Invisible Stress

Work... so far so good... hmm.. i hope to be able to work by myself soon.. as in.. be independent and know my work asap... its been fun so far, i learn a lot of things along the way.. but its very tiring actually.. i knock off and work from home, then sleep late and wake up early.. so every weekend is my happiest days.. i get to sleep late and wake up late... actually its not really the work load... its because our system (data base) is limited to one user at a time.. so if someone is using the system, we will have to put a halt to whatever we are doing... given the fact that we have a few assignments on hand, its not adviced to get more assignements cause boss wants us to focus on the current project first... :(

with no way to get into the database, we cannot even look for the candidates, so dun even mention about the calling them part... this is the wasting time part... so everyone wait for each other like tat... so it lengthens the entire process...

Everyday i go to work feeling tired, everyday i get home almost dead liao... i have to pull thru 5 days to get that 2 days of long sleep.. then the cycle goes on and on...

So much of my job...

Now.. my personal progress... the korean course is fully booked and i have to wait for the next intake :( which is happening in Sept la.. so still alright... life still goes on for me... sometimes, i will still miss Julius la.. esp when i see everyone's children growing up day by day.. i remember one day, i knock off from work... then i was staring at the streets.. and i start thinking of last time.. i remember i was so eager to be a working mom and knocking off from work jus to see my baby.. i was already enjoying the feeling liao.. over the weekends, i will start thinking of how i used to be so excited how a working mom like me would try to accompany my son over the weekends and gg out for daddy for family outings...

yeah... some of these thoughts came into my mind and sometimes, it hurts la.. sometimes, i jus tell myself to stop thinking about it and move on...

Recently, i start thinking about my mom.. she keep complaining that her leg is pain... and naturally i start thinking about whats gonna happen if she cannot walk one day.. she is old liao.. and its natural thing that some things in her body start to break down... so.. what am i suppose to do? she stays alone.. and i might have to stay with her.. then how am i suppose to work? haizz.. its kinda worrying la...

Anyway, i cant wait to have a short break... but alvin say his sales not very good.. and since he came west mall.. he keep saying that month after month... i also dunno if i shud ask him to take leave.. cause if we getaway over weekend, means his gonna lugi a lot in his sales.. :(

These few weeks, keep thinking of having a place of my own... but i know i jus have to tahan for a few years la.. but... i really wan a quiet place.. at home.. im restricted la... small things sometimes will also become pretty troublesome.. haizz..

hope everything will straighten out soon..

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