nonsense im gg to come up with...

Im making arrangements for it.. i hope it will be a memorable one... ok la.. mr loh.. leak a bit of news for u...

1. it will be held at the place when we first dropped hints to each other before we dated
2. the theme will be "leather" since this is a "leather" wedding anniversary
3. first surprise would prob start on your birthday week... heheheheh...
   

I remember why dear is having his reservist during our anniversary.. cause i remember that time we were saying that Julius will still be young for us to celebrate outside and stuff.. and i told him to go ahead for the oct intake.. i tell myself.. even if Ju is not with us.. he will be in our hearts celebrating mommy and daddy's birthday & wedding anniversary...

I hope Julius is happy up there.. Quick Ju, help daddy and mommy find your mei mei or di di ok? Mommy miss u.. muacks...

When my expectations gets higher

I have been complaining these few days about work... i start to question why this is like tat, why he is like tat, why she is like tat.. why not handle things in a different way... and i ask myself.. am i still in love with hunting?

Yeah, im getting more in love with the job.. and its because im expecting more of myself, a higher quality of myself that i get frustrated when others dun work towards the level of my expectations in work...

I tell myself yesterday that i shouldnt expect the rest to work the same level as me and this is what I expect of myself and i shudnt put such expectations on them... it will be selfish and unfair...

change my perceptions to suit the situtations.. i need to know what i can do to myself without affecting the others... and im still learning...

my boss bought us books and now im reading one of the inspiration and motivational book.. and i feel like im back to sec schools studying literature where the entire shakespere book is scribbled with notes and explanations and analysis of a certain pharse or a word...

yeah, im feeling much better..

maybe because of the financial strain that i got this mth that is making me crazy la.. when everything is coming my way yet my pay is not out punctually.. suppose to be end of the mth as per appt letter... but common practise is 28th.. so i plan my funds till 28th... and now they say 31st den give chq.. plus banking in.. i can only get it on the 2nd... im fed up la... and im damn pissed about it...

haizz.. why things cannot be like what i want to be lei....??

TGIF!

Thank god its friday tomorrow!!

work is so far alright.. jus that CBD area, the makan is damn expensive lor.. nw im thinking how shud i plan to make sure that i can save up on my meals.. everyday must at least spend $10 on food lei.. one small plate of something is like.. $6 already lor.. kaozz

and dunno y.. nowadays very bu shun li... all the positions are gg fine then SUDDENLY it will have hiccup or sudden changes.. very sianzz.. i hope this SUDDEN luck can change for the better soon...

im very tired.. everyday im struggling to pull thru the entire day.. everytime knock off.. i jus feel very shag and wanna reach home quick.. heng, got my friend work nearby me who jus sold off his car sharing cab with me.. otherwise, i dunno how to make my way home man... with the packed MRT.. i can die squeezing inside.. and hor.. here got no direct bus lei...

anyone know how to get to bt batok from international plaza by bus in the fastest way?

Hmm.. finding things to do on a lazy sunday...

So fast.. tmr gotta go back to work... i got tons of things i havent complete at work..

1. Re search for the MIS manager
2. Find 3 potentials for Talent Acquisition Mgr
3. Contact my client for the HR Specialist
4. Contact 2 of my clients to get the endorsed agreements back
5. Find 2 chemical sales person

faint.. now that im listing down.. im getting sian liao.. haha.. my heart beat increased... hahaha

anyway, i was thinking of changing my hotmail to gmail.. but i realise tat gmail cannot link all the gmail accounts! argh... hotmail is giving me a lot of loading prob.. if they happy, they work really well.. but if on poor connection days.. u will vomit blood... so i was thinking of switching to gmail cause heard gmail very stable.. but hor.. i got a total of 4 hotmail accounts.. one for personal, one for shopping etc etc... headache..

