♥ Dino's Little Story ♥

Perhaps a blessing in disguise?

2011-10-06T08:26:00.001+08:00

For some reason, i left my full time job.. And went to a "freelance"... Got sabo-ed somehow somewhere and i told my friend, the boss.. I think it has become very embarassing to remain..

I think he was left in shock but i thought it might be a gd departure..

Dun worry.. I will not b a stay at home mom.. I am STILL a working mom.. But more flexible... Which is gd.. Its a gd time for me to start things and cont to do things which i enjoy.. Except that i dont need to be so tight up fulfilling unnecessary expectations..

Im so gg to tune up and beef up. I will be a better me :)

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Little updates...

2011-09-30T14:27:00.001+08:00

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Its been a good... 3 months....

2011-08-31T17:13:00.000+08:00

that i last blogged?

What is dino busy with lately?
- Work
- Celeste
- Housework

Just these 3 things can get me going crazy.. Not forgetting my weak immune system.. Im suspecting its due to the lack of rest!!

Anyways, dino is ok... Big obstacles that i am going through now.. But i know i can get thru all these and be better soon... I just need to be brave..

Baby Celeste is good too! shes 14 months now, she can now..

- walk fast
- climb everywhere
- grabs anything she sees, and put them back when you tell her "put back"
- Say words like.. "fish" "mama" "papa" "pampers" "shoe" "milk milk" "bye bye"
- 6 teeth out so far..

She can do many other naughty stuff too!! And her signature cheeky smile never fails to make me smile...

Taking care of Celeste aint easy, managing home and work is also very tough.. But im sure i can manage.. With Celeste getting more aware of things around her, 80% of my time at home (when shes with me), i have to be sticking with her, cause she sticks with me! haha.. very sticky lady but im cherishing it now cause i know when she grows older, i would be missing it! :)

Dont worry, Dino's alright.. Just a slower start but i trust it will be steady..

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A tough start but it can only get better

2011-05-26T18:10:00.001+08:00

Started working and termed as a full time working mom.. Aka FTWM.. TOUGH JOB..

Celeste is now at infant care while i started doing sales again. Not as easy like the past.. I work like a cow during day time and change to a mommy hat after work.. Im very tired but i can still tahan ba...

Little princess can talk a little, walk a little, stand a little.. Hahaha.. She take 1 adult bowl of porridge everyday when she comes back frm school..

Moving to our new place is nice, cosy and feels like home..

Im trying my best to cope.. I hope i can do it.

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A little messy but i knw its jus for a start

2011-04-23T15:56:00.001+08:00

Started working lor... Tough but at least i have my own time now.. Adjusting n improving la..

Bb celeste is good but ever since she went ifc, she keep having flu cough n LS.. haizz

Shes a quick learner i must say.. Which gives me even more positive thoughts to work hard.. Need to expose her to more stuff and guide her thru..

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Its a SUCCESS!!

2011-03-30T01:32:00.001+08:00

After all the tips frm my gd mommy friends, we manage to convert bb celeste to a bottle drinker!! Now she only latches when shes hungry n when mama's asleep..

Meanwhile, my breast pumps is making itself worthy :) thou supply is not as high as last time but with supplements n some thin formula milk added, i can have enough for bb

Im starting work soon... And today is the first day i left bb with hubby while i go for my training :))) bb n papa did a fantastic job :)) thumbs up!

Bb c will be gg to infant care this fri.. Hopefully everything will turn out well :)

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A little change

2011-03-07T00:11:00.001+08:00

Im trying to switch bb frm total latch to bottle cause im gg bk to work soon.. Stressed but im sure i can work this out...

Its been stressful for dino mama.. Sometimes i feel like relying on something but i realise i cant afterall...

Well, i hope everything will turn out well...

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Dino wanna go back to work!!!

2011-02-24T13:50:00.001+08:00

Everyone knws, im planning for another bb.. But im sorta putting it on hold for a while cause i dun wanna start work n get preg again... But the things in my hse is piling up.. When hubby ask, my reply is always.. Keep for #2.. lol

I feel like gg bk to wk earlier.. Cause of $$ n cause i feel i need to work n the cheong mode is on...

But bb c how? I need to train her bottle n start to pump le... i guess it should take a mth ba??

Stress.....

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Its been a month!

2011-02-06T22:59:00.000+08:00

Hello!! Its me!! Sorry viewers, i have been really busy with many many stuff..

I've officially moved on 23 Jan 2011!! We are very pleased with our new home and also made a few new friends along the way too..

Baby C is ok, shes very talkative, very active and very very very sticky...

As promised, here's some pictures :)

Here's the kitchen, the rest are still pretty messy.. haha.. take some pictures when its neater.. we are totally broke because of this reno, but i think its all worth it.. having our own house is something we wished for the longest time...

And here's Baby C!

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Happy New Year!!

2011-01-04T12:51:00.000+08:00

There are soooo many things that happened in 2010.. the best thing that ever happened was having Celeste in my life!

Of coz, luck wasnt too good in 2010 but i know it will be better in 2011!!

Been very very busy with reno and some CCA that i picked up... haha.. It has been a tiring month... sorry for the late updates.. but i will soon come back with PHOTOs!!

Just need to manage myself a little.. im so messy..

Anyway! GOOD 2011 IS HERE!

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Got the keys!!!

2010-12-23T19:36:00.001+08:00

22 Dec 2010

Stresssss

So many things to do but so little time.....

Anyway, yes! Got the keys!!

Next thurs reno, tmr prayers..

In a mths' time i will have my own roof!!

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Little thoughts

2010-12-20T19:54:00.001+08:00

Its been a very pressurising yet happy month... We've been very stress over money issues for our reno.. Very guilty tat i have to take a loan frm my mom..

But im determined to start work when bb turns 18 mths, back to sales and start working hard to provide more for the family, bb and return my mom all that we owe her.

This house definately gave us a lot of energy to strive hard.

Lets hope everything turns out well n blessed.

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1st appt!

2010-12-09T18:47:00.000+08:00

Today, we went for our first appt with HDB.. so far so good...

We got some dates confirmed..
Reno can start on 6 Jan 2011
Completion from HDB latest by 13 Jan 2011 but we can start reno first

Contractor came this afternoon.. and we discussed about the schedule..
Most likely hand over should be by 27 Jan 2011!! We hope to be in time for CNY

Next, we need to go east to choose our tiles, ceiling lights...
Then, we need to view sample of doors and windows
After that, we have to sit down with contractor for a round of 2D "viewing"

So excited!

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A place where we call HOME Part 1

2010-11-29T19:41:00.001+08:00

After 3 years of pak tor and 4 years of marriage, we finally have our own roof!
It happened very quickly... just one fine day, i whatsapp hubb "why not we jus look for a 3room, when kids grow up then we move to a 4 room lor" cause initially we are bioing for a 4 room ma...

Right after that, i went to iproperty to search and decided to find a few to "view" and get the hang of it... after like.. 30 mins.. i saw "low cash" HAHA.. to be honest, i have NO CASH... but i thought, maybe we shud jus check it out...

It's just 2 streets away and the cov is pretty low as compared to what others are quoting.. i saw one house beside my current place.. COV $40k! OMG.... so i got hubb to take 1 hour time off and we went to see.. haha.. so siao on right?

I brought Baby C along to let me test for us.. see if she will be all cranky, if she does, then how cheap we also wont buy.. hahaha..

Oh well, everything went very fast.. Before that, i called my mom to tell her about it.. and she say its more impt to get a house now, so she wont mind loaning us the COV $.. i feel so blessed... so we went to see the flat and put the deposit..

Following day, we went to HDB to do the HLE loan application cause we were suppose to "test view" ma, so we got nothing prepared... we told them to get it done urgently... so true enough, we got it the next working day...! hahaha... After deducting the grants, we can afford our new house!

Then we went ahead to get the floor plan and stuff.. and went to search for ideas to do our house... well.. we are gg for a reno loan.. but if say reno loan not approve, how? so we gotta have back up plans... the house is in its VERY original HDB condition, a 20+ year old flat.. so we need to get some impt things done like re wiring, wet works and stuff

So i decided to update here too!

Aircon
Yesterday, we just went to IMM for dinner and decided to see the gain city aircon... the sales there was not too enthu nor informative.. so we went to BEST TECH.. well.. ok, he quoted us similar unit but cheaper than gain city and offered us to change to a better pipe/tube (whatever u call it) at no extra cost. So we put a small small deposit to secure the price.

Flooring (LR + Common BR + MBR)
To save on cost, we decided to overlay the floor with vinyl wood planks and was recommended by Joyce for her floor contractor... He came over to my place today to show us samples and quoted us a pretty reasonable price and since we got good comments and feedback from friends, then i think it shud be ok.. About $1800 to overlay them. If i were to hack and lay tiles, it will cost me $3-4k! so i think still ok ba...

Darker one for MBR & Bb Room
Lighter one for LR

Hood & Hob
We saw a hood and hob from IMM... Brand is Ellane.. i saw from reno forums about this brand and the price is ok.. $300+ each.. so now im thinking if i shud or shud not have the hood. I will be cooking everyday for hubb and baby as we (me and ILs) agreed to visit their place once a week for dinner cause hubb knocks off late and its quite tiring for him to run up and down even thou its 2 streets away...

Painting Works
Got a quote of $700+ for 3 room flat including toilets, ceilings, dual coat, 3 colour etc... :)

Alright... still got some quotations coming in, let see how it goes..

Heres what im going to do..

1. get separate quotes from diff contractors
2. get a single quote from a main con to submit for reno loan

IF reno loan approve, i will proceed to get the main con to do.. if NOT, then at least i did my homework and reno works can proceed as usual.. but i jus need to play with time to pay those initial deposits lor so we wont be caught in a bottle neck situation.

Now... here's my floor plan.. its a 3A unit..

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Been really busy

2010-11-26T01:40:00.001+08:00

With?? Haha.. With baby, my mom and..... Our home.. Yes OUR.. With the help of my mommy (financially), we managed to find a 3 room flat.. Now waiting for hdb appt and most likely to take our keys in jan..

Very stress cause we cannot afford for reno.. So now trying to do it within our very tight budget..

I hope things will turn out well and we can build our cosy home..

Baby's ok, very active very sai nai.. Im bz entertaining her..

Will update more soon :)

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My very first time

2010-11-10T15:52:00.000+08:00

Was at mama's house ytd with bb.. then... we (me and hubb) decided to go makan downstairs since jessie sis commented that the wanton mee is nice.. so we left bb with my mom and went to eat... Bb was fed, on the bed and mama sat beside her

After makan and i was walking back... i felt like... pak tor times.. then i told hubb.. "dear, this is the first time i go "out" without bb u know?" hahaha! a sense of relieve of coz but even if it was a 30 min affair.. gosh.. i miss Celeste la.. hahaha..

when i reached home.. then i ask my mom.. "did she cry?" my mom say.. "no.. but i pat her she dun wan to slp" haha.. of coz la.. cause dun have the right smell ma.. haha

my mom say.. "i dun dare to go anyway.. i jus sit here and play with her" haha.. first time grandma.. so cute... my mom kept telling Celeste "ah ma dote u alot alot alot you know?" and kept calling her "cute cute girl" and my mom is super happy when C responses to her.. haha.. she also told Celeste.. "ah ma never see you for a few days, ah ma will miss you lei.."

Ask me... yeah, without Celeste, i feel like.. i dun have to be that careful.. haha.. but then again.. the maternal instinct is strong and feel like i have to take care of her..

now that C is self adjusting her feeding interval to 3 hours.. i am slightly more relax but still trying to get used to it.. cause in the past, i have to rush to feed her while she was on 2 hourly feed.. :)

After my mom fell, i felt that its really tough being a good mom, good daughter and good wife.. I remember when i carried Celeste to the hosp and mom saw me.. she ask me why i bring C to the hosp.. i told her.. "u are my mom, i have to take care. shes my bb, i also have to take care. i cannot split myself into 2" then she kept quiet. u can scold me for bringing C to the hospital.. but i got a lao bu who didnt eat anything since 3pm till 9+pm.. and had to be in the ob ward for next 3 hours.. so who is going to feed my mom?? My bb is on 3hourly feed but i know i will at the hosp for more than 3 hours and no one is at home.. so how?

well.. im glad we went..

i cooked for mom.. even thou she say she not hungry.. she still ate 2 bowls of porridge.. and shes so happy when she saw Celeste..

Just this morning, she told me over the phone "i see Celeste, whatever worries also forget"

You see, my mom is not those who loves kids or babies.. she will not try to carry bb cause shes afraid to and she wont sit there to "entertain" them.. but Celeste and her got this... affinity? fate? erm.. how to say... on the day when my mom fell, Celeste was crying non stop at home until i called my mom then she stopped. At the point when she was in OT fixing her hand, Celeste also crying until she went hosp and see her ah ma then she stop.. u know what i mean? coincidence maybe... but... these 2 ladies sure have some yuan fen there...

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Shouldnt Nov be Better?

2010-11-08T13:03:00.000+08:00

My mom just fell down last monday.... Well.. its a long story and we ended up going to SGH A&E last sat.. Thank god for having a wonderful hubby, he accompanied mom to hospital and wait and wait for all the procedures to be done while i stayed at home to take care of bb and pacing up and down the house. I went to the hospital to deliver food for mom as soon as she is done with her procedures and left home at 2+am while hubby left hospital at 3am and sending mom back...

Celeste is also getting very active but thank god she still maintained a little bit of routine if not i will go crazy.... hahhaa.. and also thank god for letting her know what to do during day time and what to do during night... if not, i will be a zombie by now.

She loves to smile and smile and smile.. very curious baby too... she loves papa more than mama.. haha... IM JEALOUS.

oh well, im always the stricter one ma.. Parenthood is very good so far. i love being a mom and hubby is enjoying his life as a papa.. He helps out after work with bb while i do my own stuff too...

Everyone dotes Celeste a lot esp my mom... i remember just last week, i visited her with C, she insisted on carrying C with 1 hand (sitting) despite her injured left hand... and can tell mama was very excited to see her.

When i brought C to Treston's party, everyone cant wait for her to wake up.. the moment she wakes up, she is passed around like a ball.. haha..

Last sat, when we were at the hospital, there was an old lady who was very very sick.. the moment she saw C and C gave her the signature million dollar smile.. the old lady came alive... im serious.. the old lady's eyes lit up and start to play with C, forgetting her illness.. Same goes to mom, she scolded me for bringing C to hosp but i told her i do not have a choice cause i wanna take care of my mama and my baby.. what can i do? But as soon as she saw Celeste... alamak.. she forgot all about scolding me.. hahahahaha..

