I hope this fatigue leaves me quickly....
Sometimes, im very energetic, sometimes damn tired... And i am losing my momentum totally at work.. not because of the passion.. because baby seems to be more attention seeking than i thought...
Im having cramps where baby is... and this baby also very mood swing... i was dining with my colleagues the other day at the steamboat... then ordered a lot of food.. once the food arrived, i lost my appetite...!! wa lan.. but durain after that... i totally had no rejections... si mi lai eh? sabo me lei...
I also realise that i have water retention everywhere... my arms can look big today, but tmr it will go back to normal, then my legs look big... den no where can big liao, den my tummy starts to bloat... but recently, the bloating tummy is ok liao... i think because i stop drinking milk... cause my mom told me not to..
Usual Cravings: Fries, Durain, Strawberries, Cakes
Current Cravings: Mango, Mushroom Swiss Burger
Haha... i'm going to meet my customer at west mall later for discussion... and he offered to buy me dinner... feel like gg to BK for the mushroom swiss... but i think i'll look ugly eating burgers in front of customers.. hahahahahhaha... so i think i will buy home to eat later.... sigh, means i will go hungry for a while... :(
I walked in the rain a bit today... now feeling a bit feverish.. hahaha.. notti me... but i dun wanna be those ku niang mommies who needs to be held, sheltered, helped everytime ma.... hahaha... TI KI (metal teeth)....
Ok la... gtg meet customer liao.. this deal comes in... hahahahahha... i will take a break liao.... hahahhaha... baby baby... help mommy ok? muacks
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Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Monday, September 15, 2008
Finally i get to see my baby!!
Went to Dr Lawrence Ang today... cheap rates + funny guy... im comfortable with him compared to the previous gynae i went...
Herez the picture of my baby... i wonder you guys can figure out which is the head, legs and the cord.... hee... I realise that baby has a big butt like mommy!! hahaha...cute hor? er.. i find it cute la... hahaha.. its 19mm, an increament of 5mm in 2 weeks! hee... For the first time i heard baby heart beat... pretty loud thou... Hee...
My EDD (Est delivery date) is 3rd May 2009... How i wish i can tong until 10 May.. then we can celebrate birthday together... and baby shall be my mother's day gift!!!!! hee....
Cant wait for my next gynae check up on 15 Nov.. then have to do the down syndrome test... :)
Herez the picture of my baby... i wonder you guys can figure out which is the head, legs and the cord.... hee... I realise that baby has a big butt like mommy!! hahaha...cute hor? er.. i find it cute la... hahaha.. its 19mm, an increament of 5mm in 2 weeks! hee... For the first time i heard baby heart beat... pretty loud thou... Hee...
My EDD (Est delivery date) is 3rd May 2009... How i wish i can tong until 10 May.. then we can celebrate birthday together... and baby shall be my mother's day gift!!!!! hee....
Cant wait for my next gynae check up on 15 Nov.. then have to do the down syndrome test... :)
Saturday, September 13, 2008
I'm Not Happy
Sometimes i feel tortured... i feel like going back home to my mom... Going thru the first trimester = fatigue. You can read that everywhere online... After the first trimester, you will not feel that tired liao... And obviously, i will start to take naps or sleep earlier than usual.
My sis in law was asking me to go to the room for a nap if im tired... But my mom in law was like.. "sleep? dun sleep so much. later the baby very big." ok... those reading this... u can start saying what u feel out of ur mouth... cause when i told my mom about this... her reply was... "jiao wei" (in hokkien.. Talk cock in english) I seldom hear my mom speak vulgarities... yup...
I felt like shit... and im still feeling like shit.
My sis in law was asking me to go to the room for a nap if im tired... But my mom in law was like.. "sleep? dun sleep so much. later the baby very big." ok... those reading this... u can start saying what u feel out of ur mouth... cause when i told my mom about this... her reply was... "jiao wei" (in hokkien.. Talk cock in english) I seldom hear my mom speak vulgarities... yup...
I felt like shit... and im still feeling like shit.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
29 more weeks to go...
Slightly better this week... But still cannot shop too long, walk too long...
My boss offered me another job position, so that i no need to run arnd for sales... Pros and Cons la.. I am still in deep thoughts about it.... Having baby alr let me lose a lot of my favourite hobbies and food... like... MY MAGGIE MEE... i miss my maggie mee u know? but my mom say maggie mee is not good for baby.. I also dun play pool cause i think i will have difficulties bending down liao...