anyway, im applying leave on 1st sept... plan to have dim sum with 3 of my forum friends.. but hor.. one of them cannot make it wor... make me quite guilty.. cause initially its 31st.. but i got an impt presentation to make... so 31st cannot.. :(

oh.. my next excursion is... Marina Barrage and Esplanade! Esplanade?? Cause me and ah lao very long never go there liao le.. i think got years liao ba... haha.. it would be lomantic if we can take a stroll there in the evening wor.. but but but... before that, we must go buy my neccesities! im running out of conditioner.. my foundation.. need to go body shop to buy gloves.. not forgetting my contact lenses... hai.. waste money again... but this month i cannot shop too much.. cause i need to pay up some stuff..

oh btw, im getting my black berry soon! :) thinking of getting the bold and then do a customise of the casing.. cause my boss also have bold.. i was telling him i dun wanna have a couple phone with him.. and if i accidentally take his phone and see his nude pic how??? (hahaha, just kidding la)... my boss say he wan to get everyone a black berry in the office for work purpose... but hor.. since i have my starhub voucher.. i might as well get one myself... keke... now dun have nice phones.. and i need one for work.. cause right now, im using a old fashion nokia phone.. i really mean its OLD... i think 3 years old ba... not very pro to meet the directors candidate with it right.. haha...

Rainy Friday

IT'S FRIDAY!!!

Cant wait to jump onto my bed and sleep till no day no night...

U know.. since i started working... i enjoyed the most coming back home and take a nice shower.. I start to enjoy showers more and more... I love my pajamas more and more.. and i really love lying on my bed...

work is getting more and more hectic.. its very tiring actually but good tat im busy la.. but recently keep getting nasty and unreasonable customers... i hope i could do more..

Alrighty... i will update blog again tomorrow when im more free...

Btw, im looking for the following positions.. please send me ur CV if u or ur friends are interested!

1. HR Specialist (Generalist role)
2. HR Director (Regional)
3. Talent Acquisition Manager (Talent Finding)
4. R&D Chemist (In Surface Chemical)

These are the new positions opened... :)

Busy Weekend!!

This morning went to mother house to see her and have quick "brunch".. miss her food man... keke.. miss her too.. then me and alvin went to Buddhist lodge to "register" for the prayers for Ernest and Julius for the 7th month... then off we go to the NATIONAL MUSEUM!!

We paid $10 each and we started our tour through the NATIONAL HERITAGE.. wa.. now museum also very high tech.. we got a gadget sling onto us with headset.. then we need to look out for numbers on the floor... say... if at this point, the number is "65", we jus key in the number into our gadget and they will explain to us the story of the exhibits.

We thought it would be a quick one, cause its just $10, we didnt expect it to be a "WOW" thing la.. but.. who know... after 2.5 hours of walking and listening.. we were only 3/4 done... and guess what? the gadget no batt.. (faint)... when we were given the gadget, its already blinking "no batt" sign liao.. but i tot its gonna be a quick affair.. so i never bother much lor... then no choice, we gotta end there cause we were quite tired after walking and listening.. and we had other plans in mind also...

It was a good trip... worth the money and we learnt a lot of things.. its a very eventful day.. cause at least alvin and me got exposed to a lot of things and gained more knowledge..

Then we took a bus from YMCA to (initial plan) ION... then... happily walking from somerset mrt.. we realise that we were gg towards orchard central!! hahaha.. we damn sua ku man.. dun even know wherez ion... (shy)... but then we still cont walking arnd OC la.. nothing much to see.. but i bought a normal watch ($19,90) for working use cause my current one a lot of scratches liao.. then we went to try out the fruit tarts from FRUIT PARADISE!! initially i tot the tarts are fake lei.. then i realise they are so beautiful and they are real!! tempted to try.. we decided to eat lor.. haha.. quite ex hor.. $7.90 for 1 pc.. but its damn GOOD... cheese cake base, not sweet and u wont feel sick even taking 3 pcs lor... i know i will order again.. so i quickly asked for the bill.. and i was telling alvin.. if dun bill, i will order 2nd pc.. and guess what?? he agree too!! hahaha...

then we decided to go for dinner since theres nothing in OC to see.. wanted to eat dim sum.. have been craving for "Ha Kau" but dun haf wor.. so jus settled for jap food lor.. then alvin wanted to get shoes but couldnt find.. so we decided to go Peninsula.. cause he want to get a keyboard to play his online "bang bang" game.. but we managed to get his shoes from bata and he bought me a pair of black heels for work too!... then went home.. do laundry, wash shoes, do DIY facial.. and now i am.. surfing arnd and there he is.. playing his "bang bang" game...