Well... i hope everything gets better. and i seriously need to go pray man.. really...

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Lousy Oct

2010-10-27T19:34:00.001+08:00

So much for a fun and exciting Oct but it ended up stressful and lousy..

1. We didnt get to celebrate for hubb on actual day
2. Wedd anni was not celebrated at the planned location

Sobzz... Yeah, i was very upset and now i cant wait for Oct to end and Nov to come. Well, i manage to get some part time work from home job. now its action time but i need to find time to act too..

Reserves are emptied and im damn broke. I need to do some financial adjustments to make sure i dun go broke again. Im a mother and a wife... i need to be more responsible.

Anyway... Celeste is due for jab tomorrow.. its FEVER time again... (haiii).. n not forgetting jab costs... so sad..

But next time theres a few must buys
1. Collect C's stamp
2. Wipes and diapers
3. Powder puff
4. Powder
5. Lotion for C

And and.. i really need to have my own routine.. i mean.. things i do for myself even if its jus a routine pedicure.. i think theres a need seriously. I need to feel "forward" and be "forward" if not, i will be a huang lian po sooonnn...

C is growing up day by day.. she start to be very notti and "giet".. chut pattern, sai nai, lao gai.. buay tahan her.. lol... Shes starting solids in Dec but i plan to start her in Jan... i love C to bits la... :)

4 months old

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To my Reader - Lin

2010-10-18T21:42:00.000+08:00

Lin...

Life is full of ups n downs for me... its never easy moving on wif life... Losing Julius was like tearin my skin off my flesh.. Julius is never forgotten.. I still talk to Celeste about her kor kor...

But well.. its a battle between u n urself.. No matter how painful u feel, the world never stop revolving... u cannot just stop ur pace n start grieving on n on.. u gotta move on too...

I keep reminding myself tat i cannot give up on my life cause theres a lot of pple relying on me in many ways... I shudnt just look into a box but i have to be more brave to face a bigger picture... I cannot fall... even if i cry, it shud only be a while...

Dun self pity. Cause it will make u worse... if i din pick myself up, i wont haf Celeste too.. i wont learn to treasure my hubby more. I wont learn to cherish wat i already haf...

i remind myself everyday that everything happen for a reason.. n tats y i pick up the courage to share my experience wif everyone. only to let them understand more n to b more cautious... of coz, to encourage pple who lost their babies to pick up n move on..

Jus remember, the world will not stop revolving because of u.. have faith in urself...

Lin, i am in no position to qns your abortion or why u abort.. but let me share with u something...

Babies are gift from God.. theres no such thing that u cannot afford a baby if u can still have proper meals everyday.

When i had Julius or Celeste.. im broke everyday.. my hubby's broke too.. When i had my emergency Csect, i still gotta borrow to clear off the medical fees. If not for my relative's ang bao, i dun think i will be able to pay off my bills.. My gynae check ups and even for Celeste's injections, have to be scheduled on hubby's pay day.. and we have probs feeding ourselves at times.. If i were to attend a wedding that mth... its even worse.

Well.... we still made it thru ah.. Celeste is 3.5mths old.. shes wearing mamy poko, have her own cot, got toys even thou they are 2nd hand.. shes breast fed and she still smiles at me everyday like a super happy baby!

Ask me how i manage to do that? i seriously dunno. Faith i suppose. I have faith that i can provide my kids the best I CAN... It doesnt mean i need to buy branded and new stuff.. im buying 2nd hand toys and stuff for Celeste.. I buy things that can help her development and can last for a long time (till next bb i suppose)... and best of all... i can sell them off if i dont need..!

If theres a will, theres a way.... God gave u a child but its not ur decision to keep or not.. its not up to you to decide too. If God gives u a baby, u will definately have a way to keep it.. believe it or not... it happened to me.. cause i believe it will be that way.

who is not having $$ difficulties? well.. i have a pile of bills and many things i have pay too.. But still... life goes on..

Like i say, im really in no position to ask about ur abortion but i hope u dont do it again.. if u dun plan to haf a baby.. then use precaution.. dont mentally torture urself and go for abortions.. seriously... its a sin..

Brace up and stand up Lin... Face the problem. Accept the consequences and move on. Take a deep breath and step out of that dark hole.. U will be surprise what u will see at the end of the tunnel.

Good luck!

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HELLOOOOOoooo

2010-10-14T14:23:00.000+08:00

Dear readers!!!!

Actually i miss blogging la... but ever since Celeste came along.. my life is hers.. lol..

Have been trying to keep up with the "outside" world.. meeting the mommies and having lunches and exploring new places with hubby.. Im jus waiting for C to grow up a little more.. then we can bring her to more places to play... :)

I love being a mother.. REALLY! Even thou i got no $$, but life is good so far! Hubby and my life are all revolving around C.. and we are loving it :)

Sometimes i do have an intention of stopping at 1 so that i can shower C with all my love. But Elaine was telling me that i will wanna have #2 the moment i see C plays alone.. :((

Actually i love C a lot, more than my life and more than hubby. I was whispering to C the other day.. "i never know how much i can love someone until i found you. :) "

Life is good so far, everyday looking out for cheap loots for C, moving along with her development and trying to get some educational or helpful tools to help her with her development. So if you guys got any 2nd hand toys or stuff, do let me know ya.. Cause im broke, i cannot buy 1st hand.. but i dont mind 2nd hand as long as its helpful to C... :)

I miss dating with hubby but i think i will miss more when C grows older.. haha.. but i m trying to target an amount to save for a trip to Taiwan when C turns 1.. :)

Actually i always dream to travel the world with hubby.. and i dont want this dream to end because i have kids. I want to share the dream with them too...

So im thinking of going Taiwan in May or June, then plan for #2 when we are back. :)

Ok! Celebration starts tomorrow!! Pre birthday celebration for hubby's birthday. Then sat will be having dinner with family then a week break for some preparations and next fri will be our 4th year wedding anniversary! :) So excited...

Hope to take some "lang lang"(canton) pictures for all of you!

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July Babies Group Photoshoot

2010-10-11T14:35:00.000+08:00

Had a great time yesterday at the July babies photoshoot.... we had a group of very on mommies and PGs... and daddies too! hahaha

tiring la.. Celeste was soooo tired cause she didnt even take her naps till 7pm..
poor thing.. but the results were great!

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Broke

2010-10-08T01:43:00.001+08:00

Im broke la... Argh... Banning myself frm buying more stuff for bb for 2 weeks..

Recently hor, i realise tat 6 out of 10 times i wake up with my teeth biting my tongue.. Supa pain.. M i too tired??

Honestly i need a break.. I have to thinking hor.. Everytime hubby off, we will be out.. No chance for me to rest at home while he takes over. And if his off n we are not out is normally when his sick. Thats worse cause i gotta take care of 2 babies.. Sigh...

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Target : PRE PRE PREGNANCY WEIGHT PLSSS

2010-10-05T22:26:00.000+08:00

Was talking to grace, then i suddenly look at my last time pics.. haiiiiiiiiii
i really wanna go back to my pre pre pregnancy weight.. i think i shud la.. before i try for the next bb.. cause if i dun, i wonder how big i will go worrrr

So now.. target.. no tidbits!!! hahhaa.. no munching.. no soft drinks. ONLY PLAIN WATERRR.. im very into sweet drinks ever since i bf-ed.. i wonder why...

JIA YOU LA DINO!

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Busy October!

2010-10-01T22:36:00.000+08:00

Celeste's fever finally ok and her growth spurt is almost over.. :)))

This mth is gonna be a happy month! Alvin's 35th Birthday, our 4th wedding anniversary and most most happy thing is... we have CELESTE with us to celebrate!!

I remember, Celeste is MADE on 17th Oct which is our ROM date :) so happy!!

Celeste is so far so good... some tantrums here and there but ok... :) So happy being a mom.. really excited la...

My house is having lift upgrading and the noise is killing us.. gotta bring bb to my mother's place to hide for tomorrow and monday, maybe i bring her somewhere else to hide.. sigh..

I hope i get my own place very soon but im at the verge of giving up la.. no money, where to find house? have to L L wait with the rest to get picked by the silly system... argh!

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Bz sept

2010-09-25T00:21:00.001+08:00

Supa bz running arnd.. Dunno wat im bz abt too.. Celeste gg for her jab next week.. Hai.. Arnd round of fever?

Shes more alert too but v naughty.. Very zeng too sigh.

Excited abt sunday!!! Mtg fangzz n her bear for celeste :)))

Im craving for lychee magaritaaa

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upcoming events!!

2010-09-16T18:12:00.000+08:00

Here here..

Baby Expo
22 - 24 Oct 2010
http://www.singaporeexpo.com.sg/index.php?option=com_events&task=event_details&id=491&Itemid=38

MPH
5-7 Nov 2010
http://www.singaporeexpo.com.sg/index.php?option=com_events&task=event_details&id=466&Itemid=38

Parenthood Fair
26-28 Nov 2010
http://www.singaporeexpo.com.sg/index.php?option=com_events&task=event_details&id=489&Itemid=38

Sitex 2010
23-28 Nov 2010
http://www.singaporeexpo.com.sg/index.php?option=com_events&task=event_details&id=429&Itemid=38

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So many first time...

2010-09-16T13:04:00.001+08:00

I enjoy my first times wif bb.. Nursing at mrt ctrl stn, taking mrt, alone with stroller n many more.... :)

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Shopping List

2010-09-10T19:26:00.000+08:00

Gotta get some stuff... i realise tat as she grows, there r some things we cant avoid not buying.... haizzz...

1. NUK Teats (larger size)
2. Rocker
3. Diapers
4. Breast Pads
5. Pigeon Wipes
6. Cotton Buds
7. Squeeze Squeeze (lol)
8. Lotion
9. Powder

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As she grows older, i feel more like a mother

2010-09-04T20:33:00.000+08:00

Celeste will be 3 mths old this mth... time flies... i enjoy every min being with her even thou she enjoys torturing me.. hahaha... went for a forum mommies gathering ytd, all the mommies' EDD is july including myself.. and our babies are either late june like myself or in the mth of july and we've even got babies arriving on the same dates...

After going for that outing, i realise that.. in all mommies' eyes, they only have their child. I see how they worry for their kid, how they enjoy the moments with their child and even thou there are so many cuties arnd, they only have an eye for their own child.. so sweet...

tat applies to me as well... :)

Celeste jus recovered from fever and still recovering from her loss of appetite... i wish everything goes back to normal soon cause she will be having another round of jab this mth... poor girl la.. i wish she dun need to go thru all these...

Well, i feel very happy after the gathering ytd.. those mommies are very different from the other gatherings ive been to.. dunno why.. jus feel diff.. and i feel very ta shi when i chat with them too... we joked, we talked and i never felt bored... :)

altogether 15 mommies and 15 babies... totally enjoyed it la... cant wait for the next one on 25th and we are expecting MORE babies... :)

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I WANT TO VENT

2010-08-29T18:39:00.000+08:00

29 August 2010

Celeste just took her 6 in 1 jab and rota virus.. Fever on and off and feeling all gao wei and fussy, which is normal... PD told us that she will have a loss of appetite for 1 week which will explain why she cannot fall asleep soundly because she is not full.. So, we battled it out. Its ok again cause shes sick, unwell and we are taking care of her with a ultra patient mind.

BUT!!

Its always at this point of time that i feel super gao wei with anything that obstructs her from sleeping... I have been tolerating with my neighbours after numerous trips to their door step asking them to lower their volume. Its very paiseh to do so but! i had to lor... cause its over the boundary and intruding my life liao.

Celeste is finding it hard to fall asleep.. and we battled it out from 4am till 11am this morning. And we both slept from 12pm till 4.30pm with no feeding or waking up.

As she was abt to doze off at 8+am, some dinosaur neighbours upstairs start to walk arnd the house loudly, drag their furnitures arnd.. this is not the first time but this time is EARLY IN THE MORNING. FINE.

Then... upstairs auntie came to my next door neighbour, shouting FROM my unit.. "I AM GOING OUT" (in chinese)... in my mind.. i replied her "U WANNA GO OUT IS UR TAIJI" (she is the 7pm make love that auntie btw) And! my bb woke up from her 2min sleep... -.- Feeling grouchy, she fuss and fuss and i have restart the coaxing routine ALL OVER AGAIN..

Finally she fell asleep, and the downstairs neighbour on his karaoke at 9.30AM!! WTF!! EVERY SUNDAY 9.30am till 11.30am.. Prob if u dun hear his karaoke at that time, he shud be dead. AND my dear princess woke up again from his singing (repeating the same song on and on)... AND I HAVE TO REPEAT THE ROUTINE AGAIN!

Nabei........................................

Ok.. great.. we slept thru and the next door neighbour starts her karaoke.. she stays 3 units away and u can hear her karoke from the lift? downstairs maybe? ITS CRAZY. Ok, im not too angry cause i need to feed her anyway... BUT WHATS ON THESE PPLE's MINDs?

I wish i have the $$ to buy an apartment or condo or semi D... seriously. It is very mind draining having to battle with a sick child and inconsiderate neighbours.

OH YA! my neighbour next door's door is made of HEAVY METAL, GOLD and prob weighs in TONS. They slam their door, they dont close, they slam. mind u.. its THEY. WHOLE FAMILY DOES THAT!!!! Ping Piang.. everyday without fail... their wooden door also weigh in TONS...

Its mental torture esp when i stay at the corridor unit. My ILs prob wont feel it cause they sleep the other side of the house.. and if i complain, they prob think im crazy and gao zeh.. but if they were to sleep in my room for 1 week.. im sure they will go crazy too.

Now 7th month, i cannot bring her out too.. if not, i will bring her to my mom house to hide. at least its quieter there and my mom is very strict on "noise pollution" and disturbing neighbours... she can even not switch on the lights and bathe cause she say the light will shine on neighbour's house..

And hor.. i realise.. celeste can sleep better at my mom's place.. she wont grunt, fuss or wake up easily. Not only at mom's place... my cousin's place and my nanny place also.. Elaine's place too!

Elaine house got dogs, and we were chit chatting in normal indoor voice.. shes ok... but at home..... she will jump up while sleeping, grunts and fuss... Hai.. i have to think of a long term solution.. i wont let this issue prolong if not will affect her wellbeing...