My tummy is growing... i am only 7 weeks preg and i haf to wear maternity pants... what u think? dino mommy = dino baby... from the pic below, you can see the baby is on my left side, and my tummy is growing on my left side too... haha... so cute..
this baby is starting to have some bonding with me.... i tell u, u all might think im crazy... but hor, if u use ur heart to feel the baby... it will communicate de... this is how i managed to quit smoking... I was still struggling to quit and having to "stop thinking" about picking up a cig. Since i know that i got baby, i cut down so so much... as of today, i barely can finish a stick. the moment i start to light, my tummy starts bubbling... (havent smoke yet)... then i feel that my baby is protesting... hahaha.. so i extingust the stick immediately, and left for work. then, each time i see that pack on my table, i think of baby.. den i jus let it "lao hong" on my table.... I'm not proud about it, in fact, i very sad that i cannot quit faster. :(
But now that i can say, i got no more addictions, no more cravings for nicotine... im happy...
The only thing that makes me wanna puke the moment i think of it, is the supplements i am taking every morning... i never had probs taking med, bitter liang teh... my mom is proud that i never had to eat a sweet when she cook liang teh for me in the past. But u know, i have to prepare a sour plum when i eat my supplements every morning.. this is how bad it is... (even typing my exp now, makes me wanna puke)
But seeing my tummy grow day by day... its also very nice feeling la... I wonder whats life gonna be after this little rascal come to earth....
Cravings for the day: DURIAN
My boss offered me another job position, so that i no need to run arnd for sales... Pros and Cons la.. I am still in deep thoughts about it.... Having baby alr let me lose a lot of my favourite hobbies and food... like... MY MAGGIE MEE... i miss my maggie mee u know? but my mom say maggie mee is not good for baby.. I also dun play pool cause i think i will have difficulties bending down liao...
My tummy is growing... i am only 7 weeks preg and i haf to wear maternity pants... what u think? dino mommy = dino baby... from the pic below, you can see the baby is on my left side, and my tummy is growing on my left side too... haha... so cute..
this baby is starting to have some bonding with me.... i tell u, u all might think im crazy... but hor, if u use ur heart to feel the baby... it will communicate de... this is how i managed to quit smoking... I was still struggling to quit and having to "stop thinking" about picking up a cig. Since i know that i got baby, i cut down so so much... as of today, i barely can finish a stick. the moment i start to light, my tummy starts bubbling... (havent smoke yet)... then i feel that my baby is protesting... hahaha.. so i extingust the stick immediately, and left for work. then, each time i see that pack on my table, i think of baby.. den i jus let it "lao hong" on my table.... I'm not proud about it, in fact, i very sad that i cannot quit faster. :(
But now that i can say, i got no more addictions, no more cravings for nicotine... im happy...
The only thing that makes me wanna puke the moment i think of it, is the supplements i am taking every morning... i never had probs taking med, bitter liang teh... my mom is proud that i never had to eat a sweet when she cook liang teh for me in the past. But u know, i have to prepare a sour plum when i eat my supplements every morning.. this is how bad it is... (even typing my exp now, makes me wanna puke)
But seeing my tummy grow day by day... its also very nice feeling la... I wonder whats life gonna be after this little rascal come to earth....
Cravings for the day: DURIAN
Monday, September 8, 2008
Whos the CULPRIT?
Wanna see who did all these to me?
Thanks for him/her.. I have been suffering from bloating tummy, morning sickness, fatique, hunger, emo....
Measuring 14mm by 6.4mm... THE CULPRIT!!!
Age: 6 weeks as of picture (3 Sept 08)
Haha.... After some measurements....
I was a 36 Cup, now.. I'm 38 Cup... my boobs are huge! I realise that the veins are out too... :( Need to spend money buy nursing bras!! Argh... FINALLY I AM a A CUP!!!! DOUBLE A SOMEMORE... (Credits: http://www.motherhood.com/size.asp?website_Id=1&MasterCategory_Id=0 )
(I dunno which part shud i count this... We shall name it BABY BUMP)
I dunno what is my previous... Hmm, was that suppose to be waist line? hahahha... Tell me on my tag board! hahaha
Thanks for him/her.. I have been suffering from bloating tummy, morning sickness, fatique, hunger, emo....
Measuring 14mm by 6.4mm... THE CULPRIT!!!
Age: 6 weeks as of picture (3 Sept 08)
Haha.... After some measurements....