Come to think of it...

After so long, its only today that i sat down and think of myself... I should be happy that i have a good job despite the busy hours and other hiccups here and there.. as a head hunter, i learnt a lot of things that not many can learn. I got to understand each individual roles of a specific occupation, the different structures of each company and know many people from different levels. Although i have an impatient boss and sometimes he seems to be more lost than i am.. im still glad that its him that taught me and brought me here. Although the pay doesnt seem that enough for me yet, but i know a few more months, i will lead the life that i used to led.

After stepping into the working society once again, my thoughts and my views changed a lot too. In the past, i used to do things that i feel like, whenever i wanna do something, i jus do, but whenever i feel like stopping, i just stop. Whether it was a fruitful one or not, i didnt take it to heart anyway. But since all the saga, i learn to treasure every minute of my life. I know i will not be 25 forever, and soon, i will be in my 30s. When we are in 30s, we naturally have what a 30 need to do. So now that im still in my 20s, i should not waste my time. I should spend this time to build my own life.

Married to Alvin for 3 years and together for 6 years.. to be honest, its more hardships than anyone else... At times, i wonder why i need to settle down so early, how come i didnt wanna wait a while more... but i can only say, all these are fated. At least, after all the ups and downs, im glad that i trusted my instincts right from the start.

I remember i sat at the coffee shop with Elaine one night, and we discussed about my marriage. She said.. "Serene, now i know why you couldnt leave Alvin despite so many things happened." I remember that was when Elaine met Alvin for the first few times.. and since then, i tried to hold on to it. And after that night at the hospital, looking at Alvin sleeping on the floor without a blanket or a pillow. I realise that, our marriage still has love. Its a bit too long to realise that actually. But i thank god that it came.

It was the love that was showered upon me that i found my way out of the darkness. The remaining fear in me, its only up to me to unlock over time.

Ever since all these, i start to treasure my marriage.. I guess it goes the same to Alvin. After 3 years of plain marriage, we start to spend more time with each other. Do things together, explore more things together (even if it was just a shopping trip to Tampines One), we both feel very different. I felt that our marriage is no longer the same as before, and i believe Alvin felt the same way too.

Since 1st July 2009, i start to work everyday, handling different cases everyday, meeting different people, working day and night. Over the weekends, i will think of different places to go with Alvin. We go explore new shopping places, going to places that we havent been going for a long time, even planning for museums and short trips together... Everyday is a eventful and fruitful day.

I asked myself today, "Serene, what else do u wan? you have a good job, a happier marriage, a fruitful day everyday. What else?" Yeah, financial wise, maybe not yet that stable cause since i stopped working for 8 months, i only drew my first pay last month. But i know things will get better in a few months time and its just a matter of waiting for that long.

Im actually more fortunate than before. Julius is always in my heart, every day, every night. When others who were preg the same time as me has already given birth. And me? Im still alone with my husband. I dun have another one at home, i may not be carrying a baby like what you mommies are doing right now. To be honest, im very prepared to have no children when i grow old, but i also hope that i wont wait too long for another baby. But i know, this kinda things is 可欲不可求. But if i were to have one soon, i think, our marriage would be even better for i know Alvin will be a good daddy and i will be a good mommy.

Right now, i like the way it is and hope it gets even better. I tell myself, 4 more months from now, i will want to be financially stable, i wanna continue to lead a fruitful life, i want to excel in my job and be a true professional consultant for my clients and headhunter will be my life long career for the next 15 years.

As for Alvin, i hope he will do well in his next 2 years in ST, then move up to a management post since he has been with the company for 5 years already. I want him to excel in what his doing, and perhaps be able to work in this industry till he retires.