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im a zombie

2010-08-25T14:45:00.000+08:00

25 August 2010

this baby.. a very pang tang baby... hai.. to cut the story short.. i have been battling with her for 3 nights till 5+am.. apparently she has gotten her day and night mixed up. she used to sleep thru the night. after that night of battle, she forgot when is day and when is night. and she keep on drinking almost hourly in the night. sigh.. issit for good or jus another growth spurt?

i need sleep but she needs me.. she is not a deep sleeper like the past and im a light sleeper.. so every grunt she makes, i will wake up... i hope to lose some weight at least to comfort me a little.. hahahhaha..

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Its not getting easier

2010-08-21T14:06:00.000+08:00

21 August 2010

Life is not easy with a baby.. we are always at their mercy...

Last night i jus battled with her till 6am today. Its her first time torturing me in the night.. normally she will jus sleep thru... haizz.. we shall have to see tonight, how it goes..

Going to Elaine's bb's full mth party tomorrow!! Cant wait to see Giselle.. :) Its Celeste's mei mei :)

Next week will be going for her 6 in 1 jab.. heard she will get fever.. hope everything's gonna be alright..

BFing is still going strong and steady for me... And after ytd.. a long discussion with hubby.. i realise how much we love this little girl and how much we are willing to sacrifice for her. And papa finally start making big decisions.. i love being a small woman.. lol..

I havent seem to lose much weight.. i hope i do fast.. keke.. i wanna wear back my clothes... i jus dump 80% of my wardrobe.. cause i dun think i can get back to that size in the next 5 years, esp when im planning for #2 next year....

lol.. ok.. bb's awake.. gtg!

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Vaccine Vaccine Vaccine

2010-08-12T11:57:00.000+08:00

this is one of the most headache thing.. dunno go PD or poly.. haha.. both also can use CDA la.. i think i will bring her for the 6 in 1 with PD first then the rest i will go poly liao.. cause nearer to my house ma.. lol

Life's super bz for me.. last feeding for the day is normally at 1-2am and she will sleep through till morning about 6+am.. im doing so to let her know whats the diff between day and night so she can wean off the night feedings soon.

Wonder whats her weight now.. dunno where i can weigh her besides gg for PD visits.. maybe shud bring her to poly to take a quick check on her weight..

We got quite a few weddings coming up.. need to get some clothes for our lil rascal princess to wear liao.. lol... need to earn some money... pocket money... lol.. any part time job that i can bring my bb along de? HAHAHAHAHA...

Well.. heres some info on vaccines for the MTBs

Heres some links to the vaccines

Polyclinic ctc number and info
http://www.nhgp.com.sg/ourservices.aspx?id=5000000013

Types of vaccines and the after effects
http://childrenimmunisation.com.sg/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=16&Itemid=29

calendar to keep track
http://www.babycenter.com.sg/tools/immunization/

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She gives me mixed emotions

2010-08-05T22:46:00.000+08:00

5 Aug 2010

Right now, celeste is sleeping right beside me.. looking at this peaceful little sweetie makes me smile.. but at times, she makes me angry.. haha..

i get worried with anything wrong that i see on her.. her heat rash, her failed hearing test and many more.. she is the only person in the whole that can make my heart hurt sooo much.. and also the only one that i can sacrifice my life for.

Having a child is very blessed.. raising her is not easy but every minute with her is super super precious. Maybe because i lost Julius, and i learnt to treasure Celeste even more and not take anything too lightly and of coz, not take her for granted.

Its jus like yesterday that i was pregnant.. i lost hopes after i lost Julius... now seeing Celeste lying right next to me, im amazed how a new life can change my life.. I love her way too much to explain.

Daddy's working hard for her, Im sacrificing my time, my life my everything for her.. She is a very blessed child too.

I just hope for a happy family, even if its just the 3 of us.. Next is to have our own roof and make that house a place to spend all our happiness and sorrows together. I hope to have more family days and of coz, a healthy and blessed father and child.

Thank God for this precious gift. Thanks for not neglecting us.

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Plans for Celeste

2010-08-05T00:14:00.000+08:00

I will be putting Celeste in a infant care centre at batok when i get a job and return back to work.. but that will happen in Dec or later, depending on how fast i get a job.

Next, i will need to plan what job i want to get. its no longer a high achievement, high responsibility. My energy will need to go to Celeste first, cause i will continue to take care of her and breast feed her for as long as i can.

Then, i will be trying to look for a place to move if not i cannot make plans for my #3. Since i am putting her in infant care and we are more desperately looking for a place of our own, any place including punggol, we are open to it too.

Yup, this is our plan and we are moving along this line.

I have contacted the infant care, they have vacancies, and i will be subsidized for her fees.. i just need to find a job that can fulfill her needs and my day to day expenditure. Simple life and happy family days is what im going after now..

Celeste, my hubby and my family is my life. I need to work hard to achieve this..

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Motherhood Motherhood

2010-08-01T13:20:00.000+08:00

1 Aug 2010

Of coz it does feels great when bb fall asleep in ur arms.. but its a nightmare when she keep staring at u and doesnt fall asleep even thou she kept on yawning.. haha.. thats my little monster...

i was almost down with flu, i think it was due to the lack of sleep la.. then i dunno what med to eat.. so i jus kept praying.. and heng, the sneezing stopped..

bb loves my blanket.. and whenever she sleeps on my bed, she will cover my blanket.. -_- imagine a small baby using an adult blanket? haha... so i have to monitor her every now and then to make sure she dun kick and play with the blanket when shes asleep...

actually, i hope for a simple dinner or lunch with hubby and celeste at some quiet place where we can chat and i can nurse.. and spend the day arnd there and jus relax. But 7th mth coming.. so im sorta "banned" from bringing monster out.. can go out la, but must be home super early... but i also dun wan la.. later she cranky..

So fast, august liao... i got some things to do... i need to call HDB to enquire about houses.. i also BTO-ed for the Senja flats liao...

I need to spend some time to pack my messy room.. its crampy and messy...

I also need to buy diapers for bb.. need to stock up since we are buying from a bulk purchase supplier..

Also need to make appt with Dr Ang for my pap smear..

Everyday i jus hopes she sleeps deep so i can do my things... but whenever i need to do my things, she always dun sleep -_-

now, i jus wanna sleep whenever shes sleeping and grab some rest before i battle with her.. i dun like to fall asleep while nursing her.. it can be dangerous.. and my milk supply is good but the flow is fast.. so fast that she dun like to drink.. i always make the nursing area super messy and end up i gotta change and shower in the middle of the night sometimes.. but im glad shes growing la..

Alvin has been very tolerant and patient towards us.. esp me... Thanks dear :) i flare at him sometimes when i am battling with her and also lack of sleep.. he jus tiam tiam.. of coz he will angry la.. but he jus tiam tiam... keke.. MUACKS.

I told alvin that i hope to bring celeste out to town during xmas and to some snowy events.. it will be a very nice and sweet family outing ba... :)

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Congrats Elaine~

2010-07-26T19:40:00.001+08:00

my buddy jus delivered to her princess #2 Giselle! she is a month younger than Celeste!.. :) Congrats Elaine!!

jus completed the full mth party.. total shag-ness.. thanks to all our friends for their gifts and ang bao. it really helped us a lot at least to cover the expenses. thanks thanks for all your generosity.

celeste is very naughty, getting more zeng also.. she is drinking more and longer too.. tomorrow is her man yue... Mama and Papa wish Celeste happy man yue.. we wish for your good health and safety. :)

And i realise that she cannot go out too long if not she will get cranky.. ytd we went out to distribute cakes and went temple to pray and an early dinner (thanks fang and edwin for accommodating)... she went home and was still on hyper mode. but going out was necessary ytd if not all the cakes cannot keep too long and alvin only off ytd ma.. :)

Fang and Edwin was supaaaa helpful... i was sooo paiseh to make them wait at the nursing room and having to take lift and even came to fetch us home and pick us up... thanks thanks.. we shall meet again when this monster is older and no need to ma fan so many pple to wait for her... :)

Im loving motherhood... :)

once again, celeste's blog is http://celesteloh.blogspot.com
u can see her pictures there too :)

I think its enough

2010-07-23T16:27:00.000+08:00

i have come to a point where i dun care who reads my blog. i just want to rant it out and i want to jus say it out.

My FIL has been going arnd telling relatives that i dont let him carry baby. and telling me that since bb is born, he havent carry for 2 hours. COME ON!! im doing a total breastfeeding NOT bottle feeding. Baby wake up means wanna drink, drink finish sleep. tell me, wheres the slot? i did carry bb out before she drinks to let him carry and thats when i feel that shes not gg to cry out loud for the next 5 mins.

when bb sleeps, its the time i sleep or do my stuff like laundry and pack the room or clean the room or even take a break la! he walked into my room today while bb jus fell asleep and say.. "WAKE UP, YEYE carry" WTF??? i went back to the room and stop him! i tell him that if she wakes up, she will want to latch and i got things to do! and he say.. "i can carry what" i tell him.. not carry, she will want to DRINK!!

R u crazy or not? How can one person walk into my room and wake a sleeping baby just cause u want to carry???? have u spare a thought for me?

I do confinement myself, i take care of bb myself so i need to plan my time promptly so that i can do my things. i even have a note book to write down what time bb wake up, what time bb feed, how long on each side, and what time bb fall asleep, and even if she poos or pee at that waking time or not. this is for me to monitor if she drinks enough and remind me what time she will wake up by the duration she drank. DONT MESS WITH MY SCHEDULE!

then my neighbour ask if im TBF, i said yes. he opposed and tell me that i should give FM (formula milk) if not bb bones will not be strong. i told him NO. FM is chemical what, where got FM better than BM one?? then he went on and on and on.. and i tell him, NO WAY

he shoot me back ask me how long i want to feed bb BM, and i replied "ONE YEAR"

he gave me that smirk and shake his head!!!!

EH, ITS MY CHILD. U OK BO???

How other pple take care of their child i dont bother. but u dun give me those comments machiam im harming my own kid u know??

my MIL also! she even gave me comments like.. "haiya, cause u not working ma... u can la.. u not working.." in a very sarcastic tone. i had enough la.

this confinement and pregnancy made me see MANY MANY things. so disappointed that i got intention of moving back to my own mom house to stay with bb.

Pple who know me shud know.. u want, u come and tell me.. dun need to relay message to everyone. I HATE IT. i will purposely do opposite for u.. trust me.. i can be nice but just dont step on my tail..

U dun help, nevermind. but DO NOT MAKE THINGS WORSE.

ANd yes, i am going to be putting celeste in a infant care if i return back to work. i think its the best choice.
the other day, FIL carried her and he shake her up and down. i explained that her organs are not stable and he should not shake bb... MIL AND FIL tell me,,, "never shake bb wont grow up"

SIMI NONSENSE!!!

And that is AFTER the news of one bb died when the father shake his bb.. and i even went to tell them its wrong to shake celeste (after seeing FIL shake once before).

So yes, i am sending celeste to infant care. i need a caregiver that is supportive in breastfeeding and i know will let me work in peace.

I am not a bo chap or close one eye person when it comes to my child. i lost my julius last year and i strive thru very hard to have celeste. i wont let anything happen to my child. Taking care of bb is really not like a science experiment, cannot just test test.. wrong liao can redo..

blame me or u can scold me for being such a DIL. but i wont take risk.

Oh no....

2010-07-21T16:58:00.000+08:00

Baby is having longer waking hours, staying alert.. but loves to latch -_-'''
This week's a bz week, i brought her to PD there for her jaundice check up.. and found out a lot more things.. and she got a WHOLE FACE of heat rash.. cause i sarong-ed her and it was very hot.. she came home with rashes.. PD say its normal and it will come and go... but her big day is SATURDAY!!!!

argh, everyone will start asking me why her face like tat.. then going to give me 1001 remedies liao.. but PD say.. it will come and go and do nothing about it. cause bb skin is dedicate... and yeah, im sticking by it la..

i just hope this party faster over.. we still gotta go visitngs on sunday to her ah chor house, ah ma house this house that house...

sigh.. what a day....

Give me some space and peace please..

2010-07-16T00:13:00.002+08:00

Seriously, im not liking this confinement.. not because of the rules.. but because this whole confinement, every weekend sure got happening one.. not that i dont like people to come and visit us... just that, i really need to rest.. and i cannot rest, my rest means, sit on my bed and be quiet.

Its very paiseh if pple come and i dont show bb to them. but on the other hand, bb needs to sleep and eat. At her feeding time, obviously cannot show them. At her sleeping time, esp when shes at her 3rd week growth spurt, shes very light sleeper cause she will auto wake up 1.5 hourly to feed.. she is not having enough rest like when she was a newborn so naturally she will be fussy and cranky. so i try my best to let her sleep as much as she can.

i thought confinement is a time when pple dont come but let the mother and child rest de?

I really hope i can just sit on the bed and do my things and not feeling guilty that i never show face or show bb face... but i got no choice la.. i really need a little space.

Please spare a thought for the new mommy and baby who are both going thru some growing stages together.

Please dont tell me bb stomach got wind or no wind or whatever.. its not that case that i am not sleeping. She is going thru her 2nd round of growth spurt and she will constantly wake up for feeds which will last about 1 week and next spurt will come at her 6th week and this spurts will last for a year. Because im on TBF (total breastfeeding) and no bottles, i have to wake up and feed her (no, im not complaining about that part).

Im perfectly ok to be tired cause somehow we will sleep together for a couple of mins.. but what i need is no commitment, no responsibility (towards entertaining).. meaning, i can do what i want at whatever time i want and i dont have to be pai seh for not doing or doing it.

Please dont ask me to go for bottles. I WILL. but not yet. Yes, i might be going thru the tough way now.. but..... i think at this point when i am right at home with her, i shud be bonding with her and latching her as much as i can. Why should i waste this time when i am right here?

Im sure going to regret if i return to work force should i let her go on bottles at this point.

Its tiring but which mother is not tired when a baby arrive? Tired but i dont think any mommies will throw this responsibility away right? Im sure all mommies are noble IN THEIR OWN WAY

Dont compare, what i am willing to do now, might be something that u are not willing to do. what u are willing to do, might be something i feel i can do more.

jus MYOB and give me my space. thats the best way i can rest.

Watching her grow is such a blessing

2010-07-14T19:25:00.002+08:00

Celeste and mommy are good.. we are getting used to each other, learning each other's cues and loving each other. besides pooing on my hand, she also pee on me.. hahahahaha.. but it brings me a smile la! haha..

When i see her clothes get a little tighter, i will feel very happy.. when i see that i dun need to fold her mittens, i feel very happy.. everyday watching her grow is the best thing that happened to my life.

Hubby and me are very accommodating to baby.. we try our best to give her as much as we can..

