Shit Happens

When u thought u shud change ur perception and move along with the situation..
U realise that u are being hit back hard..
At least hard enough to know that u shudnt have even changed..

Mind v.s. Heart..
I used to choose mind, then i tried heart.. but then i was wrong..

What a fool.. im the fool afterall...

Grab it when u want it.. I tried la, but i failed... Unclear signals.. i should have known...
Nothing is impossible - i guess they should have a firmer stand what they say this. Hang on then, why give up?

Hmm...

Dunno why, today feel weird weird de..
a lot of thoughts that i havent had for a long time came back today..
Hmm... Perhaps it should be a no.... i shouldnt be thinking about it at all..

Dino is sick...

Down with flu and cough..
Been drowsy for the longest time..

Anyway, spent my whole weekend with Alvin... Friday we went for a fishing trip at Changi waters... (that was when i got the flu...) and sun burn.. hahaha... We ko-ed immediately when we got home.. damn shag...

Then it was a belated birthday celebration with him.. I was sick, but i try to enjoy myself then... :)

Now back at home suffering lor.. haha.. very very drowsy...

Simple Birthday... The Way I Want It Now...

Didnt celebrate much on my birthday... stayed at home the whole day... my FIL actually went to buy a birthday cake for me... and this is the first time he ever bought cake home... Then Esther came over to pass me a birthday gift... Simple things like that warms my heart at this lowest period...

Come to think of it... i have been even tougher times... I recalled, the last time i was jobless for months.. i had to do many things to make ends meet.. i had to learn how to play soccer in order to clear debts... it was so so tough...

Now jobless but i still can live my life in a simple way... not say it isnt tough, but at least... i wont get pple knocking on my door for payments and cry by the streets and think how to survive tomorrow...

Im grateful that my loved ones are giving me a lot of support financially and morally and they are most willing to wait for me to stand up again....

For the time being, i will be doing part time job... thou not a lot of money, but at least i can do the things that i am skilled with and earn a bit here and there... at least, it eases off Alvin's a little bit of burden....

Honestly, im too drained liao... so drained that i know i cannot start a proper job yet... I just hope by the time im ready for a fixed job, my resume wont look too ugly to start with...

Slowly... Slowly i will try to find my way back home...

Although im not used to it, but i know i will slowly find my directions back...

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I miss Julius a lot... If everything went well, he should be coming too full month already... I wont be blogging nonsense thoughts.. I will be so proud of my son, my life... This year, i missed my Mother's Day...

Happy Birthday To MEEE

Happy Birthday to Me,
Happy Birthday to Me,
Happy Birthday to Me,
Happy Birthday to Me...

*Make a wish*

*Blow Candle*

Hey.. Direction.. Where r u?

Job - Tough to find
Baby - Tough to have...

那人身的目标啊。。。 你在哪里呢？

EDD: 2nd May 2009

By now, i should be hugging on Julius tight...
Enjoying what mother nature gave all mommies...
Sigh...

My little niece had a dream the other day... im happy and sad... Happy that i know his doing fine... Sad cause i cannot imagine having to see my baby in our dreams and not in reality...

Julius baby, mommy miss u so so much... everyday, every night.. u always have a place in my heart... Bring your siblings to me, and i will love them like the way i love you... Give me a chance to show you how much i wanted to love you...

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