These few nights, i kept thinking of my mom. I start to worry about losing her. What is my life going to be without a mother? I was brought up without a father, not to mention, i dun even have siblings. If one day, mom were to go, i hope its not so soon. If shes gonna leave me now, im an orhpan when im ony 25. I have no shelter to hide when i met up with stormy days, no one to seek help when im really helpless. Theres no love more impt than the love that parents can give. Just like the way i believe, no one can take care of my own kids the way i can give to them.

But whatever it is, im happy now, and i hope it can be better.

Whoever, or whatever i lost through time... i guess whats most impt is... the things and people that are still with me at the end. Those that are lost, are kept safely in my heart.

Count on me Singapore!

I feel that this year NDP a bit fast.. haha.. i was telling dear that as we grow older, we start to enjoy watching NDP more.. keke.. anyway, managed to watch NDP in time.. and also the SINGAPORE IDOL! no no.. i didnt watch for the sake of seeing the talents only... i watched cause i wanna see how some funny singaporeans make a fool of themselves.. and of course our all time Mr "careless whisper" and Mr "nong nong ago" LOL

Hmm.. last week was a terrible week.. my cases all got hiccups.. i pray hard that next week will be a better week please...

Alright, last night of the week that i can watch tvb shows and stay up late!! tmr have to start sleeping early and go to work.. *yawns* not forgetting tmr have to make phone calls...

IM LOOKING FOR HR DIRECTORS! if u are a manager level, i dun mind too!! send me ur CV ya!

I say, "Lets forget abuot it"

I had a dream today... dreamt of that enemy i had... i also dunno how to explain that dream but it was an enlightening one. i had been thinking about those incidents for months.. and i know if i dun put it down, i would prob carry it into my coffin.. haha... so i smsed him today. i think i have done my part la.. i have let go liao.. i thought that this is the only time i cannot forgive and forget.. but i guess i was wrong.. i can forgive and forget but jus a little longer to do that.. im thankful that i learn to do it, even thou the friendship is ruin, but i think i have done my part to say what i wanna say and if he has no reaction, then, its ok la.. i have nothing to regret about also.

last night, i was watching show... then i start to think if Julius was here... he would be quite big liao.. then i start to ask myself... how come others are given a chance to have a baby and i dun lei? i also suppose to have a baby that it "that" big liao.. if everything didnt go wrong, he would be in my arms liao. then i realise that, actually my baby hasnt left my mind.. everyday i will think of him. its jus that i always brush the thoughts off. when all the mommies miss their babies, they can always go home and see them after work. when i miss my baby, and i reach home, its still the 4 walls and the bed.

Then i start to ask myself, am i scared of death? then i come to a conclusion... im not worried that one day i might die. cause when i die, i can go and see my baby... i dun fear death because i know, i can get to carry julius when im gone. but i also wan to live cause i am not successful yet. at least, i still wanna have another baby for my family. so, to live or to die, i dun fear any of them.

im thankful that every week of my life is that eventful and fruitful since the day i step out to work. and i hope my kids up there are all doing well.. whenever they can, please let me carry them in my dreams.

Its been a long week

This week feels a bit long... Right now, im looking for a Regional HR Director/Manager.. and i can only talk to them after work... so everyday i've been rushing home to talk to them... damn bloody shag...

this week, health isnt very good.. i get giddy spells every night when im gg home.. like now.. im feeling very giddy and feel like puking... my body is super tensed up... my shoulders are damn stiff.. sigh... thank god its gonna be a long weekend soon! i really need a good good rest...

please dun let me wake up that early over the weekends pls...

Not forgetting...

The nice meals that i had with my friends at mushroom pot.. hmm.. i give the food.. a 8/10! i wasnt very hungry when we met up.. cause my boss treated us to kia hiang restaurant at International Plaza during lunch.. (off topic) the food was ok... i was damn full lor...

When we stepped into the restaurant, i can smell the fragrance of the mushroom soup and i start to get hungry liao.. btw, im not a mushroom lover ah... i got so eager to order liao.. hahaha.. the side dishes was ok.. but the prawn spring roll was thumbs UP.. kaoz... damn good lor... hahaha... too bad i was too full for the "peach" looking ice cream..

jus as we were about to say bye bye... we decided to go for a round of HD!! faint... but ok la.. i had a scoop only.. so not that bad... Friday was a savory day!!