Ytd, i asked hubby.. "did u miss baby when u are at work?"
Him: i got think what shes doing lor
Me: u never miss her, never feel gao wei when u go to work meh?
Him: never, cause i know i must work to buy her nice nice things

I think both me and hubby start to have the same goal, same passion and same love :) In fact, he wasnt that accommodating when its jus the 2 of us lor.. hahahaha..

Bringing baby to PD this friday to check on her jaundice. Am trying very hard to sun her but dunno why like no improvement...

I think i will need to spend a lot of time to take care of baby and im getting worried how i am going to teach my niece and nephew... ytd, he couldnt get his spelling right when my SIL tested him. I heard it in the room while i was nursing baby.. Today, i questioned him and he told me because he cannot remember. U know why he cannot remember?

Cause everyday he jus stone arnd in the house waiting for his sister to finish her work and they will play together. Last week, they even turn on the TV and watch cartoon!! i told them off and of coz using my FIL as an excuse but i still told them off..

Right now, bb sleep is also my sleeping time. Baby wake up is milk time. I got not much time left to guide over the 2.. haizz.. headache..

Celeste Bb Shower

2010-07-10T23:25:00.002+08:00

Suppose to get the chalet at cdans but they are fully booked :(
But we managed to get a seminar room at civil service club at batok.. gonna make it a simple affair cause we got not much budget to work with....

OH YA! for friends who are thinking what to get for Celeste... Cash preferred.. haha.. as practical as it may seem but its the most needy thing that she needs! haha.. Really, shes got a lot of clothes and stuff.. keke...

Right now, i am busy with her party things when shes asleep and feeding her when shes awake.. super tiring.. im trying my best to rest as much as i can.. but how much rest is not enuff.. haha..

I need love..

2010-07-09T23:04:00.000+08:00

sounds weird? hahaha.. ya!! i need love man.. our love all give to celeste liao.. even our anniversary also can forget! from morning till night, we are all surrounding her.. feed her, change her, clean her, make her sleep and we barely have time to sit down and discuss things.. but we are enjoying it la.. just not used to it.. soon soon, we will get the hang of it..

she is having growth spurts and will wake up hourly even thou she had a lot the last feed.. what i read is that, it will normally last for 2 days or max 1 week.. but it seems like forever! haha..

i dunno which way to let her sleep.. side ways? on her back? she has been good with side ways but recently, she tries to turn and fidget arnd.. so we let her try her back.. and shes ok with it wor.. but still will turn her every now and then...

she loves to be swaddled but my room is too hot and i see some heat rash on her legs (since im swaddling her without her hands).. so i decided to remove the swaddle every now and then and put it back every now and then... see, the prob is.. she dislike fan.. so we cannot blow directly at her or even near her.. then the room is hot.. and she got heat rash.. so right now, we shall do what is best for her lor..

i feel quite bad when guests comes to my place to visit us.. cause bb keep sleeping and drinking.. she has no time to entertain pple.. if its time to feed and i carry her out, she will not be happy and cry.. after i feed her, shes all sleepy and i need to let her sleep.. so where got chance? bo pian la.. see how it goes..

im trying to catch some sleep when shes sleeping but her growth spurt waking ups is making me a super light sleeper that i dun even know i slept or not.. hahaha..

i think this is just the beginning of motherhood but we are definitely loving it la..

Eat Shit Sleep..

2010-07-06T16:04:00.002+08:00

thats my bb's hobby!!

ok, after using hand express before feed and burping bb every now and then.. we are back to normal!!! i got pump out if she never feed on that side and throw away the milk cause my fridge is too contaminated to store BM (breast milk).. since i wont be bottle feeding baby, theres no need to store milk so soon...

ok!! baby shower location settled! now its time for ordering food for catering and the mini mini things.. :)

Fast and Furious!

2010-07-04T02:57:00.002+08:00

Im glad that milk have set in and i am having a good supply of milk for bb.. but... im experiencing fast letdown reflex on my right breast.. meaning to say... the flow of the milk is super fast.. how fast? er.. the milk SHOOT on my bb face.. she couldnt take the flow and she let go and it just... PSST....

then i wet my shorts too..

i was so upset cause today bb's drinking schedule went a bit haywire and cause she wet her favourite swaddle.. she was using another one which she could adapt to it.. and it was raining.. and her fav swaddle cannot dry in time!!!!!! so she kept waking up..

so i decided to pump the milk out and bottle feed her just to make sure that she gets enough fluid and she will be able to pass out urine to clear her jaundice..

she was not very comfy with the bottle.. but after much coxing, she was able to drink what i pumped.. :) after that, her feed schedule was ok liao.. but then.. i jus tried my right breast again and it start to shoot again.. so i tried the hand express method to express some milk out until the flow is slow and steady then latch her.. and it works!

im so happy that she got some fluid and i pray hard her jaundice is clear soon....

Celeste has a blog!

2010-07-02T23:48:00.002+08:00

I have created a blog for Celeste... thought it will be nice if i can show it to her when she grows up :) Her updates, developments are all posted there... but its still not fully done yet.. im doing it whenever i have time (like when shes sleeping).. haha.. please be patient

http://celesteloh.blogspot.com

Went to the PD today and got her checked. Jaundice still there, PD say most likely to clear after 1 - 2 weeks.. Celeste weighed 2.4kg upon discharge and today, shes weighing 2.745kg :) thats like.. 375g in 6 days.. i hope she continue to put on weight and stay healthy.

Realise that she dont have clothes to wear.. all too big for her even thou its newborn size. Heng i got buy some from some forum pple, the newborn size is very small and she can wear.

I also need to buy long sleeves shirt and pants for her cause she dont like cold.. maybe cause she is a baby, and in our tummy, shes always in a warm temperature. Now, shes wearing a slightly bigger newborn size long sleeves cause its quite cold today...

Oh, i also went to ICA today and tried bfing in public for the first time today! Not a smooth sailing one but managed to let her drink her fill and let her sleep all the way till she reach home.. Got my CDA and baby bonus done too! Celeste have IC number liao! lol

Went Jurong Safra to get Alvin's membership done so that we can book the chalet for her full month. It was raining so we dropped the idea of gg kiddy palace at JP to buy her clothes and head straight home.

We also used the stroller for the first time.. not bad.. just that we were not shopping around.. so we had to open and close the stroller.. we were rushing everywhere cause ICA close early, PD got appointment de.. i hope we can bring her go vivo or something soon then we can push her everywhere we go.. :)

Parenthood aint easy, but alvin and i are enjoying it... thou tiring but the bonding is very strong. Alvin even stayed up to help me take care of bb while i grab an hour of nap after several days of intermittent naps (like 30 mins?) .. some days, i only slept for 3 hours... But it was a good sleep.. at least i got my energy back a little. but poor alvin is very tired.

He wrote me a very sweet note and im very thankful that his around.. I hope we can soon bring Celeste to zoo, bird park and have our own family time.

Alright, need to prep for the next feeding.. will update whenever i have time...!

I am a kan cheong first time mommy..

2010-07-01T12:58:00.002+08:00

Maybe due to the lack of sleep.. i cant seem to get the focus right. but with the help of friends and some research, im more relaxed.. tmr gg to see PD and clear my doubts further. pray hard that celeste's jaundice level will be back to normal...

Some things i learnt...

realise that celeste is a bit diff today.. she didnt take 2 sides of breast for 20 mins.. instead, she took one side for about 15 mins. then she will wake up about an hour later for the other side.. i was worried that she is not getting enuff. so i went to surf a bit..

i am have a fast let-down, sometimes celeste cannot catch up also.. and i read from babycenter webby that if fast let-down, bb can finish her full "set" of milk as quick as 10 mins.. :) so relieved to hear that..

"Why do I need to know how fast my let-down is?
You don’t need to know but you will find it helpful because the speed of your let-down dictates how long it will take your baby to get enough milk out of your breasts to get a full feed (rather than a snack). If you have a fast let-down your baby may be able to get all the milk he needs in as little as 10 minutes, but if your let-down is slow you will know that your baby needs to stay awake and feed for a great deal longer than this."

First Time Mommy Aint Easy!

2010-06-30T14:05:00.004+08:00

30 June 2010

P.s: scroll down further for my labour story :)

Wow... its really not easy being a first time mommy wor.. Celeste is 3 days old now.. and she is on total breast feeding...

I am giving her feeds every 2 - 2.5 hours.. But in the afternoons, i try to give her every 1.5 hours and mostly 2 - 2.5 hours in the nights.. she feeds on each side for about 20 mins.. but after some advices and baby's habits, i am letting her latch on one side for 20 mins at least then switch to another side for as long as she wants but also exceeding 20 mins.. PD say her reserves will be used up by now and i need to feed her more.

First 2 days in the hospital, she dun have signs of jaundice, but upon discharge, she was tested jaundice level at 8.8.. thou mild but i have to let her drink more to expel the jaundice in her..

I havent been sleeping cause i am trying my best to give her as much as possible. but i know rest more will have more milk, so alvin will take over when he wakes up and i will sleep until shes ready for her next feed..

It is very tiring but very joyful to be a mother. When i see her, all the pain and worries jus disappear. Im glad hubby is arnd to support me thruout.. :)

Heres Celeste Loh Yun Ting (Luo Wan Ting)

p.s. : its really tough to take picture of her with her eyes open.. cause when shes alert, im bz breastfeeding.. haha.. after she finish her feed, she will be all relaxed and doze off.. pictures below.. alert level is.. 75% - 80 %..

Enjoy...

Welcome Celeste!

2010-06-27T14:49:00.003+08:00

Baby Celeste poped this morning via emergency csect
Weighing 2.605kg, 47cm

Our love and looks jus like her daddy!! Will update my 16 hours long labour story soon!!

My Labour Story

2010-06-26T10:30:00.005+08:00

26 June 2010 - 27 June 2010

730am - reached TMC, was asked to go into the delivery ward.. once i reach here, i was asked to change into the gown then hubby go and do administration things... then he went to have bfast with francis while i stay here..

- Shaved there a bit
- Pump in some medication to poo poo
missy ask me to try and tahan for 10 mins... but i not yet 5 mins alr buay tahan liao.. hahaha
- went to poo
and jus wait and wait...

9am - dr ang came after a csect and he inserted a pill inside for contractions and asked to remove my ctg in about 20 mins time and bed rest for another hour if not the pill will drop... so i jus waited lor.. i THOUGHT can walk arnd.. but cannot wor... so upset

1010am - went to pee and start surfing net in the delivery ward with contractions coming on and off.. waiting for dr ang to come at 12+pm to burst my water bag...

1040am - took a delifrance tuna sandwich.. missy say later contraction get stronger jiu cannot eat liao.... then i faster eat... heard that later i will be on drip.. u know what i fear MOST?? its DRIPS!!!!!

Alright... all those stated above are typed and saved bit by bit when i was still sane.. haha..

After that, i was stuck in the observation ward for 16 hours.. no walking, and total confine on bed.. contractions came as close as per min but wasnt very dilated.. then waited and waited and waited.. till about 11pm.. i was only 5 cm dilated..

Dr Ang was quite sure that i will continue to dilate and since Celeste is small, we prob can get her out when im 7cm..

but i didnt want to take any risk leaving her inside with my water bag burst 16 hours ago even thou her heart beat is still strong...

so i decided to go for emergency csect with GA (meaning, put to sleep)

i was very upset and disappointed.. i really wanna deliver her naturally can hear her cry.. when i delivered Julius, i was fully dilated in 4 hours after water bag burst.. but not for Celeste.. Missy tell me that she is choosing time to come out.. sigh...

i was pushed to OT.. then i told the dr doing GA for me..

"when will i wake up?"
"when u deliver finish, u will wake up"
"ok.."

then it was all drama.. 2 assistants, 1 dr doing GA for me and when i was half drowsy, i saw dr ang in his op suite.. then i was being masked and keep asking me to breathe in and i was so scared they dunno im awake so i kept making noise until i konk off..

next thing i woke up, what i saw was ceiling.. dunno where i am but i could hear voices.. so i said (in my super duper drowsy mode)

"Where am i?"
"u are at the OT, waiting for nurses to come and pick u up?"
"Hows baby?"
"Baby is good, they sent her to the nursery"
"Wheres my husband?"
"They are all waiting for u.."

Then the nurses came and pushed me back to my ward.. then when i saw alvin, i asked him for baby again..

"Baby look like who?"
"Baby look like alvin!" (my SIL voice)

then i was carried from one bed to another.. and i was screaming in pain cause i got no pain killer on and my wound is still fresh.. Alvin say he hear my scream he also scared.. and yes, the pain is like ur skin tearing apart..

then i kinda regain back a bit... but i rested till 430am and baby was pushed in to my ward.. Celeste jus finish her warmer session and i latched her on..

Seeing her in my arms.. whatever pain also gone.. I finally have a small family with my husband. I finally gave him our creation and materialized this pregnancy...

Announcing the arrival of Baby
Celeste Loh Yun Ting
(Luo Wan Ting)
Birth Weight : 2.605kg
Length : 47cm
Date of Birth : 27 June 2010

25 June 2010 - Stomach Cramps

2010-06-25T21:03:00.002+08:00

Had cramps since morning... its not the normal braxton hicks but more like menstrual cramps...
at first, i tot its poo poo pain, so i jus went to poo.. then still pain, so i tot its gastric.. so i went to have food... then still pain but i keep telling myself that its not contraction...

spoke to esther on the phone and was telling her i wanna get some stuff.. so met her at JP to buy them... with the on and off cramps, we managed to shop for abt 3 hours.. and i reached home about 5+pm... then i still have cramps so decided to call dr ang clinic and was asked to go see him...

dr ang checked me baby is ok, water level is good, bb is at 2.7kg and im slightly dilated. after some discussion, we decided to play safe and choose to induce bb tomorrow morning at TMC.

Please pray for our safety... will update my labour story soon!

:)

The Dad Is More Kan Cheong Than Me!

2010-06-25T10:49:00.002+08:00

last night, hubby was massaging my swollen legs and hands.. and he suddenly spoke between my legs and say... "Baby Girl, where is papa hands?" and without fail, Celeste starts her search left and right... then hubby say.. "there, follow the sound and come out and u can find papa hands liao... u come out, papa will kiss u, carry u and play with u.."

Aiyo... so sweet la!

Then i started laughing and can feel that baby is drilling there.. then he say.. "u faster come out, papa wanna play with u..."

haha.. and i think he lost himself that he kept talking between my legs and i start to laugh...

He is very very anxious and hoping that baby can pop like.. NOW.. haha.. but im glad his around to love baby... :) I know he will be a great dad.