I was a 36 Cup, now.. I'm 38 Cup... my boobs are huge! I realise that the veins are out too... :( Need to spend money buy nursing bras!! Argh... FINALLY I AM a A CUP!!!! DOUBLE A SOMEMORE... (Credits: http://www.motherhood.com/size.asp?website_Id=1&MasterCategory_Id=0 )
(I dunno which part shud i count this... We shall name it BABY BUMP)I dunno what is my previous... Hmm, was that suppose to be waist line? hahahha... Tell me on my tag board! hahaha
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Baby Baby.. Just For You
I am not a supplement person... And for that somebody in me... I am really swallowing them to make sure that this somebody is gonna be a healthy, cute and bubbly one...
Yes... Morning sickness, nausea what have u... ugly face, tired... and of coz, a fat body cause no one realise that its actually a bump, for the fact that i am alr FAT. argh...
But i know that the things that i am struggling to eat are good for the both of us... Here are some tips for some MTBs... (credits from http://www.pregnancy-calendars.net)
Is Magnesium Safe During Pregnancy?
There are many benefits to ensuring that you are receiving sufficient magnesium in your diet. Manganese plays an important role in the formation of bone, teeth, cartilage, development of your babys inner and outer ears as well as the assists certain enzymes to function properly.
Not only will Magnesium help with those developmental functions, but taking a magnesium supplement while pregnant may also help prevent premature labor. One other pleasant effect of taking magnesium is that it could possibly reduce pregnancy related leg cramping and heartburn.
Protein During Pregnancy
Protein plays an extremely important part in your pregnancy and the development of your baby. The amino acids which make up protein also form the basic building blocks of your body's cells — which in turn also form the building blocks of your baby’s body too.
During the second and third trimester is when you should make sure your protein levels are where they should be, especially as this is when your baby will be growing it’s fastest and that means placing more demand on you for all his/her essential nutrients.
Calcium Intake During Pregnancy
Both you and your developing baby need calcium during your pregnancy. Your baby needs the calcium to grow strong bones, teeth, a healthy heart, nerves, and muscles, normal heart rhythm and blood clotting abilities. You need the additional calcium because your baby is going to be drawing from your calcium in order to grow and develop and if you are not getting enough
calcium for yourself, both you and your baby will suffer.
Folic Acid During Pregnancy
Folic acid - also known as vitamin B9 or folate - is one of the few nutrients which is known to prevent neural tube birth defects such as spina bifida and those women who receive the recommended daily amount will reduce the risk of such birth defects by up to 70%.
This statistic alone should be enough to make you want to ensure that you are receiving the correct amount of folic acid. There are of course other complications which may be avoided if your folic acid intake is sufficient, and these include:
Miscarriage Cleft lip and palate Limb defects Heart defects Blood clots Placental abruption
Yes... Morning sickness, nausea what have u... ugly face, tired... and of coz, a fat body cause no one realise that its actually a bump, for the fact that i am alr FAT. argh...
But i know that the things that i am struggling to eat are good for the both of us... Here are some tips for some MTBs... (credits from http://www.pregnancy-calendars.net)
Is Magnesium Safe During Pregnancy?
There are many benefits to ensuring that you are receiving sufficient magnesium in your diet. Manganese plays an important role in the formation of bone, teeth, cartilage, development of your babys inner and outer ears as well as the assists certain enzymes to function properly.
Not only will Magnesium help with those developmental functions, but taking a magnesium supplement while pregnant may also help prevent premature labor. One other pleasant effect of taking magnesium is that it could possibly reduce pregnancy related leg cramping and heartburn.
Protein During Pregnancy
Protein plays an extremely important part in your pregnancy and the development of your baby. The amino acids which make up protein also form the basic building blocks of your body's cells — which in turn also form the building blocks of your baby’s body too.
During the second and third trimester is when you should make sure your protein levels are where they should be, especially as this is when your baby will be growing it’s fastest and that means placing more demand on you for all his/her essential nutrients.
Calcium Intake During Pregnancy
Both you and your developing baby need calcium during your pregnancy. Your baby needs the calcium to grow strong bones, teeth, a healthy heart, nerves, and muscles, normal heart rhythm and blood clotting abilities. You need the additional calcium because your baby is going to be drawing from your calcium in order to grow and develop and if you are not getting enough
calcium for yourself, both you and your baby will suffer.
Folic Acid During Pregnancy
Folic acid - also known as vitamin B9 or folate - is one of the few nutrients which is known to prevent neural tube birth defects such as spina bifida and those women who receive the recommended daily amount will reduce the risk of such birth defects by up to 70%.