Hmm, now im thinking of the next gathering with my khakis Ms Elaine and Mr Francis liao.. keke.. this time round.. i think got a lot of pple joining wor... was thinking of steamboat at bugis... cause next mth most of them are due for their car insurance liao.. haha.. all gg to be leong for august... lol... so must budget a bit...

Overcue-ed

Haiya... damn sad lor... this month i settled the bills and stuff... i realise that i overcued for my expenses... and i didnt manage to get the things done this mth.. cause most of my money went to the bills.. hahaha.. too eager to pay bill liao..

im having bad hair and i urgently need to get it right... but i guess we gotta put project H on hold liao.. hahaha... stupid me u know... kek sim...

now i have to loon all the way cause the expenses to work in a CBD area is very the siong... food is ex, drinks are ex.. everything is ex... *sian 1/2*

ytd went sim lim with alvin... didnt manage to buy anything much.. but i think we walked up and down from 1st to 5th floor for like... 4 times? hahaha.. by right we shud go liang court after that.. but hor.. both of us too shag and it was getting late also...

but good thing is that... i woke up at 1pm today finally!!! im so used to waking up at 6am that for the past 2 weekends, i have been waking up at that time and cannot get into deep sleep... yawns... i think today, i shall pack the cupboard, sweep floor, mop floor then do my diy facial.. then REST... cause i need to tahan and loon those leftovers in my acct till 15th.... keke... then alvin will come to my rescue...

and 10th Aug is a PH!! and i get to save 1 day of expenses!! YAY!!!

i completed by weekend HK drama catch ups and the TW 超级星光大道 ytd... so im quite relax today!! not forgetting the ironing i did ytd... today i can be more sin nang.... keke...

kaoz.. tmr is monday AGAIN

Next Month Then...

Went to taka to check out the loots that i wanna get.. i thought i can get the portfolio that i wanted to get last mth. i budget about.. $150 for it.. but when i went to see the price...... it was $300+ and the montblanc one is like... $640... *faint*

this mth budget quite tight cause i need to settle all the overdue bills.. cause last few mths no income.. so i pay half on every bill every mth... so its snowballing.. so this mth must clear the balances so that i wont have any outstanding... u know la... first mth pay always very little one... so must wait until next mth then i can consider getting it lor...

then i went to montblanc to see the boheme bleu pen!! $570... that one is ok la.. cause i expected it.. i jus ask to see how much i need to save up ma... keke... i give myself 2-3 mths to save up and get it... :) i think about it for very long liao lei.. i think instead of jus dreaming to have one, i shud try my best to make them happen.. i dun wanna live my life jus hoping and imagining liao..

oh ya.. i went to T&C to check out that altas ring that i posted in my wish list... then when i saw it.. i was telling Alvin.. "eh, how come so narrow de?" cause the one i saw was pretty wide de... then the lady told me that... the wide one is discontinued!!!! my heart shatter liao... then i jus ask for the diamond one for fun... then she say its $5550.. faint... the narrow one is abt $1500.. so i concluded that.. T&C have to wait a while.. and maybe by the time i can afford to buy... its prob discontinued again.. hahaha...

so.. this mth.. i decided not to buy anything fancy for myself and jus settle all the bills with no more outstanding... then next mth will be more relax for us liao... i jus enjoy last time when we can clear everything every mth... so now that im working liao, im hoping that i can get the financial part on track asap.. :)

UNBELIEVABLE

I am so damn bloody pissed la... bloody pissed...

say... if u got a discussion which is like... confirmed a day ago.. then everyone was preparing to start the meeting this morning.. and we got a special issue... this person say got things to do wor... and she jus go on doing her thing without thinking about the rest lei? boss say.. 10 mins time gather.. she say she got things to rush... WTH?? which part of u is so special lei? i set aside my entire friday to start the project right after the discussion/briefing on the project lor... then boss will be out from 11am and bz till late lei.. then i whole day how?