Please be considerate

2010-06-20T21:59:00.002+08:00

U know... pregnant woman will be seriously sensitive to certain smell.. and we will puke the moment we smell it.

Example.. alvin bought maggie goreng for me ytd but the uncle packed mee goreng instead.. and i am very sensitive to the yellow ghee taste but i was too hungry and decided to swallow it. i ended up feeling super terrible and i had to sleep 45 degrees so that i dun puke.

i really hope there are more sensitive pple arnd or pple, please be more sensitive and understanding. its very irritating and annoying when u really cannot control the pukey feeling. and when they are most aware of it.. yet...

sometimes, i really dun wanna post such things in my blog. but heck, this is my blog. i write what i wanna write, i say what i wanna say. like it or not, its my blog. dun like, dun see.. i shudnt be sensitive to pple who are insensitive.

there are more things that i will be writing soon.. once im more prepared to share, i will start saying it out straight. whether i start offending pple or not, i seriously cannot be bothered anymore.

Almost there

2010-06-19T13:54:00.002+08:00

19 June 2010

Dr Ang is having his holidays and will be back next tues.. so cross fingers ah... baby celeste is so far so good.. shes been very cooperative recently except for the on off contractions that i have in the mornings.. i didnt eat the medication that Dr Ang give to stop contraction cause i wanna let nature take its course for the contraction part.. (actually, i cant wait for her to come out la.. hahahaha)

So far, i've done most of what i wanna do except my eye brow.. shall do it next week and im ready for the tedious confinement..

i might not be able to complete the food craving list.. but i chao chao must eat the chwee kuay la... the taste keep lingering in my mouth lei... okok.. set.. monday i shall go and eat....

i got take pictures.. but... lazy to upload.. okok.. shall do that soon too...

keke..

See no evil, hear no evil

2010-06-18T18:31:00.002+08:00

These few days, i got hit by a few disappointing events and unbearable scenes.. It woke me up and make me think if its all worth it. And now, here i am, choosing what i want to see, hear and do. This pregnancy make me realise many things and make me know what i want after this chapter of life.

No point getting annoyed by other pple things.. of coz, pple annoy me and being someone close to us, it makes me feel even more disappointed. But its ok, they made their stand, i made my stand. If not for my mom, i dont think i can even walk thru these unhappy incidents. But at least now, im clear of where im heading and what i plan to do. And even more certain.

After all these, i rather spend time out alone, doing things i wanna do and make myself happy. So i went for a hair cut, pedicure and eat food that i want to eat.

I also spent more time with hubby going to airport for a little getaway and chit chat..

To be honest, im physically very strained but to be happier, i decided to drag this tired body out and at least im happier. Poor hubby had to accommodate to me and making him even more tired.

We cant wait for Celeste's arrival and shower her with our love. Nothing is more precious than parental love. Finally, hubby and i have our own family. We will work hard together to make this a happy and xin fu family.

Gearing up!!

2010-06-12T16:38:00.004+08:00

12 June 2010

2 more Saturdays and we can see Celeste!!!! Super anxious..

Im done with the cleaning up, now have to re pack my hospital bag and see what i had miss out... then next week, i plan to do some stuff and beautify myself so Celeste wont get to see an auntie mommy.. hahaa

Trim my fringe and dry ends
Mani Pedi - cause i cant reach my toes now...
Eyebrows

All these to be done and get ready for the dirty and oily 1 mth confinement!! wahaha.. at least i must be able to tie up my hair, dun look so fatigue.. haha

i also need to contact my massage lady to come massage for me during my confinement.. if u want her contact, jus drop me a msg on my tagboard ok? Shes good.. i like her.. used her last year and will be using her this time round too..

Braxton Hicks

Had been getting this at least once a day, at the same time (when i wake up)... it feels like u wanna LS, and gonna have a long war in the toilet, but when u go toilet.. nothing comes out... haha.. i tot i had food poisoning at first.. then i realise that its BH! So now, i bo chap, i jus let it pain, count the duration and interval and forget about gg toilet to try..

And my MIL says.... "its wind heaty" -_-''' how to explain to her what is BH lei? hmm.. a bit tough.. so i jus let it be ba...

BH is like a rehearsal for the actual contractions.. it prepares ur body for the actual thing.

Quoted from http://www.babycenter.com/0_braxton-hicks-contractions_156.bc

"In the days or weeks before labor, Braxton Hicks contractions may intermittently become rhythmic, relatively close together, and even painful, possibly fooling you into thinking you're in labor. But unlike true labor, during this so-called false labor the contractions don't grow consistently longer, stronger, and closer together."

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Braxton_Hicks_contractions

"Braxton Hicks contractions are a tightening of the uterine muscles for one to two hours and are thought to be an aid to the body in its preparation for birth. Not all expectant mothers have these contractions. They are thought to be part of the process of effacement of the cervix."

Nesting Instincts

2010-06-10T20:37:00.002+08:00

10 June 2010

have u heard of this? (Fang, if u think hiccups is amazing, this is lagi amazing)

Recently, i keep having the urge to clean up the room esp the tiny corner where the baby cot is.. wherever can be dirty, but not baby's cot, underneath the cot, the fan above it and the wall behind it.. so i told hubby that we are gg to clean up the walls of the room, disinfect it with dettol..

And u know what? i was surfing the net about it (cause i happen to read abt it before).. and i realise that daddies also have nesting instincts de lei.. and i suddenly recalled alvin telling me.. he wants to wash the fan and he will not smoke in the room from Sat onwards and he will throw all the ashtrays in the room.. O.O!!!

Well, heres a link to the article of nesting instincts.. and i have quoted a bit from the site so that u all can have a quick look :)

its interesting and good to share..

http://www.pregnancy-calendars.net/nesting.aspx

"This is a primal instinct and all the females of almost every species in the world will go through this same instinct in one way or another. It is also an old wives tale that this is one of the signs that labor is going to set in shortly. Females of the animal kingdom are all equipped with this same need. It is a primal instinct. Just as you see birds making their nests, mothers-to-be do exactly the same thing"

"Nesting brings about some unique and seemingly irrational behaviors in pregnant women and all of them experience it differently. Women have reported throwing away perfectly good sheets and towels because they felt the strong need to have "brand new, clean" sheets and towels in their home. They have also reported doing things like taking apart the knobs on kitchen cupboards, just so they could disinfect the screws attached to the knobs. Women have discussed taking on cleaning their entire house, armed with a toothbrush. There seems to be no end to the lengths a nesting mother will go to prepare for her upcoming arrival."

"This unusual burst of energy is responsible for women ironing anything in the house that couldn't out run them. Being preoccupied with ant killing, squishing them one at a time for weeks on end. Packing and unpacking the labor bag 50 times. Cleaning the kitchen cupboards and organizing everything by size to the point"

And guess what? im starting to have more intense pain due to Braxton Hicks! I will tell u more in my next post and also share with u what i have bought for Celeste and also my weekly CTGs :)

Cant wait to see my baby girl!!

2 weeks more to conquer all the food.. WAHAHA

2010-06-09T16:12:00.003+08:00

Before i deliver and go thru the confinement food, i decided to list down the food that i wanna eat before i deliver.. i shall eat them with ah lao... wahaha... its a promise to myself!!

1. Tiong Bahru Chwee Kuay
2. Char Kuay Teow
3. Ba Teng and porridge - done
4. Nasi Lemak Ikan Bilis with Chilli - done
5. Prawn Noodles Soup
6. Fish and Chips - done
7. Lor Mee
8. Chicken Rice with chilli

Gynae Check Up!!

2010-06-08T20:36:00.003+08:00

Went to visit the gynae today... :) Our Celeste is weighing 2.5kg at 34weeks 3 days.. Dr Ang say that baby is in a healthy weight range.. :) As for me, no weight gain...!! As of today, i only gained 4.5kg nia.. wonder why my bb gained the weight from...

Anyway.. was given admission letter and was asked to admit when i have signs of labour.. (Hear liao also kan cheong right??)

I was put on CTG and was asked to come back to clinic weekly for CTG till i deliver.. While we are on CTG, we heard the heart beat and suddenly there was a "pomp".. haha.. cause our darling girl punched the CTG device.. haha.. she also tried to use her leg to sweep it away and we could hear brushing noise.. haha.. so cute la..

Gynae told me that i am ready for delivery as bb's head is down liao.. induction can take place at week 37 too.. All of us got very excited.. kekekee

Gynae will be away next week for 5 days.. then i will be back to see him again :) Soon.. Soon i will be posting Celeste's pic le!! haha

Oh Oh.. Celeste was sucking thumb when we saw her on ultrasound!

Cant wait.. please pray for our safety ok? Thanks!!

This is not jus funny nia.. u really gotta watch this.. lol

2010-06-02T22:43:00.002+08:00

Me and Alvin burst into laughter and i was laughing so badly that i had to hold my tummy..

Soon Soon

2010-05-29T12:33:00.002+08:00

29 May 2010

Been so tired recently that i seldom blog, msn or fb... Most of the time, i try to keep myself occupied with housework so as not to become to lazy... but hor.. sleep is becoming a real big prob for me la.. its so tough to get to sleep and i can only stay in one position the entire night :(

Another 3-4 weeks, we will be seeing Celeste in person!! Excited, anxious and a bit lost.. hahaha... i wonder if i can cope with education my ILs with what i want for Celeste since im staying with them and i know there will be tons of conflicts and they wont quite understand if i tell them that... baby shud not be fed with water for the first 3 mths cause they will be full because of water and hence causing weight to drop... And... what if bb cries too much and they think that its wind but actually its colic and we actually cannot do much about it and it will naturally pass?

Furthermore, i am staying with them.. and they will be watching us the entire time? Haizz...

Anyway, i think we are more or less ready for her arrival liao.. jus need to collect diapers from Elaine and i think we are more or less done. :)

Been a bz month for me as im doing a lot of gatherings and lunchies with friends before i pop... and not forgetting the preparation for exams for my niece at the beginning of the mth.. so im quite drained actually... plus the lack of sleep...

OH YA! my neighbours + the construction downstairs is driving me C R A Z Y! ytd, hubby jus reminded me of the lift upgrading works at the end of the year.. -__-''' well.. i hope its jus my hormones making me feel this way man...

Next appt with gynae, i will be in my 35th week liao.. i hope we have some positive news on when i can deliver Celeste and most imptly, her weight is acceptable to deliver anytime!! haha...

ok... im going to get my lunch now... *hungry*

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Our Celeste - 31 Weeks

2010-05-18T13:59:00.003+08:00

18 May 2010

Well done child! U are weighing at 1.6kg at 31 weeks!

I asked gynae if we can opt to induce bb.. cause i got this phobia of bb in my tummy.. i always feel that its not safe... so we are all KIV-ing till 37th week and see how it goes... But ah lao say we leave the decision to our angel - Dr Ang.

Anyway.... 6 more weeks to go~~~~~

Got most of my stuff prepared.. and we are officially quite broke! haha... im serious! Remember the stroller i was talking about? Esther got a good lobang to get it cheaper than retail.. and ya, its cheaper and with my close monitor on that model's price... the last promo was with a store at $295 and after that sale, i dun see the same price at any of the retail outlets... i was feeling very ai wan that time for not buying it early...

now that i got another chance, and ah lao and myself likes it.. i think we shudnt drag liao.. we dunno when's the next sale and if the sale has that model or not... but overall, savings of $70.. :)

ok.. now that we are broke, we have to spend a little lesser and save a little more...

Me -- tired, sleepy and having difficulties walking long distance... with the bump in front of me... its not funny at all lor... its really heavy.. not forgetting the weight coming from water bag and my own water retention.. but.... 6 more weeks... i will try my best to overcome!

Happy Birthday To Meeee

2010-05-11T12:03:00.002+08:00

11 May 2010

This year's birthday is pretty quiet and peaceful... As i need to help my niece to prep her exams, hubby and i decided to celebrate it at a later date... kids exams are more impt at this moment...

Recd 2 birthday cards from the kiddos and it was a pleasant surprise (even thou i knew they did it).. i told them to give me to me ytd instead of Sat.. haha... then i read the msg.. ya.. my niece has grown up to love herself and others compared to the previous years where she feels that shes isolated... can tell by the way she writes and expresses... as for the boy, hmm... that passion and drive he used to have seems to be lost... i need to find his passion back... i need to do that seriously...

Anyway.. with a nice spider man cake from the nearby store and family birthday song... the birthday was a nice one with laughter :)

Thanks for all the well wishes... my wish is very simple.. i hope to see the results very soon... :)

Going for gynae on friday to see my girl.. cant wait!! :)

Cheong for another round of BTO

2010-05-06T13:13:00.004+08:00

BOON LAY GROVE!!!

Layout for the rooms is the same as SIL's new house.. but for the kitchen layout is different.. :)

And its near Elaine house i think!!

Estimated Possession is Dec 2014 depending on the speed of completion.. Almost the same time as Limbang Green..

300 units of 4rm to be BTO-ed, Price range is about $239k - $287k (92 sq ft)

Some little things to share Part 1

2010-05-04T13:15:00.005+08:00

4 May 2010

Decided to share with my friends and readers on some pregnancy tips.. Many times, we tend to frighten ourselves with many things that we dont know or things that we hear from people.. For me, i usually will do some reading and research and believe in what sounds logical to me... Those myths or things that dun sound logical to me, i will just listen and not take it to heart...

So i decided to share with some things i read and hope u will gain as much i did.. :)

**for those who are male or not pregnant now... it would be useful for u to know to prep urself ok? haha...

How does contraction feel and how ur body helps u to deliver ur precious...?
Article taken from
http://ezinearticles.com/?What-Do-Labor-Contraction-and-Labor-Pains-Feel-Like?&id=492295

Some notes that i copied from the article (for lazy readers... lol)

Labor is said to begin when your uterus starts to contract regularly. In the days before the onset of labor, you may experience minor contractions that feel like tightening, and cause discomfort rather than pain. These contractions are important in aligning and positioning the baby for birth.
The first labor pains are grinding, scattered and irregular. Many women describe it as bad menstrual pains. The first labor pains are usually felt in the front site of the pelvis and groin. Pain is mainly caused by pressure on the abdominal and pelvic area due to powerful uterine contractions and stretching of the cervix, vagina and perineum. During labor, contractions increase in frequency and intensity and can become painful.

As labor proceeds, the pains start to appear in the abdomen. The cervix has to stretch to allow your baby to eventually pass through your birth canal. When the opening to the cervix is fully dilated, the second stage of labor - during which your baby is born - starts. As the baby's head advances further, pains are commonly felt at the back, hip and groin area. When the baby's birth is near, stretching of the perineum causes burning sensations. At this stage many women feel like they are going to burst. Majority of them, however, suffer only minor tears, if any, especially if good laboring positions and movement have been used to help the baby to rotate and find the easiest way out.