This statistic alone should be enough to make you want to ensure that you are receiving the correct amount of folic acid. There are of course other complications which may be avoided if your folic acid intake is sufficient, and these include:
Miscarriage Cleft lip and palate Limb defects Heart defects Blood clots Placental abruption
Sunday, August 31, 2008
Plan With Care
Im trying my best to plan a lot of stuff with care... I need to adjust, adapt and perhaps give up some stuff... I am hoping to be able to keep something very precious to me... Honestly, im not sure if some things can turn out the same way i wan it to be... but if it doesnt, i still hope that everything will be alright...
Thursday, August 28, 2008
I know i cant make the same mistake again
Today, should be a happy day... But before getting happy, i have many things to settle...
From today onwards, i may lose the best thing i ever had, the usual habits i have, the common things i used to do... i dun even know if i can have it back... But i know, i will never make the same mistake again. Everyone makes mistakes, but when u know u made a mistake, u cannot make the same mistake again. Opportunities to repent, to salvage are hard to come by... Now that i have it, i cant do wrong anymore.
I know its gonna be tough, but i will learn to adapt and get used to it.
For now, i just wanna remember that i have to be a happy person, make myself a happy person from today onwards. And i cant look back and regret, if not, i will be living in misery.
From today onwards, i may lose the best thing i ever had, the usual habits i have, the common things i used to do... i dun even know if i can have it back... But i know, i will never make the same mistake again. Everyone makes mistakes, but when u know u made a mistake, u cannot make the same mistake again. Opportunities to repent, to salvage are hard to come by... Now that i have it, i cant do wrong anymore.
I know its gonna be tough, but i will learn to adapt and get used to it.
For now, i just wanna remember that i have to be a happy person, make myself a happy person from today onwards. And i cant look back and regret, if not, i will be living in misery.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Getting New Phone!!!
Finally my starhub voucher is coming on Friday!!! Waiting and waiting only.... Hee...
Anyway, im planning to get a Samsung Omnia... Was thinking of getting HTC Touch Dual at first, after reading some comments online, i decided that $500 voucher - $498 (Omnia) is more wu hua... den my current HTC, i will sell it off... then i get the money and get a Touch Dual?? haha.. i got 2 sim cards now.. thinking of seperating my personal calls and work calls... Either that, or i get a camera using the money?? Hee.. *excited*
Im quite sian of using touch screen to do sms... i miss "tiak tiak tiak" sound on keypads... this thinking is more like "huan xiong" than anything else.. haha!!
Hmm, i still got $250 vouchers that i can redeem from my starhub points... how how how?? Hmm.... what shud i do with it? or should i get a new phone for my mama?? **ponders**
Anyway, im planning to get a Samsung Omnia... Was thinking of getting HTC Touch Dual at first, after reading some comments online, i decided that $500 voucher - $498 (Omnia) is more wu hua... den my current HTC, i will sell it off... then i get the money and get a Touch Dual?? haha.. i got 2 sim cards now.. thinking of seperating my personal calls and work calls... Either that, or i get a camera using the money?? Hee.. *excited*
Im quite sian of using touch screen to do sms... i miss "tiak tiak tiak" sound on keypads... this thinking is more like "huan xiong" than anything else.. haha!!
Hmm, i still got $250 vouchers that i can redeem from my starhub points... how how how?? Hmm.... what shud i do with it? or should i get a new phone for my mama?? **ponders**
Sunday, August 17, 2008
WE WILL MISS YOU, MACDONALD'S GARLIC CHILLI
Sigh, out all things they did, they just have to stop the garlic chilli... and its all serving Sin Sin chilli now.. haizzzz... sad man...
Just finish watching Singapore team playing table tennis... of coz China won again, but i think Singapore did a great job... To make themselves up there, i think its not easy.. its an experience and we will be there again 4 years later!!!
Sigh, sales is really lousy... like what shen po told me... everything this mth is bad.. work + money + love... sigh..... how how how?? im emo again... stress stress stress
Just finish watching Singapore team playing table tennis... of coz China won again, but i think Singapore did a great job... To make themselves up there, i think its not easy.. its an experience and we will be there again 4 years later!!!
Sigh, sales is really lousy... like what shen po told me... everything this mth is bad.. work + money + love... sigh..... how how how?? im emo again... stress stress stress
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Happy Birthday Singapore
Having to spend the most beautiful moments... Capturing Every Beautiful Moment...