i mean.. where got pple have meeting then say s/he is bz then whole team delay for her? i think its selfish.. if its a team thing, it shud be attended to respect the rest also ma.. its not a 1 to 1 meeting lei.. its a team thing lei... so everyone push back cause of u ah? and its a personal job that she needs to do for her appt today... and i feel that these shud be completed ytd night and if its last min, i will do it at home last night lor.. and not wait till today when u know u got meeting and then u start rushing to get it done.. i think.. its not very right..

now im stuck liao lor... cause the team needs to be briefed on this before we start working on it lor.. seriously.. im quite pissed this time round.. this is not the first time but its the most inconsiderate incident lor...

LOON.. TAHAN....

Once Again, Hello Monday..

But! Its a week worth waiting for! After suffering from no pay for like... 8 mths... im gg to get my first pay chq this week..! keke... i got so many things to pay u know.. :( Oh ya, dear got his CPU liao... his colleague sold his 6 mth old CPU to him wor.. yesterday, he carried back.. hmm.. but i still need to download some software and stuff like that before he can play...

Once again, its outing with ah lao this coming Saturday.. hmm.. dunno where to go wor... pang layang (fly kite)? go central one? go vivo? hmm.. cant wait for friday anyway! hahaha..

Oh ya, today my candidate is gg to my client place for interview!! (Pray that he make it thru..)

Yawns... its damn tiring hor? sometimes i wish i havent found a job.. but when i think of the income.. im thankful that i found a job.. haha.. contradicting right?? its like tat one la... when reach friday, i will start thanking the job again.. hahaha...

Oh ya...!! NDP is coming and its a LOOONNGGG weekend. YESH...

Invisible Stress

Work... so far so good... hmm.. i hope to be able to work by myself soon.. as in.. be independent and know my work asap... its been fun so far, i learn a lot of things along the way.. but its very tiring actually.. i knock off and work from home, then sleep late and wake up early.. so every weekend is my happiest days.. i get to sleep late and wake up late... actually its not really the work load... its because our system (data base) is limited to one user at a time.. so if someone is using the system, we will have to put a halt to whatever we are doing... given the fact that we have a few assignments on hand, its not adviced to get more assignements cause boss wants us to focus on the current project first... :(

with no way to get into the database, we cannot even look for the candidates, so dun even mention about the calling them part... this is the wasting time part... so everyone wait for each other like tat... so it lengthens the entire process...

Everyday i go to work feeling tired, everyday i get home almost dead liao... i have to pull thru 5 days to get that 2 days of long sleep.. then the cycle goes on and on...

So much of my job...

Now.. my personal progress... the korean course is fully booked and i have to wait for the next intake :( which is happening in Sept la.. so still alright... life still goes on for me... sometimes, i will still miss Julius la.. esp when i see everyone's children growing up day by day.. i remember one day, i knock off from work... then i was staring at the streets.. and i start thinking of last time.. i remember i was so eager to be a working mom and knocking off from work jus to see my baby.. i was already enjoying the feeling liao.. over the weekends, i will start thinking of how i used to be so excited how a working mom like me would try to accompany my son over the weekends and gg out for daddy for family outings...

yeah... some of these thoughts came into my mind and sometimes, it hurts la.. sometimes, i jus tell myself to stop thinking about it and move on...

Recently, i start thinking about my mom.. she keep complaining that her leg is pain... and naturally i start thinking about whats gonna happen if she cannot walk one day.. she is old liao.. and its natural thing that some things in her body start to break down... so.. what am i suppose to do? she stays alone.. and i might have to stay with her.. then how am i suppose to work? haizz.. its kinda worrying la...

Anyway, i cant wait to have a short break... but alvin say his sales not very good.. and since he came west mall.. he keep saying that month after month... i also dunno if i shud ask him to take leave.. cause if we getaway over weekend, means his gonna lugi a lot in his sales.. :(

These few weeks, keep thinking of having a place of my own... but i know i jus have to tahan for a few years la.. but... i really wan a quiet place.. at home.. im restricted la... small things sometimes will also become pretty troublesome.. haizz..

hope everything will straighten out soon..

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