I feel that i am getting older day by day...

Sigh, even thou im jus 24, but i feel that there are many things that i shud be doing... See, im married, but i have no babies... I am working in sales, but im not saving enough... and many many examples.. Sometimes i wish im still 18

I need to know what i want, then throw those that i dun wish to keep... and live a clean and neat life... See, now that i know my debts are soon to clear, i need to set a goal.. something i wan to achieve...

So, after i settle my debts, hopefully in sept, i wanna to go for a course (casino management), den i will take up language courses like korean/jap/thai... thereafter, i wanna change my career directions. I wanna have children and i think im ready to have them while i am studying and working.. once i give birth and finish my course, i will go towards the career path that i want to go into and raise my kids and be someone.

i know i might take on a lot of hardships and stuff like tat... but i guess all these are easier than having debts for the past few years. Since i'm finally settling them... i think its time to cast some things into stones and move on. I also wanna retire early when sufficient money to take care of my kids and the rest of my life.

I dun wanna live too long... perhaps till 65 - 70 will do. its not easy to live your life alone. children will one day leave you, have their family... and you will be alone... its not nice living life alone anyway... so 65-70 shud be enough.

So... Why am i born to be a human, leading life that a human leads, doing things that many humans do? Sometimes i jus wonder, why humans need to do all these to survive? cant we all have a choice not to do it and not be hungry and poor?