美丽的时光虽短斩，但如果你在那短斩的时间是最光芒的，那也可能就是你一身的成就了。。。
美丽的时光虽短斩，但如果你在那短斩的时间是最光芒的，那也可能就是你一身的成就了。。。
Thursday, August 7, 2008
Brace Up and Continue The Race
Work is frustrating... Dont understand why im not getting things that i want... and the problem is... i feel like everything is going the wrong way... sigh... lets not talk about work...
Im IN LOVE with this LV Galliera PM Bag which will cost me $2k... And yes.. I AM going to get it... and I MUST get it... i dun care... Hmph... i longing for a bag that i can wear for long... anytime, anywhere.... I WILL GET IT...
Haha... Okok.. need to get that tot off my mind... if not spend money... haha
My first photo with my Hot Mommy Elaine!!!!!!
My Hot Aiai Mommy...!~~
Im IN LOVE with this LV Galliera PM Bag which will cost me $2k... And yes.. I AM going to get it... and I MUST get it... i dun care... Hmph... i longing for a bag that i can wear for long... anytime, anywhere.... I WILL GET IT...Haha... Okok.. need to get that tot off my mind... if not spend money... haha
My first photo with my Hot Mommy Elaine!!!!!!
My Hot Aiai Mommy...!~~
Saturday, July 26, 2008
I cannot tolerate zero, do u have many eca?
haha... these words are ringing in my ears....
i need sales, need numbers... i wanna be a "smart cow"
i worked hard, i not guilty... i know its coming. so pls b patient.
I dun give excuses, sales have no excuses... no number = havent been working
so dino, where are ur numbers??
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saw this vending machine in holland village.. hmm.. can they have something like tat for cig?
Some random pics of the colleagues prawning.. HAHA... we had a great night with all the chattings.. but was damn damn shag...
Back into my working files... on a Saturday morning... Yawns....
i need sales, need numbers... i wanna be a "smart cow"
i worked hard, i not guilty... i know its coming. so pls b patient.
I dun give excuses, sales have no excuses... no number = havent been working
so dino, where are ur numbers??
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saw this vending machine in holland village.. hmm.. can they have something like tat for cig?
Some random pics of the colleagues prawning.. HAHA... we had a great night with all the chattings.. but was damn damn shag...
Back into my working files... on a Saturday morning... Yawns....
Sunday, July 20, 2008
I feel that i am getting older day by day...
Sigh, even thou im jus 24, but i feel that there are many things that i shud be doing... See, im married, but i have no babies... I am working in sales, but im not saving enough... and many many examples.. Sometimes i wish im still 18
I need to know what i want, then throw those that i dun wish to keep... and live a clean and neat life... See, now that i know my debts are soon to clear, i need to set a goal.. something i wan to achieve...
So, after i settle my debts, hopefully in sept, i wanna to go for a course (casino management), den i will take up language courses like korean/jap/thai... thereafter, i wanna change my career directions. I wanna have children and i think im ready to have them while i am studying and working.. once i give birth and finish my course, i will go towards the career path that i want to go into and raise my kids and be someone.
i know i might take on a lot of hardships and stuff like tat... but i guess all these are easier than having debts for the past few years. Since i'm finally settling them... i think its time to cast some things into stones and move on. I also wanna retire early when sufficient money to take care of my kids and the rest of my life.
I dun wanna live too long... perhaps till 65 - 70 will do. its not easy to live your life alone. children will one day leave you, have their family... and you will be alone... its not nice living life alone anyway... so 65-70 shud be enough.
So... Why am i born to be a human, leading life that a human leads, doing things that many humans do? Sometimes i jus wonder, why humans need to do all these to survive? cant we all have a choice not to do it and not be hungry and poor?
I need to know what i want, then throw those that i dun wish to keep... and live a clean and neat life... See, now that i know my debts are soon to clear, i need to set a goal.. something i wan to achieve...
So, after i settle my debts, hopefully in sept, i wanna to go for a course (casino management), den i will take up language courses like korean/jap/thai... thereafter, i wanna change my career directions. I wanna have children and i think im ready to have them while i am studying and working.. once i give birth and finish my course, i will go towards the career path that i want to go into and raise my kids and be someone.
i know i might take on a lot of hardships and stuff like tat... but i guess all these are easier than having debts for the past few years. Since i'm finally settling them... i think its time to cast some things into stones and move on. I also wanna retire early when sufficient money to take care of my kids and the rest of my life.
I dun wanna live too long... perhaps till 65 - 70 will do. its not easy to live your life alone. children will one day leave you, have their family... and you will be alone... its not nice living life alone anyway... so 65-70 shud be enough.