The baby passes through your birth canal and is born by a combination of the continuing contractions of your uterus, and your conscious effort to push your baby out by using the abdominal muscles. The physical and mental relief after vigorous laboring, and the ecstasy of getting your baby in your arms, are such a victory and pleasure that the last stage of labor - which is the birth of the placenta - is often unnoticed by the mother. As the placenta is much smaller than the baby is, and the birth canal is open, the uterine contractions push the placenta out easily.

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Im Thinking...

2010-05-02T14:15:00.002+08:00

2 May 2010

Im thinking thru and planning some things... I think, in life, we have a lot of decisions to make.. small or big.. long term or short term... but with a kiddo coming into our lives in 9 weeks' time.. every step we take must be a well thought one.

I weighed my priorities, i know what i want.. but i dunno what to do... ironic huh?

Every morning when i wake up and every night before i sleep.. i will monitor Celeste's movements and start thinking about life again. Not only for the little girl, but also for my husband, my family... Sometimes, i jus hope that i am the little woman and jus worry about little things.. haha..

im tired la.. tired cause im in my 3rd trimester.. and i can only plan and think but cannot execute. must waiiitttt until 2 mths later then can execute... so many things to keng...

i hope someone can just tell me what i shud do and i jus execute.. haha.. im THAT tired..

Anyway.... 9 more weeks!!! Please pray hard for me and Celeste ok? Lets materialize this and make it happen!

2010-04-26T18:47:00.002+08:00

27 April 2010

10 more weeks to go!!!

Im very tired la.. everyday jus wanna sleep.. but also happy and excited that Celeste will be arriving soon! :)

Thinking about a lot of things recently.. about future, about finding a roof, about many things.. well.. i think i really need to think hard and plan well..

i start to think of the happy times i had in ocbc and with my adventus sales colleagues.. how i enjoyed my life, work and everything i did. and the days i work hard till wee hours in ocbc and with a loving husband sitting there waiting for me. He was even given permission by my VP to go up to the office after seeing him sitting downstairs for hours waiting for me..

Now, with new priorities in life. i must set things right again.

there are some things i wish to leave behind... and some that i will bring along.. most importantly, a peace of mind, a clear view, a serious goal. drilling down to specific short term goals to achieve a long term goal. so that my goals wont be such a general "statement"...

some pple, some statements, some happenings.. i will just close my eyes and walk by.. i wont wanna see and hear anything that will tear me down. cause i wanna move on and up.

Dino has been standing still for a year. Dino needs to stand back up and walk towards what i dream of. And if i wanna make dreams come true. i have to wake up.

REST is the only task

2010-04-22T19:34:00.003+08:00

Yeah, i know.. i need to rest.. but i still got a lot of things for me to complete before i can rest. Now that its almost done. I can finally heed advice and go rest!

Messy month, nope, i didnt MIA. Due to lack of rest, my energy level is super low. Even if i get to sell things on my blog, its alvin who does the mailing for me.. and me? i just have to rest.. cause i need to before things get serious like.. depression!!

I dun dare to rely on pills even thou dr say its safe for pregnancy... cause i still think its not safe.. and when it goes on and on... dino no sleep...

So dino needs to rest now.

More work to be done..

2010-04-19T17:18:00.002+08:00

Bazaar was ok, everything went well.. Dino's tired...

Space constrain is giving me a big headache.. in fact, i got temptations of just getting a 2nd hand flat cause.. right now, i feel that im fitting a 3 person living necessities into 1 3-rm flat guest room.. My MIL got ask me if we can get a 2nd hand flat, but i told her about the initial payment la... But actually i think.. im really cramping myself too much le.

Anyway, after gathering all the goods, its time for sterilizing! and... washing.. and sun-tanning my bb clothes... this is more tiring than jus buying lor...

i wish... i wish i can do something abt all these..

Mini Papa

2010-04-17T00:51:00.004+08:00

17 April 2010

Tada!!
Ms Celeste with her OMG, Alamak, Bu yao pai wo pose...
lol..

*btw, gynae was pressing on her nose.. thats why her nose looks... squashy.. lol..

Weighing 961g... Ms Celeste Loh!

Cant wait... 11 more weeks!

2010-04-13T14:51:00.002+08:00

Im jus left with confinement stuff to buy...
As for the stroller.. haha.. im putting it on wish list for full mth!!
Lets be realistic.. we dun wanna be getting things that we dont need during bb showers.. So ang baos is definitely the BEST choice. :)

Anyway, i dunno if im able to organise a bb shower for Celeste cause if she decides to pop on the 40th week, her full mth will be on the lunar 7th mth.. if this happens, we will not be having bb shower le.. cause not good to bring bb out during this "season"...

If bb decided to pop a week earlier, then good.. we can go ahead with our plans! Not a major or fanciful one cause i dun wanna tire myself out la.. a simple affair with some close friends and some relatives will do...

Im taking a rest for now... cause have to build up all my energy for my niece's exams.. i cross my fingers and pray very very hard that the lift upgrading will be a swift and silent one.

See, a lot of pple are telling me to relax and dun worry too much about the lift upgrading. I wont worry if i dun have a newborn with me... and im definitely not that sort that will think only when things happen. u can say i think too much, but its better than not thinking. I have to plan and decide on my things everyday. I cannot afford to wait and see what happens.. and i dun have much choice/solutions cause i cant possibly be moving to my mom's place which will cause even more inconvenience. If i have a lot of choices/alternatives, i dun even need to worry.

Whats more.. the lift will be installed right in front of my room.. not a few units away.. its jus in front.

If i bo chap about things.. i tell u.. im a gone case now. After marriage.. ur life evolves arnd answering for ur actions to many people for many things. Why wait until things happen and u have to suddenly change ur decision and make urself unhappy about it?

For this issue, i know what i need to do.. agar agar.. but i jus need to call the town council and ask for the duration of the upgrading before i decide.

After i deliver Celeste, i need to make some adjustments to my life to make it better. I need to untie some knots to make it smoother. But im keeping an open date.. and but i will look look see see and think think.

Shopathon

2010-04-10T00:49:00.002+08:00

Im pretty drained.

I need bed rest. But i still got a lot of things havent do.

Forgetful.. Forget handphone, forget this forget that..

I tot my waterbag leak today somemore.. heng ah... shun shun li li ping ping an an...

85% of bb stuff bought. Im officially broke.. lol..

Emo Emo Emo

2010-04-07T12:59:00.003+08:00

Yeah, the emo starts to step in again..

Walking into the 3rd tri next week, i can feel that my mood swings are getting too fast and furious.. Maybe also because of the lack of sleep im having now.. things are getting worse..

Its again to the time when i dunno if i will have energy even thou i said to get some things done by a certain time frame.. So now, i try to do things whenever i can...

I havent got a lot of things for bb and i know i need another shopping session with ah lao to get them. There are many questions in my mind and decisions to make..

When shud i get the bb cot delivered?
- MIL say no setting up of furniture in my room when im preg
- Will i have enuff space?
But i need the cot to place the stuff and pack the drawers that comes with the cot...

When shud i start buying the milk bar freezer?
- Cause of hygiene reasons, we need to get one to store milk.
At first i tot i wont be pumping milk, at least for the 1st mth.. but... but... what if i really need to? And with the confinement, can i run arnd to get these stuff?

I have some things that i havent buy.. like.. confinement essentials - pads, da feng cao, disposable panties..

Baby stuff - New set of clothes for discharge, mittens and booties, mattress and bed sheet for cot...

I wrote down a list of things.. theres abt 20 over items i need to get..

Im looking for energy.. Even my walking speed is detolerating lor.. OMG...

Time pass very fast hor..

2010-04-04T14:39:00.003+08:00

4 April 2010
Dino is in her 25th week of pregnancy! 13 more weeks to go.....
Baby is ok.. but giving me a hard time sleeping.. im very lack of sleep now.. lol

We had been bz shopping arnd and preparing for our new arrival..

Baby Cot cum Play pen
We happened to go IMM la.. then saw this cot.. adjustable and can let bb stand inside in future.. usual price is $900.. but cause its a display set.. so we are having a 60% off? ya.. after much much much consideration, since we didnt even intend to have one initially, we decided to have it lor.. :)

Stroller..
We went to test drive.. lol.. and we decide to have the S705 Capella stroller... but not gg to buy so soon cause we are almost broke! lol.. prob get it after bb pop.. still looking for the cheapest bargain.. :) Mkt price is about $369...

Went to giant at IMM to get some breast pads at a cheaper price than kiddy palace..
also bought swaddle and blanket for bb girl..

As for my blogshop.. hmm.. ok la.. got some customers.. slow and steady...
I will be going for the house bazaar to sell my loots on the 18 April at Yishun.. there will be some mommies (total of 12 stalls), selling bb goods!! And.. its FOC for sellers.. no need to pay rental fee or anything like tat.. :) YAY...
If u are interested to go there to buy stuff.. do pop by at

date: 18th april 2010 (Sunday)
time: 2pm -6pm
add: blk 281 yishun st 22 #01-370

Items that will be selling there by 12 sellers (till date)..
- brand new nappy liners
- brand new swaddle cloth
- child carseat
- brand new & used swaddle cloth
- mittens & booties
- mothercare's rompers
- mothercare's bodysuit
- headband
- brand new avent milk bottles
- brand new pigeon milk bottles
- white cotbed
- FP rocker
- maternity clo...thes
- baby sarong
- baby posters
- brand new feeding set
- brand new gift set
- assorted baby's clothes (many different brands: levi, carter, fp, etc)
- toddler's swing
- mothercare socks
- pigeon multi-purpose sterilizer
- many baby's & children's toys
- toddler's swing
- baby's IQ vcd
- children's bicycle
- baby's blanket
- girl's dresses
- breast pump
- diapers (cloth/ disposable)
- diaper bag
- new baby johnson powder
- maxi cosi playtray for car seat
- chinese learning dvd
- baby books and flash cards
- baby einstein complete set dvds
- quinny carrier cot
- combi stroller
- baby safe latex mattress

SEE U THERE~~

Oh.. Please support my advertisers~ jus click each time u see a ad banner ok? Im saving up for bb diapers! :)

Dino's Blog Shop Officially Open!!!

2010-03-26T13:24:00.005+08:00

http://cottonfavor.blogspot.com/

I also launched my 1st spree with SingaporeMotherhood.com
http://www.singaporemotherhood.com/forumboard/messages/581296/3775349.html?1269580263

Support me ah... :) Its a mini blog shop, with ready stocks to earn some diaper money.. :)

Hope to hear from you soon!!!

Lets be Merry!!

2010-03-23T15:32:00.002+08:00

23 March 2010

Hello!! Im back from my break..

Was a short but good one.. sponsored by ah lao of coz.. lol..

Baby is now at 24 weeks... 6 months liao lor... need to deliver soon.. im having difficulties walking and sitting... cannot sit too long, cannot walk too long..

but im still a happy mommy.. slowly buying things for bb celeste's arrival!

during my last check up, Celeste is weighing at 516g and dino mommy has only gained 2kg over the past 5 mths.. boo hoo.. i dunno why is this happening... i must work hard to eat healthy food so that bb can get the most out of what i eat..

oh oh.. and and.........

my blog shop is up!! official opening on 26 March 2010..
Actually, its supported by Alvin la.. if not, i dun think i have the energy and capability to do it also.. i did a lot of homework and research.. now the goods are shipping here.. :) will be arriving anytime soon.. i decided to get stocks in myself instead of pre order cause i needed a smooth transaction cause i dunno if i got energy to do all the paper work and ordering here and there and consolidating stuff..

i will post the site up on 26th March 2010~~ Keep a lookout ok??

Baby and Children clothes, im trying to sell them as low as $5.. unless my cost doesnt permit me to do so.. so far, prices are reasonable and i alr have some orders liao.. i hope u can support this poor dino mommy to earn some pocket money for bb diapers ok? :)

CHEERS!! HUAT AH!

Busy Beee... Busy Meee

2010-03-15T00:49:00.002+08:00

15 March 2010

Im enjoying my pregnancy cause im pretty energetic compared to the previous one...
And im spending time with ah lao and family... :)

i went to IT fair and bodyshop warehouse sale on friday...!! bought some stuff... now im trying to get bb stuff bit by bit...

for clothes, i got it cheap online... so still ok...

Oh oh.. im gg for a short trip.. will only be back on thursday...!!

I pray my cases come in soon.. need $$ to give birth la....

Tmr' s gonna be a bz bz day.. got gynae check up.. hope i put on weight and bb's all good!
then gtg to a shop in chinatown to look for bb stuff...
then gtg many other places... hahaha

oh ya, not forgetting gg to my mom's place to eat some tonics!!

gotta sign off.. im hungry.. cant think of anything now.. lol

oh!! i might be opening a blog shop soon!! bb loots....

A bit messy but still ok...

2010-03-10T23:02:00.002+08:00

10 March 2010

Hmm.. Everything's very good... Bb's kicking and having party every night in my tummy... :)

I had been trying to shop for some stuff which i feel its essential for baby but i havent found the right one... instead of shopping arnd, i go research online then i will go over to the shops lor.. Taka got bb fair, here got fair, there got fair.. lol..

Anyway.. Im planning to get the Combi Urban Walker pram, so im looking for the best price i could find...

And.... im thinking of what i shud do after i deliver wor... and meanwhile, shud i do something too?

I took the first step today... and hope for good results by this week. (Pray)

Might be going for a short trip next week... cause alvin is on leave.. but i cant seem to let go of the responsibilities for the kiddos (niece and nephew).. haha... well.. we shall see how lor..

Cough is still here.. cant seem to recover.. and to make things even "better", i sprain myself when i was coughing.. TWICE on the same spot -.-'''

Haizz... how lucky....

Here's a glimpse of what i want to get...

(they got the PINK one.. haha.. but hor.. i must be fair.. if next one is boy.. i cant possibly ask him to sit in a pink pram right...??)

4-5 mths more to go...

2010-03-02T18:59:00.002+08:00

2 March 2010

Its gg to be my 21weeks this sat... and i jus realise.. i still havent buy quite a few things... listing them down to remind myself too! (my memory very bad now)

Before i do that..... im happy to announce that..... my bb's name is Celeste Loh! Bb girl is moving arnd and i think shes a night owl.... -.-''' and she scared of papa! haha...

Sad thing is that.. my appetite is not very good.. not that i dun wan to eat.. its cause i dun feel like eating much.. and the things i crave for, some of them... not very healthy for preggies... like... seafood (lala, crabs, prawns)... lol...