So... Why am i born to be a human, leading life that a human leads, doing things that many humans do? Sometimes i jus wonder, why humans need to do all these to survive? cant we all have a choice not to do it and not be hungry and poor?
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Is this gonna be my turning point?
Many changes in the office, many feelings evolved... I dunno why, but... i feel that everyone is tired... as tired as me
Work is drowning me... Deals are floating around, i aint sure when can i cast them into stones and fulfill my dreams, and let this be my turning point for this pharse of my life...
Sigh
Anyway, went prawning with my team of colleagues yesterday night. To tell you honestly, i was really very shag at work le.. But i dont wanna be a spoiler... so i went together... Having to carry so many working files, laptop, my bag and stuff... I really cant move off earlier without any cabs or public transport... Plus to find a cab there is quite tough.
But who knows, i didnt become a spoiler yesterday, but i was too tired to even open my eyes to sms my colleague to tell him i cant make it for mj today... Im really sorry guys... If you happen to read this some where... Pai seh...
But honestly, i appreciate a lot of my colleagues for being forgiving and understanding... Prob because my colleagues know what kind of working environment we are in... There were times when we are in the midst of something, and the other person has to leave... Yet we never got pissed off.. There were times like this, where i was too tired and stress that they never blamed me for flying their kite.. (one of my colleague came frm tampines!)
Because they know what kinda things to expect and we all give and take...
Thanks pals!
I have never been so busy working in Adventus.. Only recently, when i got some cases handed over.. I began to understand that when you are busy, tired, stressed, pressured.. The only thing that warms your heart is when you realise that your friends never got pissed off for you being late.. Your colleagues listens, advices, understands for the biggest cock up you ever made, sending you to your early appointments, waking up a little earlier to make sure you wake up on time.. Giving a lift to office and help you to settle your misc. paper work... your family who never blame you for coming back home late from office and disturbing their sleep... Even at times when i doze off on the table working, they will pack my things in my bag and make sure i dun forget to bring them for work when i rushed for work the next day.
All these happenings, these little things that they might not even put in their hearts... Meant a lot to me... It was all of these important pple in my life that makes my stressful and tiring job a smoother and easier work flow.
Now i understand what it is like to have a bunch of buddies with me... And this is why, each time anyone leaves me, its very sad.
Jus for u!!
Work is drowning me... Deals are floating around, i aint sure when can i cast them into stones and fulfill my dreams, and let this be my turning point for this pharse of my life...
Sigh
Anyway, went prawning with my team of colleagues yesterday night. To tell you honestly, i was really very shag at work le.. But i dont wanna be a spoiler... so i went together... Having to carry so many working files, laptop, my bag and stuff... I really cant move off earlier without any cabs or public transport... Plus to find a cab there is quite tough.
But who knows, i didnt become a spoiler yesterday, but i was too tired to even open my eyes to sms my colleague to tell him i cant make it for mj today... Im really sorry guys... If you happen to read this some where... Pai seh...
But honestly, i appreciate a lot of my colleagues for being forgiving and understanding... Prob because my colleagues know what kind of working environment we are in... There were times when we are in the midst of something, and the other person has to leave... Yet we never got pissed off.. There were times like this, where i was too tired and stress that they never blamed me for flying their kite.. (one of my colleague came frm tampines!)
Because they know what kinda things to expect and we all give and take...
Thanks pals!
I have never been so busy working in Adventus.. Only recently, when i got some cases handed over.. I began to understand that when you are busy, tired, stressed, pressured.. The only thing that warms your heart is when you realise that your friends never got pissed off for you being late.. Your colleagues listens, advices, understands for the biggest cock up you ever made, sending you to your early appointments, waking up a little earlier to make sure you wake up on time.. Giving a lift to office and help you to settle your misc. paper work... your family who never blame you for coming back home late from office and disturbing their sleep... Even at times when i doze off on the table working, they will pack my things in my bag and make sure i dun forget to bring them for work when i rushed for work the next day.
All these happenings, these little things that they might not even put in their hearts... Meant a lot to me... It was all of these important pple in my life that makes my stressful and tiring job a smoother and easier work flow.
Now i understand what it is like to have a bunch of buddies with me... And this is why, each time anyone leaves me, its very sad.
Jus for u!!
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Weekends are over...
Sat and Sun always past so so fast wor... But at least today i got do laundry, housework and facial! haha... tiring week and more tiring starting from tomorrow onwards..
Jus any one of the cases comes in, it'll prob turn my life around... I pray really hard this time... Jia you dino!!