From my last visit, i lost a total of 3.5kg in 2 mths.. i find that its a bit worrying.. even hubby commented last night that he realise i dun eat as much as my 1st pregnancy... but its very nice of him to tell me that, he will bring me to batok east this friday for breakfast... :)

my appetite is almost equals to hubby's likings... but jus dun like the spicy part...

and right now, im down with cough.. with the mild medications, i am not having a speedy recovery.. i hope to get well soon.. cause mom says she wants to make bu for me and ask me to visit her once a week.. i think i need that badly as soon as i recover..

okok.. back to the loots and wishlists...

1. BreastPump - i am persistent to be on total breastfeeding (TBF) and i will not allow a single tin of formula milk at home.. well.. my friends who can lend me are either pregnant or for some other reasons... so i decided to get one myself... and due to budget constrain and some personal feedback and research, i decided to get a Ameda Lactaline Dual Breastpump. Did some research and i think average price is about $360 - $380...

2. Mini bar freezer - to store milk of coz! cause my current fridge is all packed with meat and blood.. which i feel will contaminate the milk in no time... but i have abt 3 mths after delivery to decide cause i will be latching baby most of the time during my confinement/maternity "leave".

3. Baby Cot - i am not getting that after much discussion and consideration... cause i will be putting bb girl on yao lan after her full mth for easy care.. and it would be more convenient for FIL too and we dun need to carry her to sleep.. As for the 1st mth, i am thinking of letting bb sleep on my bed and perhaps, papa will have to sleep elsewhere... lol.. sorry papa... but i will consider a playpen when bb girl can stand on her own cause FIL also need time to rest, he cant be monitoring her every min ma...

4. Pram - u see, i got this confusion with stroller and pram.. but whatever it is... hubby say get a pram cause he can help to carry the pram arnd when we go out... well... ok... but this is on my wishlist.. cause i cannot afford a pram now.. its quite costly... so friends... hahaha... full mth dun give me clothes ah... give me a PRAM.......

5. Baby carrier for hubby - i cannot expect him to sling bb right.. haha... i think not enuff cloth to wrap him.. OOPPSSS... lol... but i think a good baby carrier would be nice for hubby.. i saw nic's carrier when we met at westmall that time.. and i like it a lot.. but heard that its quite costly... hmm.. maybe i shud go walk arnd and see... again, this is on my wishlist too! a good support carrier, preferably with an extra strap across so that can support papa's back..

Other mini things i need to get...

Diapers - i will use the one that hospital gives us first, then i will decide if i shud continue using that brand or buy nepia one... but i will be letting bb wear disposable ones
Baby wipes - Pigeon brand of coz.. heard got a place that sells cheaper than kiddy palace!!
Breast Pads - Pigeon again.. its good!
Baby Bathing Items
Baby washing detergent

Other things that i have alr...

Bath tub - use back wedding one...
Steriliser - bought long time ago (Nuk brand)
Milk bottles - got a few from NUK last time, make do with it first
Water proof mat - got them last time for changing diapers
Newborn clothes - getting them from Nic (Thanks babe!)
0-3mths clothes - 6 sets from online website
3-6months clothes - 10 sets from online website
mittens and booties - 4 sets from last time (need to buy more)
Cloth diapers - a dozen from last time

What else have i missed out? i think i will add on as i remember la... lol...

So friends... baby full mth dun buy clothes liao hor... lol.... but pram! carrier! or... taka/robinson vouchers... lol.. i super practical one... cause buy liao no use lagi wasted right?? kekeke...

Im alr starting to think of bb full mth and chinese name.. i got a name for her.. but i dunno if i shud go to a shifu for it.. well.. why im thinking about it... cause i scared if i go see shifu, he will say my name no good, then change into some alibaba name... kekeke how how?

actually hor, i hit my panic button ytd when i realise im actually 21 weeks and i would deliver anytime after 36 weeks.. meaning to say.. i have another 15 weeks nia! OMG... and im still relaxing arnd lei...

Fang: i think we need to go shopping SOOON....

I am sick......

2010-02-22T22:23:00.003+08:00

Sick for the last 5 days le... feeling soooo terrible lor.. esp ytd when i had to go mom place to help her with the tian gong prayers... and having to sleep at 3am and wake up early today to go for my detailed scan...

BUT!!

Today's detailed scan is all worth it.. :) Its a........... BABY GIRL!!!!

Sonographer commented that bb girl is a quiet baby.. i guess its cause she didnt sound a lot of "dismay" when the sonographer spent like... 10 mins jus to see her heart.. lol... cause bb was lying in a position that it was quite hard to see her heart.. but we managed to get everything checked.. and bb is good!

Dr Ang wanted to take 3D but i think her profile is not that chio.. so we hope next visit can see her chio face! :)

We are keeping our fingers crossed and hope everything will turn out well this time... Shes a cute girl, i hope we can materialise this pregnancy.. :)

Today also Julius' 1st year anniversary....

Ju, mommy and daddy miss u a lot... u r always on our mind and often in our conversations.. Ju, u are a kor kor now.. thanks for bringing us another hope... i know u will bless us de.. i love u sweet heart..

Ur face is still in my mind... when i was doing spring cleaning, mommy saw ur 3D picture.. and i kissed u.. :) If u are here, u shud be smiling away... :) but its ok.. u are now with all our ancestors and god... i know u are in their good hands...

Mommy miss u...

CNY

2010-02-17T13:08:00.004+08:00

Woo hoo.... CNY is finally over

CNY is always a tiring festival for me.. cheong here and there and giving out $$ everywhere i go :(( But this year's ang bao shrink a lot.. hahaha.. cause my mom also shrink, so i also shrink lor! she say all the kids all grow up and earning a lot of $$.. so no need to give so much liao... (i agree mom!!) wahahhahaa...

CNY Day 1:

7am: otw to mom house to help my mom cook..

As usual, my all time favourite dish voted by guests... FRIED PRAWNS! Mom bought about 2kg of prawns and i deep fry it and completed in 2 hours... this year, i had a chair right in front of the stove! hahaha... Tiring ok...

And the result?

Alvin help me count.. i got a total of 24 bumps from the "happy" oil... my mom see liao, she say.. "u wanna wrap ur hand with a cloth?" -.-'''

Its the first time after soooo many years that i kena this from the oil.. so we suspect that the helper that helped us peel the shells off the prawns didnt dry the prawn before storing it into the fridge... T^T

I told mom.. next year im gg to do-it-myself......

WE FINALLY FINISH COOKING!!!!!

This year, my auntie and family wont be coming to my plc cause her MIL jus passed away.. so cannot go visiting for 1 year... therefore, we were able to start the cooking later cause they always come at 9am... previous years, we have to reach mom place at 6+am to help cook liao...

And because of this, we cut down a lot on the portion and the varieties of dishes... but still taste as good!!

Shark's fin soup
Pig stomach soup
mini abalone + sea cucumber + mushroom with oyster sauce
2 cans of abalone
curry chicken (soooo good that i had it for 3 meals which is the reason for my sore throat now... :( )
Ngoh Hiang

Previous year, we even had buddha jump over the wall and steamed ngoh fish etc...

My mom dont like preservatives or food off the rack.. so even the chicken and crab meat for shark's fin, she will steam it herself.. cause she say its fresher that way...

As for the curry, she pound the ingredients using the tradition stone thingy instead of blender cause she say the scent will come out...

Sea cucumbers she will wash them herself and she did that since Nov cause she will wash and gift to pple... she spends about 4 digit on that itself... -.-'''

Pig stomach, she will wash it with salt.. she dun believe in using pepsi... she say not clean de...

kekeke.. i wish i have more pics to share... but... we were too busy heating up the food cause we are not using stove but the traditional charcoal stove!! *faint*... thats another mi fang why the food taste good! :)

1pm: last batch of guests left.. we served food to about 20 over pax i think.. waahhahaa.. lost count... then off we prepare to go visiting at ah ma house at bishan

Wah... over 10 families were there... all of them are my aunties and cousins and little cousins.. imagine my cousin coaxing her son to call my grand ma ah chor! that is 3 generations in a house! too packed.. and we give ang bao until hand soft... wahahhaa... so we quickly set off the alvin uncle house...

BUT!!

My white pants got stained with the chocolate that my little little cousin left on the sofa!!!! T^T

then we faster go back home to wash the pants and change lor..

6+pm: Alvin's uncle house

Basically, we jus sat there as usual.. and we left about 7ish? then the cousins went to Dempsey's Ben & Jerry for ICE CREAM and....... CHEESE FRIES!!!! wah.. damn shiok....

Happy Chinese New Year!!

2010-02-14T02:08:00.002+08:00

祝大家。。虎年行大运，万事如意，步步高升！！！

Its CNY liao!! Tiger year will be a good year for me, ah lao and baby.. and our family and friends too!! Huat ah!!

Went for a good reunion dinner at mom's place... i miss her food sooo much.. cant wait for more tomorrow.. must faster sleep liao... need to reach her place early tmr...

Enjoy the long holiday and..... HAPPY VALENTINES!!

Spring Cleaning was a SUCESS!

2010-02-12T22:29:00.003+08:00

Thanks for baby for giving mommy that energy to pull thru all the spring cleaning process and of coz to daddy ah lao for helping me out with the walls, ceiling and climbing!! lol!!

I am sooo happy to have gotten many CNY stuff like clothes, bedding stuff etc etc at quite good prices... how i wish banks also have offer.. "Change $200 of $10 denominations and get $50 change FREE!!" =.= think too much... hahaha.. well.. thats what preg woman love to do! lol

Tmr will be my reunion dinner with mom!! then rush home to sleep and wake up early morning like... before 7am to rush to mom place again to help her prep her CNY dishes and wait for guests to come...!! every year is the same... its really a time race lor... after that, we gtg ah ma house then go to alvin's uncle house...

chu 2 is always my ah kim house then to ah lao's another uncle house.. chu 3 is my nanny house and to another uncle house..

=.= super bz lor!! i hope bb will be kuai kuai to mommy ok? i remember last year, i was sleeping on the chair at ah lao's uncle house till dinner time lor!! -.-'''

Tiger year.. heard not too good for rats.. but!! i shall be a different rat!! HUAT AH.. Heng heng all the way!!!!! Everything beautiful, positive and good will fall upon me!! and baby.. and ah lao!!

SHUN SHUN LI LI... HUAT AHHHHH!!!

p.s: i miss my best pal... fangzzz!!!

and and...

Please click on the banners whenever u see them.. every click counts.. and u can click every time u see ok? bb need pampers money... THANKS!!!

收工大吉

2010-02-09T13:06:00.002+08:00

yay!! finally...

had quite a good rest ytd and feeling more energetic today le... 4 days more to clear my room!! haha... tmr and thurs ah lao on leave... but thurs i gtg do my eyebrows cause its really super messy... T^T

walking towards my 18th week of pregnancy... and on 22nd Feb i will be gg for my detailed scan! 22nd is also Julius' 1st year anniversary... And im still missing him alot... 1 year liao... i kept myself in a really slow momentum cause im really lost... i hope i will find my direction soon and start my engine again!!

March 2010 faster come.. im really anxious to know if i can get a flat or not... really really anxious.... i hope i can get a house really soon la...

anyways... from now till july is only 5 mths... i hope i can materialise this pregnancy and faster get back on track again... i miss earning money.. haha

pray hard for me....

CNY CNY...

2010-02-04T19:05:00.002+08:00

4 Feb 2010

Freaking tired... =.=

i havent been resting for the past 1 week!!!! busy with CNY spring cleaning and buying clothes and throwing things away... haizz

and i also spent some time work.. im really batt flat liao...

i need to have 1 day jus for myself.... WHEN WHEN WHEN??

if i dun rest now... it will soon be CNY lor... and CNY is like damn bz for me.. how how how!!!

my errands is run bu wan de... i need a break.... SAVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

15weeks and 2 days..

2010-01-26T00:06:00.002+08:00

26 Jan 2010

Went to dr ang today... baby is growing well :) Gender?? We all cannot see!! but.. if he were to make a guess.. it would be a girl.. but dr ang cannot confirm yet cause we could hardly catch a glimpse of that "part" for more than 3 sec! -.-

Very notti bb...

But hor.. i was a little upset that it would be a girl.. but after a quick nap.. i woke up and suddenly i told myself.. haiya.. i planning to have 3.. why i worry so much? hahaha.. ya lor! i think it must be the pregnancy emo la.. super overwhelming.. i read pple blog about how they love their hubby, how they thank their family.. the tears will come out liao.. SUPER emo...

i have not gained a weight for the last 1 mth but bb is growing faster than me! haha... shall post the scan soon ok? Its with ah lao's iphone..

My appetite not too good.. can only eat small portions.. durain also can eat max 2 hootss.. anything more than that... it will all end up in the plastic bag...

Sat, i sweep + mop floor.. wash laundry 3 times and monitor the clothes.. haha.. i was soooo shag that i slept from 8 PM to 11 AM!!!! hahaha.. I only remember waking up to PEE!

Speaking of pee... haizz.. im back to the peeing game again.. from the moment i sleep till i wake up... chao chao pee like... 3-4 times? sometimes im too tired that i loon.. and i loon until i can dream about me being "urgent" -.-

Today itself.. i can pee twice in 5 mins.. and i cannot sit long, cause it will press on my bladder and i feel like peeing again.. (like now, as im typing lor)

Argh!! Ok... my emo is coming again..

And.. to my ah lao:

Thanks for spending the 2 nights with me staying outside.. thou a big hole in our pocket.. but... it really helped.. i can feel that my pregnancy felt so relieved.. Im sorry that we (bb and me) had to make u hold back ur opportunity to venture into something more stable.. But dear, if u think that u shud make that step.. u kah kah ki.. i will support u de.. jus like how u always support me in whatever decisions i make, be it i fall or succeed. Dont worry about me or our pockets.. God gave us another chance.. God will have a path for us to walk.. Like what i told u that night.. Nothing can make me fall.. unless i want to fall myself. So u dont worry about me.. U have given me more than i expected.. Im very gan ji alr.. When its time for u to fly.. i will be with u (oh!! and of coz our bao bei too!) Thanks for everything ah lao... li tio si wa eh ai lin lah! kekeke

Constipated

2010-01-21T17:32:00.002+08:00

21 Jan 2010

Im not pooing!!!! argh!! Well.. it seems to be normal for preggies.. but its definitely a buay song thing lor... Making me so mang zang!!

Just went to a neighbourhood salon to do my hair and prep for CNY... Went for an appt to get some work done...