Surfing thru youtube.. some clips are really CUTE!! Check these out.. I love the whatever baby!!
Jus any one of the cases comes in, it'll prob turn my life around... I pray really hard this time... Jia you dino!!
Surfing thru youtube.. some clips are really CUTE!! Check these out.. I love the whatever baby!!
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Busy Busy
I feel very happy and challanging working here... each cases is different, each time u handle a case is always very fun and challanging... but then again, its damn tiring wor... but still its nice having this kinda feeling la..
Work work and work... im very scared i cannot hit my target this mth wor.. but if my cases do come in... Its gonna change my life... And yes, it is that impt to me.. each case is as impt.. i hope to get them right and close 'em off...
Tmr will be a siong day, got site survey to do... Elaine offer to help, but she got baby, i worried that she'll be tired, worry that if she tired she cannot rest cause site survey is a on going thing, we cannot expect customer to wait for us to rest de ma... Then a lot of walking, i scared she "over-walk"... She's like a big sister to me in the office, and althou we are always busy with our own stuff, we still care of each other de la... :) Its nice to know that you have someone like that in the office working with you.
But since 3 of my colleagues had to leave, i start feeling insecure wor... But i know Elaine and I will still keep in close contact if anything happens to us de.. **choy choy choy**
Ok la, back to my work liao... :)
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Who am I now?
I had a chat with someone, and he mentioned that the Serene he is seeing now is Serene with shield.. afraid of being attacked and harmed.
I agree, totally agree... All the little scenes in the office is making everyone mentally drained.. I am drained, they are all drained too. After a 2 day leave, I told myself no matter what, i have to stand up and move on. And this entire week, i finally worked hard. I really did wor... cold calls, first appointments, PR my existing customers, salvaging some cases etc... I am happy that i am getting the hang of it again, but i also fear the polictics coming along... Showing more face in office naturally means that somehow, someone will get u involved... Sigh..
So maybe tomorrow, i will wake up early to go pray pray... cause my da yi ma coming soon ba, then i cannot go pray liao... mai tu liao... chop chop go pray.. por bi every mth 60k!! 平平安安，小人走远远，贵人多多来！！
Someone also tell me that he wants to see the "5 years ago" Serene wor... Lemme think... 5 years ago Serene... Happy go lucky, everyday roadshow, everyday work, every mth cross target, sales seldom struggle, every month shun shun li li de customers, every night got friends go out drinking, financially stable, had a bunch of good colleagues, had a good botak boss, hardworking lady leader... Smiling everyday, Happiness from the bottom of my heart...
Speaking of which, i very long never happy liao lei... every smile i give now, in my mind, im thinking about how to hit my target, where to get money to settle my debts and clear them once and for all, where to find time to do the things i wan and when i can start to walk towards my career path... Sounds simple? But the only reason for all the future goals to KIV is because of my debts wor... I have been suffering inside for years liao....
Someone offered help, but i am not sure if i can accept or not. Cause i might also indirectly hai dao ta wor... Sigh... I worry the consequences for Someone rather than my consequences not accepting...
Now, i become very defensive of myself, i wear a shield everyday everywhere.. I start to isolate myself and just be alone doing the things i want to do. I jus need time to adjust back.
Thou i know unless i settle the "choke", the water will not flow thru smoothly wor... Lets hope my hard work will pay off ba... I pray hard.. Whoever that is watching me and guiding me up there, i hope that you will guide me thru this crisis.. i need to get out of it by end 2008. Please...
I agree, totally agree... All the little scenes in the office is making everyone mentally drained.. I am drained, they are all drained too. After a 2 day leave, I told myself no matter what, i have to stand up and move on. And this entire week, i finally worked hard. I really did wor... cold calls, first appointments, PR my existing customers, salvaging some cases etc... I am happy that i am getting the hang of it again, but i also fear the polictics coming along... Showing more face in office naturally means that somehow, someone will get u involved... Sigh..
So maybe tomorrow, i will wake up early to go pray pray... cause my da yi ma coming soon ba, then i cannot go pray liao... mai tu liao... chop chop go pray.. por bi every mth 60k!! 平平安安，小人走远远，贵人多多来！！
Someone also tell me that he wants to see the "5 years ago" Serene wor... Lemme think... 5 years ago Serene... Happy go lucky, everyday roadshow, everyday work, every mth cross target, sales seldom struggle, every month shun shun li li de customers, every night got friends go out drinking, financially stable, had a bunch of good colleagues, had a good botak boss, hardworking lady leader... Smiling everyday, Happiness from the bottom of my heart...