Niece is far away in Changi having her camp... I think its a very good thing la.. hope she change to be more independent and not so xiao jie.. haha... good break for her after 3 weeks of chasing after her spellings and ting xies... silly syllabus is making kids soooo overwhelmed...

Anyway! im gg to be 15 weeks in 2 days! Im not even half way there.. lol... Well.. im happy that im not overly excited and not very cautious about things like.. making myself worry la... but the fear will soon step in once i can feel the movements.. i hope i can overcome!

Sometimes i jus feel like letting go.. but sometimes i really bo pian

2010-01-14T22:57:00.002+08:00

MIL jus told me to let loose the kids a bit... let them finish lunch and rest then do homework... i think my FIL told her to tell me..

I was very angry when i heard this.. i explained to both of them..

Both of them reach home at 230pm... Jiayi tuition at 330pm.. They took their time to eat till 3pm... asked jiayi what homework she has.. she has compre and chinese to do... i asked her to complete them before tuition.. at least the chinese first... cause her tuition is ending at 5pm... and by the time she dilly delly will be 5+pm.. then time for dinner.. and she will watch tv.. then she wont complete her homework.. and she gotta learn her chinese and english spelling... but this good girl completed her eng and chinese homework before tutor come and after tuition, she rest all way... Am i wrong? If i were to leave everything till after tuition, she cannot finish.. its not that i dun wan her to do later but... theres no time...

Eamon... he is having flu.. after lunch, i got him to complete his spelling corrections, fed him medicine and get him to shower then ask him to sleep at 315pm.. why? after med, he drowsy, he will sleep till dinner time... if i get him to shower, then he wont have to shower in the night catching another cold... and after medication, he will be drowsy, then he cannot do homework cause drowsy ma... so rather that he sleep and get drowsy all the way till SIL bring them home to rest...

Taking care of the 2 kids is not at our own time own target.. its proper planning... making sure nothing gets affected... after recess, they also go back to class and study... whats the diff? plus, its only tuition days that everything needs to rush..

I let go for a long time.. didi's attitude becoming worse... its easy to let go.. but it can take up to 1 year to grab them back to track... then what can we do? cane them? no! its consistent monitoring.. im not a kiasu person.. but instead of everyday grabbing the child back, why not keep them on track and nurture them? Im not a unreasonable ah kim.. but how long do i have them with me? once they go to sec sch, then i regret and cry over spilled milk? why they have their friend to influence them then i grab back? too late...

I never believe in lettting them grow by themselves.. this is what my mom did to me.. and i had to go thru everything the hard way..

its not easy guiding 2 kids.. they are jus my niece and nephew, i have my limitations and i try not to cross the border.. there are things that its not up to me to say NO. but everytime when i get reprimanded by ILs, i want to let go.. but.. in my heart, i know... i cannot be a selfish person.. these are little minds, little lives that we cannot jus neglect like tat... its a life that parents bring to earth.. its our responsibility to guide them to track and bring them to a place where they can fly. Its very selfish jus to "let them be" and later cane or scold them for their misbehave..

If we wanna bring them here, we need to do our part.. these 2 kids are very very dear to me... i cannot give up.. cause my mom gave up or didnt try or jus keep telling me to follow the path myself.. i was lost at a moment and end up taking the wrong route..

Jia yi was lost.. it took all of us 1 year to bring her back... 1 year, she lost too many things.. now.. she is working hard, playing hard.. and loving herself... i hope didi will be like her..

I know there are more complains from the old folks to come.. but i will endure.. its not easy to be a guiding star but i will make sure i shine high and bright and see these 2 kiddos grow up proper and be well.

Im into my 2nd tri!!

2010-01-14T19:11:00.002+08:00

13 weeks and 5 days

Fella is start to tap on me! Ytd, i was coughing very hard on the bed... and when i stop.. fella was tapping on me machiam telling me.. "hello mommy?! slowly! u r disturbing my sleep!!" Alvin felt the tap too!

Nausea is still there... Feeling all aching and quizzy (i cannot find a better word to describe liao)... Seeing Dr Ang on 25th Jan.. its gonna be another heart panic for me lor.. everytime wanna see dr, always very scared.. after the visit, i will be all happy...

How i wish i can faster see dr ang and feel happy...

Me...

I wish... i have the energy and time... Emo is getting all over me... Worried about ballot, HLE, fella and CNY!! hahaha.. CNY is always a very tiring thing for me... i hope CNY faster come... And the date... 22nd Feb is always on my mind.. The day when my life stop and takes another route.. Coming to a year liao... Julius is always on my mind... I love u boy...

Happy things

Er... food?? I get to eat my ba kut teh and many many things!! I think im gg to get alvin buy durian for me later... i LOVE durian!!

我的心很乱

2010-01-11T15:25:00.002+08:00

So many things for me to think... i feel like no one sharing with me this burden.

Maybe i shud heed shen po's advice.. not to think about other things.. jus think of good things. i feel that.. i dun haf privacy... everyone thinks that im talking rubbish.. must wait until i cannot contain anymore then regret that they never hear me speak?

Hai...

My mattress spoil le... wanna get a new one but was adviced not to cause im preg... :( its very very uncomfortable... how? what shud i do? Alvin everyday play game play game... i can hardly speak to him about these things... but anyway, i think putting 2 thin mattress to tahan first lor

Hear no evil and be happy!

Updates...

2010-01-07T18:45:00.002+08:00

Me: I cant eat much o/w i will puke
Her: I used to eat a big bowl. u dun eat, later u wanna find food again
Me: I cannot eat.. no space to put.. later puke
Her: Must be a girl, very selective, jing pai si (very naughty)

BTO
188 available (4m) vs 1296 applications
-.-|||

Told the folks that i applied but nothing confirm...
She: ya, my relative children also apply. They say dun stay together(with the married couple) better

FIL didnt look happy at first. but i told him that if batok kena enbloc in years time, i will sell the cck flat and pay for their new flat. ask him dun worry... then he happy a bit.. :) FIL's the best

Tomorrow
Busy. Holland V - TPY (HDB) - BUGIS - CCK - IMM
WHERES MY ADIDAS SNEAKERS???

Fella
Ytd... i felt a light tap. not kick.. a tap.. not gas, or anything like tat... it happened when i was lying down... :)

Will i have the ticket?

2010-01-05T16:54:00.002+08:00

5 Jan 2010

Recd a sms today from HDB on a new BTO at CCK... jus nice alvin at home.. so we went to check it out online....

1. 3 bus stops away from CCK Mrt
2. Behind got big NPC
3. max max 4 rm at 278k
4. BTO complete in 2014

Well.. the completion date is something im comfy of.. the Dawson one is 2016 lor.. too far liao.. i need to be ready for enbloc for my mom side or alvin's side... if i take commit to something too far (time) away... then im losing control of my plans...

Here.. its a bit small liao our new addition.. Friends who come to my house would understand.. i hardly can put a baby cot in my room... Its time also la.. i know commitments and stuff.. but... here is too sardine-d liao..

Sometimes, when u gotta do it, u gotta do it.. we hope to get the ticket la.. now nothing confirm... hope we can move along and jian zhao chai zhao lor..

From HDB website

Too tired to complete all my tasks

2010-01-04T22:57:00.002+08:00

I got plenty of things to do... but hor... i got no energy.. everyday i try to complete 1 -2 things..

I need to settle one impt thing soon.. i need to make sure i have a peaceful mind with only good things in my head.... shall get a cute baby picture and keep looking at it... need to listen to sweet baby lullaby...

too many negative vibes arnd me.. i need to make them go...

I want to see my mom.. and i miss her food.. I dun wan egg and chai por and luncheon meat liao.. Im gg to call mama tmr and talk to her.. i will need to call insurance coy tmr...

Fang wedding present is on the way.. but the supplier is very jia lat.. machiam dun wanna do biz.. but besides him.. no one can do it liao... :( managed to get in touch with him together.. hope everything will go on smoothly...

Kiddos' tuition arrangement seems quite messy now.. but now waiting for his eng tutor to confirm with me the time again..

I need to get info from my boss to start the ball rolling again.. and i need to hand in some stuff to the other boss...

I need to go bank too..

Mother birthday on 19th, i need to buy chang shou mian and bring it to her..

But again... i can do a few things at a time...

I stop taking my multi vits cause its very heaty... but im very guilty.. but gynae say dun eat its ok de... but if i eat... i constipate... how?

MIL is driving me nuts... I wanna get some peace....!!

Argh... due to hormones... im very emo.......

HAPPY 2010

2010-01-01T20:09:00.003+08:00

1 Jan 2010

This post also marks the 300th post :)

Well.. A good start of a new year... Leave all the bad memories behind and start afresh..

Good news for a start? Dino is officially 12 weeks pregnant as of 2nd Jan 2010.. EDD is on 17 July 2010! 28 weeks to go! It wasnt a planned one.. in fact.. we sorta gave up...

Dont congrats me until i pop.. Cause we are still in the race... But we still remain positive.. :)

Fella came when i was making big plans to go holiday, change of career directions and my life.. Just as i set my mind to enjoy a good marriage life with Alvin.. God sent us a perfect gift for the both of us to nurture and make it happen..

Dr Ang is trying his best to materialise this pregnancy too.. Every visit to his clinic was heart throbbing.. Fears and memories will jus come back to me.. But we have gone past twice... And last visit, fella was moving (cycling + mahjong)... lol..

This pregnancy was not a relaxing one... morning sickness (MS) haunting me from day till night.. Small appetite but tons of meals (Im actually on a 3 hourly feed ok)... All my likes in the past are now my "dislikes".. and... Im loving what alvin loves to eat and hating what he hates to eat... Peeing in the middle of the night and a new MS compared to Julius' time... - PUKING...

My goodness...

When Dr Ang hears this.. he is happy! He say.. "good good.. thats great" -.-

It actually shows that the hormones are increasing and stuff which are good signs that fella is growing and developing well.. lol.. how nice.... -.-

Anyway... Dr Ang say... Next week we can know the gender liao! hahaha.. Girl will sweet.. and boy will be good.. But after Julius, we doesnt really matter anymore.... As long as we can materialise this.. Every pregnancy is different, every child is unique.. I wont take this pregnancy lightly...

Alright, here's a glimpse of our bao bei...

For those who are trying their best to figure out...... (Left side: Legs Right side: Head) See the 2 little things sticking out on the left? Thats the legs.. Dont worry, fella will show us a better view in 3 weeks' time!

Wishing everyone and ME.. hao shi lian lian... shun shun li li..

When can u stop cursing?

2009-12-28T19:27:00.002+08:00

Besides the sitting on the floor and twisting fella's legs.. Heres the latest one..

She: U ah, dun keep eating biscuits. very heaty
Me: Where got eat a lot.. why cannot eat?
She: Later u very heaty.. the heart (fella) will dry up.. (in hokkien: tang zi eh [wait later] yi eh sim zjong [his heart] ta ta ki [dry up])

EH.. IM REACHING THE LIMIT

Dont she know that i jus had stillbirth? How come she cannot be other pple who say.. "dun eat so heaty things cause u cannot jia liang now?" And hor.. u know preggies not scared of heaty one?? She "experience" ma.. how come she dunno?? WA KAO

TIAN AHHHHHHHHHHH

Anxious + Excited + Kan Cheong + Nervous

2009-12-27T20:31:00.003+08:00

Im excited for my ah fang!! 3 Jan 2010 is her big day!!! But too bad i cannot be of help to her... :( BUT!! We are meeting up for post WEDDING DINNER! Their initial plan was a poolside wedding.. OK! We shall have a POST POOLSIDE WEDDING DINNER!!! HAHAHAHAHAHHA Im preparing her wedding gift.. Actually my body is not working as fast as i want to.. but i hope she will like the present.. :)

Tomorrow is the blue or pink day ma?

Im very stress!! But heard the nervousness and stress is very very normal..

Im very very tired... and im puking every now and then... Im very uncomfortable....! Argh..

BUT I cant wait for 16th Jan 2010! Post WEDDING DINNER!!

Great Gathering

2009-12-23T22:24:00.002+08:00

Was accompanying alvin with ytd's set up at guan's pub together with pat, anthony and a new friend... Time pass soo fast and we only complete whole thing at 5am! hahaha but it was a good session.. We had a great time..

18 Dec 09 - Tiring Friday

2009-12-18T23:24:00.002+08:00

Busy day today!

Washed all my high heels to store into the cabinet for the next 7 mths... take out all my flats and put on the rack...

clean and clear my wardrobe and pack all the unwanted clothes to go to salvation army.

And now.. im jus 90% done cause i went to sheng siong with ah lao to get stuff.. tired alr.. how?

What am i gg to do with the clothes that i dun wan but still in good condition??

hahaha... sianzz

Happy Birthday Fang!!

2009-12-11T20:23:00.002+08:00

Bz with egg tarts and cupcakes since ytd midnight... now very sleepy.. kekeke

went for dim sum with fangzz at chinatown..!! while finding a seat, the uncle came and ask how many pple...

Uncle: how many pple?
Me: 2
Uncle: sit there la (pointing at a small table)
Me: but later i order food will have no space to put..
Uncle: *pause for a while* smile and let us have a bigger seat

hahaha.. and we order quite a lot but its cheap! $30 nia.. and its quite a spread..

Then went to buy wedding stuff with Fang.. so fun...!! hahaha and this fang keep asking me if im tired.. lol..

NO FANG.. i wont be tired cause im very excited and happy for u!! hahaha...

Wedding Wedding

2009-12-10T16:55:00.003+08:00

Hahaha.. was searching for some wedding things and i came across this.. and i think its good to remember on ur AD ba...

Fang.. try to remember ok? lol..

Removing Shoes
Do not take off your shoes until your chinese wedding ceremony is over. The modern custom is to remove the wedding shoes only after returning to the groom's home or bridal home after the bride's home visit to her parent's home

(i didnt take off until i completed EVERYTHING (morning).. i took off only when i went back hotel to get ready for banquet)

Bridal Bed
It is preferred that no one sleeps or sits on the bridal bed after its installation and blessing for fertility. If however, the groom needs to sleep on it before the wedding he should be accompanied by a young boy preferably born in the year of the Dragon. To leave one side of the bridal bed empty is considered a curse on the health of the couple.

Taking care of Roast Pig
If a roast pig is included as part of the bride’s home visit gifts, be careful not to break the ears or tails accidentally. An imperfect roast pig implies that the bride is not a virgin. >> er... remember the roast pig = to the pig leg? they symbolise the same thing.. the chasity of the bride

thats all for now.. hahaha