Speaking of which, i very long never happy liao lei... every smile i give now, in my mind, im thinking about how to hit my target, where to get money to settle my debts and clear them once and for all, where to find time to do the things i wan and when i can start to walk towards my career path... Sounds simple? But the only reason for all the future goals to KIV is because of my debts wor... I have been suffering inside for years liao....
Someone offered help, but i am not sure if i can accept or not. Cause i might also indirectly hai dao ta wor... Sigh... I worry the consequences for Someone rather than my consequences not accepting...
Now, i become very defensive of myself, i wear a shield everyday everywhere.. I start to isolate myself and just be alone doing the things i want to do. I jus need time to adjust back.
Thou i know unless i settle the "choke", the water will not flow thru smoothly wor... Lets hope my hard work will pay off ba... I pray hard.. Whoever that is watching me and guiding me up there, i hope that you will guide me thru this crisis.. i need to get out of it by end 2008. Please...
Friday, June 27, 2008
珍惜眼前事与人
I have been in this company for 8 months le... these 8 months, i actually very happy, thou some times there may be arguements, challenges, times when we tried hard to hit targets, meet numbers. There are also moments where the entire company and team are enjoying themselves, feeling united, there are times when one or two of us feel really down and even thought of giving up...
Staying at home today just resting, i suddenly recalled all the happy and sad moments that i had been thru the past 8 months... some things became better, some worse... some pple come, some left. 天下无不散之宴席.. I only know i should treasure everyone around me, and the things happening to me... What i want to do, is to put my best effort and focus on each and everything i do.
I had been down for some time... Finally i have time to sit down and think back of the things that i've done, pple i met, and tell myself that... when i grow old, sitting on my rocking chair, i'll be happy and 幸福to tell myself that i have in my life, met the good ones who guided & supported me, and the bad ones who taught and made me learn. I jus wanna be happy, that is why we live.
Someone told me.. 1 + 1 = 2 is a simple theory, why pple try to think that 1 + 1 = 3? We often complicate things and make things unreasonable and try to make things difficult. In actual fact, we can tell pple how good a cup of coffee is, and we can also influence pple to think that the coffee sucks. Its us who can influence pple to think differently. That is why, my mom taught me this.. 病从口入，祸从口出
Learn to make pple think happy things, learn happy things and be happy... Dont be too selfish to keep all the happiness to yourself. Learn to give so that you have room to take.
Be it love, friendship, kinship... It has gotten be given and taken this way. Learn to bring them smiles... This is what my friend told me... A selfless him always want to share the burden, help others, bring happiness to pple instead of hurting others... He aint a saint, his trying his best to be happy in life.
Being happy doesnt need to be taught, you jus learn how to take them with you, then you'll learn how to give them to others.
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Friend Are Just Strangers Whom We Havent Met
These few weeks, i have been knowing a lot of pple... pple from different parts of Singapore!! haha... and surprisingly, these friends are very individual pple... sometimes i find it very hard to understand each of them too....
Friend A of mine, totally professional in things that he does... his doesnt have stunning looks or sweet talker... owns a normal car, starting a new biz, perhaps financially still seeking a consistancy... But the things that he say makes me "wow"... His a man with wisdom... I see him speak, presenting his ideas, conclude and decide.. And he impressed me totally...
Thou so much good things about him, i still think that having more time to understand him more before i make more judgements... U see, human change... and pple tend to show the best of theirs first.. Once we get used to each other... U'll see all the funny funny things come out...
Haha... Well, but im glad i know a friend like him. Cause from him, i was able to take my time to do the things i wanna do, think the things i wanna think... be free with my thoughts without being afraid he would change his impression towards me... :)
Friends are friends forever :)
Friend A of mine, totally professional in things that he does... his doesnt have stunning looks or sweet talker... owns a normal car, starting a new biz, perhaps financially still seeking a consistancy... But the things that he say makes me "wow"... His a man with wisdom... I see him speak, presenting his ideas, conclude and decide.. And he impressed me totally...
Thou so much good things about him, i still think that having more time to understand him more before i make more judgements... U see, human change... and pple tend to show the best of theirs first.. Once we get used to each other... U'll see all the funny funny things come out...
Haha... Well, but im glad i know a friend like him. Cause from him, i was able to take my time to do the things i wanna do, think the things i wanna think... be free with my thoughts without being afraid he would change his impression towards me... :)
Friends are friends forever :)
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